Suicidal doesnt describe it

[freethestars]

Maybe this is stupid of me to get mad about.

Maybe i'm just a fucking drama queen and need to be shot.

But i sat at work for a fucking Hour, half of that i could have been getting paid had i known that noone gave a fucking rats ass enough to come pick me up.

I didnt need to go anywhere, didnt need anything to do.....

ALL i needed was a ride...

Even my mom fucking left me there....

Supposivly...A beer was more fucking important than her daughter...

And its not so much tonight.

But just me...

Being sick

Of everything

Being scared

Of everything

Being confused

About everything

Hi, i overracted....but my life is the fucking pits right now...and i needed a friend. 0 out of 3 responded to my cries for help. I just needed one person...And here i am...still not having anyone.

I needed you....
BUT YOU WERENT FUCKING HERE FOR ME!

Fuck your highschool drama....this is something bigger

Wanna play God???
Cuz heres my fucking life....what are you going to do with it?

I've cracked guys...I've lost it all
I cant handle anything

I Am vulnerable....i dont see a fucking thing to live for.
Not one goddamn thing
Nothing
Nada.

Just help me
Please, please, please
I need you now, more than i ever have before.