I wonder how many of those memories I made up??
So maybe what is really bugging me is growing up. We can never have a family dog again. Sure, my parents can and probaly will eventually get another dog but it will be their dog it wont be ours. It wont have the family. Shadow who traveled the country with us, who slept with us when we were home from school sick, who came to play at our little league games, and wore birthday hats at our parties. Its so strange when I actually say it out loud. I will never live with Tommy and David full time again. After this year who knows what Tommy will be doing? He is graduating and will move out soon I'm sure. I feel like I'm at a point in my life when I dont really have a family. Inbetween being kids together and having one of my own. And Shadow dieing is just another piece of that.