Full of anxious today
Yeah, churny guts, no focus, short temper.
Hello anxiety!
Not surprising really when you think about it. Mum get's her first dose of radiation for the sarcoma in her leg this week. They still haven't worked out what to do about the carcinoma in her lungs, although her last biopsy went much better than the others apparently. Going to visit her tomorrow night with Huon.
And then there is the Huon thing. Well the Andrew and Huon thing. I knew the peace was all too good to last. Andrew has started to get pissed off with Huon's selfishness and self absorption in regards to me. And his constant drug use. He doesn't like that I just ignore it to keep the peace. Came to a head on Sunday night and there was yelling.
I knew it was only a matter of time before they butt heads. It was inevitable, but now Andrew is back in his own apartment and I have to deal with a surly Huon who keeps trying to get into an argument with me about it.
I know it'll blow over. Andrew was drunk and Huon was high. Not the best combination.
I don't want to live with Huon anymore. I really don't. But I can't afford to live on my own, Andrew's apartment is way to small for another person and two cats, and it would actually cost him more to live with me. Yes we have discussed this. Unfortunately no solution has been reached.
So in the meantime I'm stuck between two very stubborn men, one who is angry that everything has changed, and the other who is angry that things aren't changing fast enough.
Yay limbo. My favourite.
Hello anxiety!
Not surprising really when you think about it. Mum get's her first dose of radiation for the sarcoma in her leg this week. They still haven't worked out what to do about the carcinoma in her lungs, although her last biopsy went much better than the others apparently. Going to visit her tomorrow night with Huon.
And then there is the Huon thing. Well the Andrew and Huon thing. I knew the peace was all too good to last. Andrew has started to get pissed off with Huon's selfishness and self absorption in regards to me. And his constant drug use. He doesn't like that I just ignore it to keep the peace. Came to a head on Sunday night and there was yelling.
I knew it was only a matter of time before they butt heads. It was inevitable, but now Andrew is back in his own apartment and I have to deal with a surly Huon who keeps trying to get into an argument with me about it.
I know it'll blow over. Andrew was drunk and Huon was high. Not the best combination.
I don't want to live with Huon anymore. I really don't. But I can't afford to live on my own, Andrew's apartment is way to small for another person and two cats, and it would actually cost him more to live with me. Yes we have discussed this. Unfortunately no solution has been reached.
So in the meantime I'm stuck between two very stubborn men, one who is angry that everything has changed, and the other who is angry that things aren't changing fast enough.
Yay limbo. My favourite.