Bleh!

[freefallingirl]

Why is it that every year you get older things just get less fun? I mean. I was all super excited about Halloween. I told myself we weren't going to stay home. I bought little bits of pieces to put together a costume and then didn't end up doing a fucking thing. A few of my co-workers were going to the parade in Hollywood and I would rather not deal with the craziness there and all the traffic and drunk people on the road.. so i thought Jarrod and I would do something in Burbank--even if it was just going to a bar and dressing up. He called our couple friends that live down the street and he was sleeping and she was in a bad mood. So that's it. We do nothing. I sit for hours wishing I had more friends to hang out with. I even suggested to Jarrod that we just go to the bar just the two of us, and he said, "We'll just sit there doing nothing." Yeah, but at least we would've not been sitting AT HOME doing nothing. Then my friend Xavier texts me at 11 asking if I want to go to Halloween house party in Silverlake. By this time, I'm in my pajamas and almost ready to go to bed. I debated and text my friend who also lives in Burbank asking if she wants to go the party. She texts back "yes! when?" So then I get my hopes up and start putting on eyeliner when she calls me to tell me she thought the party was tomorrow and she works in the a.m. and therefore she's not going. So in the end, I decide not to go because Xavier said the parking was bad and i should take a cab because he knows me and I'll probably drive down there and not be able to find parking and just give up and go home. (<-I've done that before. Once, I think) I figured he's right and I didn't want to take a cab by myself.. so I didn't go. And I'm probably going to regret it in the morning since I didn't get to wear my costume anywhere or really celebrate my favorite holiday at all....

I didn't even get to hand out handy to trick-or-treaters! We live in a back house and the kids wouldn't be able to get back here, nor be aware that our place existed.

Sorry for the rant. I'm just very disappointed things didn't turn out the way I wanted them to.