Blind
Title: Blind
Pairing: Soohyun/Eli
Genre: Romance, angst
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Soohyun and Eli are best friends. Eli has a girlfriend. They all live happily…OK, maybe not all of them, but the point is that happiness doesn’t last forever…or is there still hope?
Chapter: 10/13
Disclaimer: Yeah, yeah, no one belongs to anyone…
AN/ Now, we have the situation from the 9th chapter, but told in…
Eli’s P.O.V.A soft whisper and a hand gently shaking my shoulder rouse me from my dreamless sleep. As I’m enveloped in darkness, confusion floods my mind for a few seconds before my brain registers that the strong and yet tender voice telling me to get up belongs to my best friend. My body instantly relaxes, fully accepting Soohyun’s touch. I slowly sit up and let my best friend help me out of the bed. As we walk to the kitchen, I intertwine my fingers with Soohyun’s, the subtle activity already as natural as breathing for me. A soft smile makes its way to my lips as I enjoy the subtle contact between us, warmth entering my calm heart. I never knew that just being with Soohyun could give me all the reassurance I need, and that such a simple touch could make me feel so at ease…and simultaneously spark excitement and craving for even more…All too soon, we arrive at the kitchen, though, and Soohyun helps me sit at the table. Seconds later, I feel a cool, smooth surface brush against my fingers. It’s a bowl of rice that Soohyun cooked for me. “Thanks,” I say, a gentle smile making its way to my lips. Then, I carefully extend my hand forward and tentatively brush my fingers over the table surface in search of my chopsticks. Soon, I hear the sound of a chair being dragged closer to mine as well as Soohyun’s voice offering help. I’m truly grateful for his care and that he's willing to put up with me, his now useless, blind friend. No…Soohyun wouldn’t think of me like that...he’s not a narrow-minded person. We’ve known each other for so long and I know him. Furthermore, I’m not a pessimist…so I shouldn’t let this situation get to me. I need to get a hold of myself and face everything that comes my way. “Wait. I want to try to eat by myself,” I say and, shortly after, I hear Soohyun agree, though there is something slightly off with his voice…But I have to do this by myself, I don’t want to burden him and I don’t wish for him to see my weak side. I want to be strong, not only for my sake, but also for his so I’m going to try my best.
“When are you going to be back?” I ask.
“I finish classes at 1 pm so I think I’ll be here around half an hour later. Why?” I hear Soohyun reply, a tiny hint of curiosity in his voice.
“No particular reason, but you know what? I just realized that it’s pointless for me to ask…after all, it’s not like I can glance at my watch to check the time,” I realise dejectedly.
“Well, you could always listen to the radio, they mention what time it is every so often, right?” Soohyun offers after a short pause.
“You’re right, I’ll just listen to the radio,” I utter, a tone of cheerfulness in my voice as my mood instantly improves and a smile makes its way to my lips.
After the breakfast challenge, which I fulfil not without some difficulties, Soohyun washes the dishes and then I hear his light footsteps, a sign that he’s approaching me. Shortly after, I feel his cool hand on my shoulder and I experience a warm, tingling sensation all over my body. Yearning physical contact, I lift my hand up and touch his soft one that is resting on my shoulder. Then, Soohyun offers to take me to my room and I take this as a chance to intertwine my fingers with his during the walk. The activity now seems like a habit that I don’t want to ever give up.
Soon, Soohyun helps me sit at my bed and, after making sure that I’ll be all right, leaves the room a few minutes later. I sigh and fall back on my fluffy navy comforter. It’s time. It’s time for me to prepare for my drunken show.
I reach my hand in the direction of the bedside table and blindly search for my cell phone. After taking the device and slipping it into my pocket, I carefully get up from my bed and slowly start walking in the direction of the door. At least that’s what I believe. As I move forward, with my hands stretched in front of me, I count each step that I take and after a short while, my fingers brush over the cool, smooth door surface. 10 steps. There are 10 steps from the door to the bed. Soon, my hand finds the door knob. I leave my room to head to the living room where, after some minor difficulties, I manage to turn the radio on. Good. Now I’ll be more or less aware of what time it is. A smile appears on my lips as I slowly make my way to the kitchen. A few minutes later, while I’m trying to locate the fridge, I hear my cell phone ringing. I fish the device out from my pocket and press the rectangular button on the left. “Hello?”
“Eli, I’m on my break now. Is everything all right? Do you need anything?” a pleasant, familiar voice asks and I instantly know that it’s Soohyun who’s calling me.
“Yeah, everything’s fine. You don’t need to worry,” I assure him as a gentle smile makes its way to my lips. He cares about me so much. At that thought, soothing warmth enters my heart.
After chatting for a while longer, Soohyun hangs up for he has to attend his subsequent class. I, on the other hand, finally stumble upon the fridge. After opening it, I lift my hand up and direct it to the right where the door shelf and our beer supply ought to be. I tentatively move my hand until my fingers brush over a cold tin surface. I carefully grab one can after the other until there are 15 of them and then put them all on the kitchen counter. As I proceed to open the first tin I hear that there’s 10 o’clock news on the radio. I take a sip out of the first can to confirm that it’s beer. The bitter taste on my tongue tells me that, indeed, it’s beer all right. Seconds later, I find myself searching for the sink, which should be located a bit to the left from where I’m standing. Having found it, I pour all of the can’s contents down the drain. Next, I do the exact same thing with the next 12 tins, first, I taste if they contain beer and then pour the bitter substance into the sink. After having done that, I’m left with 2 cans, but this time, instead of getting rid of the liquid, I drink the 2 remaining beers myself. Next, I somehow succeed in taking all the empty cans with me and very slowly start walking in the direction of the living room. When my legs come into contact with a hard object, which I identify as our coffee table, I put all the cans on the table surface and then reach my hands out to feel my way to the couch and take a seat. As I lean back into the soft cushion, the sound of my ringtone, which I have set for Soohyun, floats into my ears. Having answered the phone, I once again assure my best friend that everything’s all right and that he needn’t worry. Just as I hang up, I hear on the radio that it’s 11 o’clock. I release a sigh of accomplishment and make myself comfortable on the couch, a soft smile on my lips. Now, the only thing left is for me to wait for Soohyun to return. About 2 hours later of my relaxing on the couch while listening to the enjoyable sounds of the music, with one more phone call along the way, I hear the sound of the front door being opened. I assume it’s Soohyun, who returned from his university, and the voice calling my name only confirms my belief. Being aware of that fact, I quickly close my eyes, wipe any trace of emotions off my face and pretend to be asleep. Shortly after, I hear Soohyun’s footsteps near the couch. Then, a distinctive noise makes its way into my ears, which I identify as the beer cans colliding against each other. Soohyun must be taking the tins off the coffee table. I hope he’s counting them as I purposefully took out over 13 of them. Next, his the sound of his footsteps gradually becomes more remote indicating that he’s going somewhere, most probably the kitchen. He’s never liked the cans littering our apartment. Shortly after, I hear him approach once more and soon, I feel his hand on my shoulder as he tries to gently shake me awake while, in his soft voice, verbally prompting me to leave dreamland. I pretend to slowly wake up and drunkenly ask if it’s Soohyun, though I know perfectly well that it’s him. He confirms offers to take me to my room. Then, he takes my hands to pull me up to a standing position. I’m sure that due to our proximity he’s able to smell alcohol in my breath. Good. As we walk to my room, I let myself lean heavily on Soohyun just as a completely wasted person would. Soon after, we arrive at the door to my room and immediately after stepping inside, I start counting every step that we take. One…two…three…four…five…six…seven…it’s almost time…eight...…nine…now! I deliberately trip over my own two feet and make the both of us fall onto my bed. Having landed on top of Soohyun, I take a deep breath at the contact of our bodies.
“Are you alright?” I hear Soohyun ask in a concerned voice. The sound hinting at the location of his lips.
“Yeah…” I reply, my voice low with want and anticipation as I slowly but surely decrease the distance between our faces. It’s now or never… Seconds later, my lips tentatively cover Soohyun’s and I feel as if electricity ran though my body. I’m blindly kissing my best friend…while being unsure of his reaction. I move my lips against his, but he’s not returning the kiss. I become desperate. Please, Soohyun, respond to the kiss! Please! As if on cue, I feel Soohyun’s soft lips start moving against mine, the kiss being returned. An immense sense of relief washes over me at that and I experience an incredible sense of happiness inside of me. Then, I feel Soohyun’s arms slowly encircle my waist, bringing me closer, and I release a quiet groan at the close contact as we continue our enjoyable activity. Soon, the kiss becomes more passionate and I slide my moist tongue over Soohyun’s bottom lip, asking for entrance. He grants it and lets me explore his honey-flavoured mouth…and I let him do the same. Gosh, this feels incredible…Then, as our tongues fight for dominance, I let my hands slide down Soohyun’s well-built chest…and arrive at the hem of his shirt. Then, my fingers slowly slip under the soft fabric and come into contact with Soohyun’s smooth, bare skin. I hear Soohyun groan throatily, the sinful sound making me even more aroused. I start exploring the other man’s well-toned chest, running my palms over the soft skin, while Soohyun is trailing kisses down my jawline to ultimately attach his lips to my neck, sucking on my skin. The activity making me moan in pleasure and yearn for more. Soon, I feel Soohyun’s warm hands slip under my tee and slowly travel all over my bare back. I release a low groan at the sensation and seek his lips to engage in a needy, wet kiss, the other man’s irresistible tropical scent driving me crazy. I feel my body heat up at our intense activity and I experience an overpowering desire course through my veins. Damn…I crave this man so much…Before I even realise what I’m doing, I roll my hips into Soohyun’s and gasp inaudibly at the powerful sensation. However, before I have the chance to do anything more, Soohyun pulls away.
“Eli, you’re dunk. Why don’t you get some sleep? I’ll be around if you need me, ok?” I hear him say as he gets up from the bed.
I slowly nod in agreement, my mind already striving to comprehend the results of my plan.
“All right, then I’m going to my room, see you later,” Soohyun says and soon I hear the sound of the door being opened and closed.
I lie in my navy blue sheets with my arms outstretched and release a sigh. All’s clear to me now. I’ve dated a few girls up until now so I know what attraction is, I can easily identify lust, but this…this is so much more…I desire him all right, however, it’s not only that…that’s why I was so desperate for him to respond to my kiss…there is this feeling…there is something more that I yearn for…his heart…Yes, there’s no denying it now…I’m in love with him…I’m in love with my best friend.
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That’s it for the 10th chapter ^.^
My dear readers, I’m really sorry for the long wait…It just seems that I have yet another writer’s block…oh, well…*sigh*
I hope you’ve all enjoyed the update! >:3
Till next time!^^
Pairing: Soohyun/Eli
Genre: Romance, angst
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Soohyun and Eli are best friends. Eli has a girlfriend. They all live happily…OK, maybe not all of them, but the point is that happiness doesn’t last forever…or is there still hope?
Chapter: 10/13
Disclaimer: Yeah, yeah, no one belongs to anyone…
AN/ Now, we have the situation from the 9th chapter, but told in…
Eli’s P.O.V.A soft whisper and a hand gently shaking my shoulder rouse me from my dreamless sleep. As I’m enveloped in darkness, confusion floods my mind for a few seconds before my brain registers that the strong and yet tender voice telling me to get up belongs to my best friend. My body instantly relaxes, fully accepting Soohyun’s touch. I slowly sit up and let my best friend help me out of the bed. As we walk to the kitchen, I intertwine my fingers with Soohyun’s, the subtle activity already as natural as breathing for me. A soft smile makes its way to my lips as I enjoy the subtle contact between us, warmth entering my calm heart. I never knew that just being with Soohyun could give me all the reassurance I need, and that such a simple touch could make me feel so at ease…and simultaneously spark excitement and craving for even more…All too soon, we arrive at the kitchen, though, and Soohyun helps me sit at the table. Seconds later, I feel a cool, smooth surface brush against my fingers. It’s a bowl of rice that Soohyun cooked for me. “Thanks,” I say, a gentle smile making its way to my lips. Then, I carefully extend my hand forward and tentatively brush my fingers over the table surface in search of my chopsticks. Soon, I hear the sound of a chair being dragged closer to mine as well as Soohyun’s voice offering help. I’m truly grateful for his care and that he's willing to put up with me, his now useless, blind friend. No…Soohyun wouldn’t think of me like that...he’s not a narrow-minded person. We’ve known each other for so long and I know him. Furthermore, I’m not a pessimist…so I shouldn’t let this situation get to me. I need to get a hold of myself and face everything that comes my way. “Wait. I want to try to eat by myself,” I say and, shortly after, I hear Soohyun agree, though there is something slightly off with his voice…But I have to do this by myself, I don’t want to burden him and I don’t wish for him to see my weak side. I want to be strong, not only for my sake, but also for his so I’m going to try my best.
“When are you going to be back?” I ask.
“I finish classes at 1 pm so I think I’ll be here around half an hour later. Why?” I hear Soohyun reply, a tiny hint of curiosity in his voice.
“No particular reason, but you know what? I just realized that it’s pointless for me to ask…after all, it’s not like I can glance at my watch to check the time,” I realise dejectedly.
“Well, you could always listen to the radio, they mention what time it is every so often, right?” Soohyun offers after a short pause.
“You’re right, I’ll just listen to the radio,” I utter, a tone of cheerfulness in my voice as my mood instantly improves and a smile makes its way to my lips.
After the breakfast challenge, which I fulfil not without some difficulties, Soohyun washes the dishes and then I hear his light footsteps, a sign that he’s approaching me. Shortly after, I feel his cool hand on my shoulder and I experience a warm, tingling sensation all over my body. Yearning physical contact, I lift my hand up and touch his soft one that is resting on my shoulder. Then, Soohyun offers to take me to my room and I take this as a chance to intertwine my fingers with his during the walk. The activity now seems like a habit that I don’t want to ever give up.
Soon, Soohyun helps me sit at my bed and, after making sure that I’ll be all right, leaves the room a few minutes later. I sigh and fall back on my fluffy navy comforter. It’s time. It’s time for me to prepare for my drunken show.
I reach my hand in the direction of the bedside table and blindly search for my cell phone. After taking the device and slipping it into my pocket, I carefully get up from my bed and slowly start walking in the direction of the door. At least that’s what I believe. As I move forward, with my hands stretched in front of me, I count each step that I take and after a short while, my fingers brush over the cool, smooth door surface. 10 steps. There are 10 steps from the door to the bed. Soon, my hand finds the door knob. I leave my room to head to the living room where, after some minor difficulties, I manage to turn the radio on. Good. Now I’ll be more or less aware of what time it is. A smile appears on my lips as I slowly make my way to the kitchen. A few minutes later, while I’m trying to locate the fridge, I hear my cell phone ringing. I fish the device out from my pocket and press the rectangular button on the left. “Hello?”
“Eli, I’m on my break now. Is everything all right? Do you need anything?” a pleasant, familiar voice asks and I instantly know that it’s Soohyun who’s calling me.
“Yeah, everything’s fine. You don’t need to worry,” I assure him as a gentle smile makes its way to my lips. He cares about me so much. At that thought, soothing warmth enters my heart.
After chatting for a while longer, Soohyun hangs up for he has to attend his subsequent class. I, on the other hand, finally stumble upon the fridge. After opening it, I lift my hand up and direct it to the right where the door shelf and our beer supply ought to be. I tentatively move my hand until my fingers brush over a cold tin surface. I carefully grab one can after the other until there are 15 of them and then put them all on the kitchen counter. As I proceed to open the first tin I hear that there’s 10 o’clock news on the radio. I take a sip out of the first can to confirm that it’s beer. The bitter taste on my tongue tells me that, indeed, it’s beer all right. Seconds later, I find myself searching for the sink, which should be located a bit to the left from where I’m standing. Having found it, I pour all of the can’s contents down the drain. Next, I do the exact same thing with the next 12 tins, first, I taste if they contain beer and then pour the bitter substance into the sink. After having done that, I’m left with 2 cans, but this time, instead of getting rid of the liquid, I drink the 2 remaining beers myself. Next, I somehow succeed in taking all the empty cans with me and very slowly start walking in the direction of the living room. When my legs come into contact with a hard object, which I identify as our coffee table, I put all the cans on the table surface and then reach my hands out to feel my way to the couch and take a seat. As I lean back into the soft cushion, the sound of my ringtone, which I have set for Soohyun, floats into my ears. Having answered the phone, I once again assure my best friend that everything’s all right and that he needn’t worry. Just as I hang up, I hear on the radio that it’s 11 o’clock. I release a sigh of accomplishment and make myself comfortable on the couch, a soft smile on my lips. Now, the only thing left is for me to wait for Soohyun to return. About 2 hours later of my relaxing on the couch while listening to the enjoyable sounds of the music, with one more phone call along the way, I hear the sound of the front door being opened. I assume it’s Soohyun, who returned from his university, and the voice calling my name only confirms my belief. Being aware of that fact, I quickly close my eyes, wipe any trace of emotions off my face and pretend to be asleep. Shortly after, I hear Soohyun’s footsteps near the couch. Then, a distinctive noise makes its way into my ears, which I identify as the beer cans colliding against each other. Soohyun must be taking the tins off the coffee table. I hope he’s counting them as I purposefully took out over 13 of them. Next, his the sound of his footsteps gradually becomes more remote indicating that he’s going somewhere, most probably the kitchen. He’s never liked the cans littering our apartment. Shortly after, I hear him approach once more and soon, I feel his hand on my shoulder as he tries to gently shake me awake while, in his soft voice, verbally prompting me to leave dreamland. I pretend to slowly wake up and drunkenly ask if it’s Soohyun, though I know perfectly well that it’s him. He confirms offers to take me to my room. Then, he takes my hands to pull me up to a standing position. I’m sure that due to our proximity he’s able to smell alcohol in my breath. Good. As we walk to my room, I let myself lean heavily on Soohyun just as a completely wasted person would. Soon after, we arrive at the door to my room and immediately after stepping inside, I start counting every step that we take. One…two…three…four…five…six…seven…it’s almost time…eight...…nine…now! I deliberately trip over my own two feet and make the both of us fall onto my bed. Having landed on top of Soohyun, I take a deep breath at the contact of our bodies.
“Are you alright?” I hear Soohyun ask in a concerned voice. The sound hinting at the location of his lips.
“Yeah…” I reply, my voice low with want and anticipation as I slowly but surely decrease the distance between our faces. It’s now or never… Seconds later, my lips tentatively cover Soohyun’s and I feel as if electricity ran though my body. I’m blindly kissing my best friend…while being unsure of his reaction. I move my lips against his, but he’s not returning the kiss. I become desperate. Please, Soohyun, respond to the kiss! Please! As if on cue, I feel Soohyun’s soft lips start moving against mine, the kiss being returned. An immense sense of relief washes over me at that and I experience an incredible sense of happiness inside of me. Then, I feel Soohyun’s arms slowly encircle my waist, bringing me closer, and I release a quiet groan at the close contact as we continue our enjoyable activity. Soon, the kiss becomes more passionate and I slide my moist tongue over Soohyun’s bottom lip, asking for entrance. He grants it and lets me explore his honey-flavoured mouth…and I let him do the same. Gosh, this feels incredible…Then, as our tongues fight for dominance, I let my hands slide down Soohyun’s well-built chest…and arrive at the hem of his shirt. Then, my fingers slowly slip under the soft fabric and come into contact with Soohyun’s smooth, bare skin. I hear Soohyun groan throatily, the sinful sound making me even more aroused. I start exploring the other man’s well-toned chest, running my palms over the soft skin, while Soohyun is trailing kisses down my jawline to ultimately attach his lips to my neck, sucking on my skin. The activity making me moan in pleasure and yearn for more. Soon, I feel Soohyun’s warm hands slip under my tee and slowly travel all over my bare back. I release a low groan at the sensation and seek his lips to engage in a needy, wet kiss, the other man’s irresistible tropical scent driving me crazy. I feel my body heat up at our intense activity and I experience an overpowering desire course through my veins. Damn…I crave this man so much…Before I even realise what I’m doing, I roll my hips into Soohyun’s and gasp inaudibly at the powerful sensation. However, before I have the chance to do anything more, Soohyun pulls away.
“Eli, you’re dunk. Why don’t you get some sleep? I’ll be around if you need me, ok?” I hear him say as he gets up from the bed.
I slowly nod in agreement, my mind already striving to comprehend the results of my plan.
“All right, then I’m going to my room, see you later,” Soohyun says and soon I hear the sound of the door being opened and closed.
I lie in my navy blue sheets with my arms outstretched and release a sigh. All’s clear to me now. I’ve dated a few girls up until now so I know what attraction is, I can easily identify lust, but this…this is so much more…I desire him all right, however, it’s not only that…that’s why I was so desperate for him to respond to my kiss…there is this feeling…there is something more that I yearn for…his heart…Yes, there’s no denying it now…I’m in love with him…I’m in love with my best friend.
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That’s it for the 10th chapter ^.^
My dear readers, I’m really sorry for the long wait…It just seems that I have yet another writer’s block…oh, well…*sigh*
I hope you’ve all enjoyed the update! >:3
Till next time!^^