uhhnnnnnn
So I did the whole black belt test thing.
I'm not done yet, I have to finish the stances and one or two other things (postponed due to lack of time).
I ache everywhere.
The 25 min continuous sparring sucked.
I had a sudden attack of blinding terror and momentarily forgot the ending of a kata I have been doing for years.
There was a discrepancy about what constitutes a bunkai.
Overall, I think that it went as well as possible, but that doesn't stop the downward spiral of failure I feel on the inside whenever I think about the whole thing. Plus one of my sparring gloves is missing. I have a tournament in two weeks, what the heck am I supposed to do?
I think I will try to score some green from my step dad, and then pop some Advil PM and try to forget.
I'm not done yet, I have to finish the stances and one or two other things (postponed due to lack of time).
I ache everywhere.
The 25 min continuous sparring sucked.
I had a sudden attack of blinding terror and momentarily forgot the ending of a kata I have been doing for years.
There was a discrepancy about what constitutes a bunkai.
Overall, I think that it went as well as possible, but that doesn't stop the downward spiral of failure I feel on the inside whenever I think about the whole thing. Plus one of my sparring gloves is missing. I have a tournament in two weeks, what the heck am I supposed to do?
I think I will try to score some green from my step dad, and then pop some Advil PM and try to forget.