Just getting over things...
SO the more I think about things the more I just wanna hate the world, and really just hate myself. I mean I let myself get into another situation where the guy said i was amazing, smart, beautiful and just perfect, and believed it. From there you know months or so go by and then finally start to date. Then the fun begins. I mean thats when they all of a sudden just stop trying or don't care or don't talk as much as they used to. Then they always tell me that they are just busy and that they still care for me and will talk more soon. After that point i tend to get the stupid feeling in my stomache that I just need to run. BUt I rationalize this by saying its just my heads sending mixed messages because of the past biting me so hard before. THen about a week after this I either get a myspace message, a voicemail, a text or an email saying things are over. Or in one case just no call at all. I mean what the hell is wrong with me??? What hoenstly makes these guys run?? Or to continue to look for someone when they are with me. I mean I am still not over somethings that have happened to me. I wanna know how these guys all can get over me so damn quick??? Seriously!!!! I need time in between to honestly make sure I am over the last person. I am so excited for my best friend. He got setup with this really great girl. Well from what I can hear. And he is in the best mood. And seems like he is finally a bit happier. Which is great because he has been really down in the dumps. So thats great. I just wish someone would set me up. I just don't get it. I am not in a good mood...I say fuck the world!!!!! thats it!!!!HELP ME!!!!