I cant get a break! - i love him!
So most of you know me im not a bad person most of the time! am i? I normally do the right thing so why cant i just firgive her.. i have come so close in the last two days and true Britt is gone and i seem to be the only one that is holding onto this whole thing. but i keep thinkoing what if that was me what if she said that stuff to me??? - i would have probably smacked her one! - and i have thought about punching her but truth is im scared that if she retaliates that i will come off second best! Aghhh! why did they make being a teenager so fcking hard???
well now im training three nights a week for hockey and playing two games a weekend if one of my teams dont have a bye! and in doing this i have given my parents yet another thing to threaten me with. i cant win.
school is great and shit all at the same time! im a loner in maths now because my stupid co-ordinator decided to move me, But on the up side im enjoying english now and im having fun in most of my other classes.. Caz thats probably because of you.
urrmmm i dont have much else to write.
Me and josh are going well. I found my year 7 journal the other day and i wrote some of the most bitchyest things.. hahahaa. well i was young back then i know better now.......NOT!!!!!......hahahahaa. i have been thinking, i have been told so many times that when you tell a guy you love them they will run as far as they can to get away from you. well in my case he fights with me and says stuff like i love you more and he wont let it go either... im am so confussed...
Well i guess because i am on a role i might as well write some more... lets talk issy!
Hahaha i can never seem to win with her i always do something wrong and i dont mean it! she is always like "Oh i shouldnt be talking to you right now." and im over it. sure i love her and all but i just dont need her shit at the moment.. and i cant believe that Rose is pregnant!!! i mean seriously!
well i have ranted for way tooo long! im going to check the hockey updates! Court me and you this weekend im gonna make it happen!
Well love you all.
caitie.