This Is Ourselves...Under Pressure
Man i didn't realize that I haven't updated in like forever. I have just been keeping up with everyone else and not keeping up with myself...or letting u all keep up with me...so in turn I will try to make this entry as painless as possible considering I dunno if my memory will be working so great right now cause it has been a while.
So I believe we left off the day before Richard's concert.... if not I am starting there so too bad. I believe it was on tuesday the 21st of June. Well, Alon came over to go to the concert with me. I got dressed up for Richard in the blue skirt i got with Linda that he always wanted to see me in and I realized I hadn't worn it yet so I figure how perfect than to wear it tonight. So Alon came and we greeted each other with kisses on the cheek as we always do and headed out so we wouldn't be late. I luckily remembered the directions and remembered how to get there even without them. On the way Alon and I listened to awesome music that I was introducing him to. We also finally got to have a conversation about where we were in a relationship with each other....i had the hardest time bringin it up but I knew it had to be done and I knew it had to be done before he saw me with Richard and was like "Whoa wait what?!" So in the car I just bluntly stated "There is something I need to ask you" And he was like "K. Mel go ahead you can ask me anything u know that" And I was like "ok don't take this as me feeling a certain way or anything I just need to know this for my own knoweledge so I know how to go about the information I may recieve." And he said ok...I wasn't sure if he knew what I was about to ask but I think he did. So, I just said it..."Do you have...any feelings for me?...Like more than a friend?" And he said "Look Mel. I care for you so much. Like I really do a lot, but as I said I am in a place where I am not necessarily looking for anything I am just kind of in a state of what happens happens, but we are friends first and for most and that will never change, but I do care for you a lot." And I said Ok good....and then proceeding to tell him about the relationship with Richard and I and he was like "why didn't u tell me all this before? You know I would want you to be happy no matter what or who it was with." I said I know, but I also knew that if he had known about Richard in full detail before I asked him that question he wouldn't have been honest with me, because he would want me to be happy and wouldn't want anything to screw aroudn with my head to ruin what I already have. He understood and agreed.... i guess we know each other all too well. So things were ok with us. I also proceeded to tell him about what Jen and I discussed about destiny and timing and such and he agreed...if we are meant to be it will happen in time but right now it isn't our time. He isn't even living here yet... I wouldn't be able to handle that...and I love Richard so I don't want to lose that. I will always have a little piece of me that has feelings for Alon, but I love Richard and I would be stupid to throw away such a wonderful person.
So, we got there and Richard was waiting by his car for Brian. Alon and him met and things were going well so far and I was happy. I really wanted them to get a long because they just have so much in common that I really would like them to be friends and just jam sometime with their guitars or something. Anyway Alon told me that I did way better than spencer....he agreed I let my standards down when i dated Spencer and was glad I got them back lol. Brian finally showed up and he seemed to be pretty cool. I agree, Jen, I sensed a bit of cockiness but I could see right through that and see he was a good guy. His girlfriend seemed nice to and yes, Jen, Why the fuck do they look like brother and sister...it creeps me out! But oh well...We went inside into the room with the pool table...oh btw this was the coffee shop in college park...conveniently called College Perk (totally made me think of a FRIENDS reference) I love that place. It just seems so cozy. I love coffee houses like that. I would study there all the time. Anyway they put me in charge of their CD's and the money for change if people bought their CD...I felt very odd holding that much money in my hand because I was tempted to just put it in my pocket and also scared to put it down for a second thinking someone else might steal it. Richard and Brian started tuning guitars and going over set lists. I heard Brian say "Ok we are gonna do this song and this song and then you will do your song..." I immediately was like "your song?" and Richard was like "I don't know what you're talking about"...I knew something was up. So they went outside while I called Jen to see if they were coming. Luckily they were on their way. Alon and I talked more, went outside to listen to Brian play the Jew song (which i forget what it was a parody of but mad me laugh a lot none the less), and finally the gang arrived. It made me really proud to have a big group of our friends come support Richard and his band. It was Jen, Dave, Denise, Greg, Judy, and Skippy. I introduced Alon to everyone. Jen and Dave had already knew who he was though but still gave long time no see introductions. Alon treated me to a espresso drink which was really sweet. Right as we got the drinks the band was starting. I grabbed a front row seat on the floor. They started off with one of my favorite songs on the album (well I like them all but I do have a few top favs) called "Up Up Away." I was so psyched that everyone in the group enjoyed it. Supposidly better than they expected. Greg even came up to me and was like "Mel these guys are so good!" That just made me so happy, Judy as well commented the same. Alon thought the same as well. I was just extremely happy. Jen and I sang all the songs...yup that's right we are Lost Iniquity Fanatics...I am darn proud of it I must say! Finally it was Richard's turn to play his song....and surprise it is the first song he ever wrote for me. He played it beautifully and Alon nodded his head in approval (also to say that "Mel thank god this guy can write you a better song than Spencer cause that song was just awful...this song however is amazing") Judy told me I was the luckiest girl there... I wasn't really thinking that, but I do agree I am damn lucky...I love him so much. I couldn't stop smiling as he sang and looked at me every now and then. He sang this song he wrote for me in front of this entire coffee house filled with people. I almost began to cry. I did feel the tears welling up in my eyes. Brian screwed up at one point and Richard paused (he could have just continued) I thought it was funny and everyone was amused and knew it was a simple mistake. I wasn't mad considering Brian had not played that song yet. It was good though. They finished off the set with everyone's favorite song from the album (or so it seems) "When It Still Mattered." Of course after the performance (even after every song) there were lots of yelling "RICHARD! RICHARD!" and "OW OW!" and "WOOOO!!!" and so on and so forth. It was a great night for all at that point. I was just so proud of Richard. I really want him to push this band to doing more cause they have great potential. We hung out in the pool room for a little bit....some Drama happened with Judy...no need for details on that right now. Everything calmed down later. I hung out with Alon until I knew he had gotten used to the group and then let him talk to people and do his own thing. I think I am protective though in the way Richard and Jen are to each other cause I always made sure he was ok from time to time.
The night continued at Dave's for the solstice/Night of the sandwich (long story involving a religion the basement crew made called Basementality...if u really wanna know u will have to ask). We came inside and just hung out for a bit. I showed Alon pictures of all the events from the past. Richard and I talked cause he was worried about something...kinda worried as to why I was neglecting him when i didn't think i was considering he was busy doing a lot of things right after the concert that I didn't know where he was at times...I explained why I was around Alon a lot for the time being so I could get him to be more comfortable and he understood and I told him about the conversation Alon and I had. Alon even told me on the way to Dave's "Just a side note... I am really happy for you. I haven't seen u happy like this in a while and I am just so glad that you are happy. Richard is a really great guy and u have really great friends"...That made me happy as well. Richard and I actually cried cause I told him that I knew for certain that I wanted him right now and no one else and that I didn't want to lose him and I love him so much. So we were fine after that. Things were better. We went inside and Denise asked me to go outside. We needed to catch up cause I hadn't seen her in what it seemed like a year which is crazy. I go back inside and Alon and Richard both have guitars and are talking non stop. I thought this was so cute and made me happy...except when Richard of all people was like "Sweety can't u see we are talking" and I am like "But I am trying to finish showing him pictures!" oy vey...oh well I got through the pictures and introduced Alon to Foamy. He Approved...We laughed with him a lot with the amazing impressions he does. We celebrated Basementality with Fluffer nutters (Marshmello fluff with peanut butter sandwich...mmmmm) Alon had his first and it was good! Then we went swimming under the solstice moon. Oh man that moon was beautiful. Alyssa, Sidney, and Leah soon came over and joined. After all that we went inside and finished the night with watching a movie. I forgot the title but it was like kung fu hustle only it was about soccer and kung fu and it was extremely hilarious! We went to bed shortly after.
Woke up the next morning and Alon took me home to get ready for work and we worked on music together (OUR BAND IS FINALLY BEING MADE! WOOT!) We have music in the works and I am so psyched! He drove me to work and I said my goodbye for now....work sucked as usual (fast forward note...Quit Forever 21 because long story short the managers treat their employees with such dis respect it is awful. No way I was staying there).
Ok now is when I start forgetting days. I know I think it was Thursday that We went (Richard, Alon, and I) to Alyssa's to play games (meaning a never ending game of friends trivia (damn that umbrella card!) ) On of the days at work Richard came to surprise me (not even knowing when my break was but just guessing when it was) and It was one of the sweetest things ever. He came to see me and had to wait 3 hours til i got off work just so he could see me for 10 minutes...now that's love. Oh he got his job at Car Max working in the parts department YAY!!!! I am so proud of him. I believe on Friday I went over to Richard's house after work because his 'rents were out of town which meant house alone to ourselves. woot! He rented Hitch, which was really funny and entertaining, and got quick food on the way home from Wendy's. It was just a really nice relaxing night with lots of well...love hehe.
The day I quit my job, which was Saturday I believe, Richard surprise me yet again after I called him in tears on my break because of the shit I was having to put up with.... I was ready to walk out the store and never come back, but I didn't want it to look bad on my record. Richard said he would come get me and we would leave and I said no he can't do that, I can't do that. I had to go and went back to slaving away in the dressing room area. I looked up at one point maybe like an hour or so later and there was Richard. He said he would be waiting for me outside. He is just amazing to do something like that. I love him so much. It just amazes me. HE amazes me!
At the end of the night I came to see him waiting on the bench with Alon and I just ran to him and hugged him. He had a rose for me. :-) I gave Alon a big hug too. He couldn't believe what I was putting up with. We went to Taco Bell to get some quick food cause I really needed it and then headed to Laura's. The night was going pretty well with Alon and I and Richard just chatting so freakin much and telling each other jokes. I got a little tipsy. Richard took a shot with me. Alon didn't drink much as well as Richard because of driving back home. Alon and I joked around on the piano. Oh man that was great. We went outside and played I think 3 rounds of kings with Laura, Alyssa, Sidney, Leah, Me, Richard, Alon, Alex, Mary, Liz, and I think Mary's friend who i forgot the name of. It was pretty fun for a while. Then we played never have I ever drinking style...It got old after like several rounds. I went inside and long story short something happened with it being the last straw for me dealing with inconsiderate bullshit and I just got pissed and ended up crying later. Alon came in looking for me and talked with me. He knows he and I can always talk to each other so I went to him. He hugged me and I wanted to go for a walk but Richard wouldn't let me alone. I talked with Richard more about it and Cried and once I calmed down a bit I said I wanted to go home. We went outside to get Alon...and well some more incosiderate BS occurred that I was not too pleased with. I was ready to scream. (Fast forward note...Discussed reasons why with Alyssa. She understood and gave me reassureance which I appreciated greatly and so things are fine with that now) Luckily Alon wasn't taking his eyes of me. He knows me too well to know when I would be upset. He got up after people tried to keep him there and came over to me and hugged me and told me it's ok over and over again. Gave me a kiss on the forehead and we left. Richard and I guided Alon back to where he wanted to go and then Richard and I went back to Richard's house. We talked a lot in the car as the sun almost came up to just finish venting about things and understanding one another. We finally went inside and just went to bed. Slept in the next day.
Took a shower ...wasn't alone...and no (and seriously I am telling the truth) we didn't do any making out of the sort. Richard was just trying to get me to relax. I had woken up still upset with people and crying and just worried so freaking much and hurt and just wanted to punch someone. I had bad dreams involving people too so I didn't feel so great. Richard was thoughtful. We sat in the tub and I was thinking how nice it would be to have a bath. I hadn't had one in forever and miss them. I was thinking how i was so carefree with bubble baths especially as a kid and I would play with my toys all the time. We got into discussions about those days and it made me miss it. I hadn't taken a bath since I moved out of my old house. Richard got out for a second and I didn't realize he was gone until I turned around (he told me to move up and I thought the meant he needed to get comfortable...he just left) well he came back and all of a sudden I see bubble bath solution and I get so freakin happy. I turn into a little girl again. I just thought that was so adorable. So, I got my bubble bath and It was just so relaxing. I was so happy. We got dressed afterwards and then went to visit Jen at Bennigan's. She is an awesome waitress I must say. Hehe. I needed to update Jen on what had been going on and she seemed to want to vent a little as well so I told her we would talk when she got off work. We headed over to Dave's after Bennigan's and just hung out. Jen finally came back and Richard soon had to go. I already ended up venting my story to Judy, Dave, and Jen...forget how it actually happened but oh well. Luckily I had support from friends and it made me feel better about the situation in some form. I went out to walk Richard to his car to say good bye. He ended up talking for what it seemed like an hour and Jen came out to find me "Remember the time u disappeared and I thought you had died?!" Jen took me home shortly after that and we talked a whoooooole bunch. It felt good to have a night with Jen again. I miss those nights of just cruising with Jen and talking about everything and anything that is on our minds. We should do it again soon and make it one of those nights where we end up going to dunking donuts for vanilla chai and good conversation.
Went into work the next day....nothing great...Except Alon came and surprised me which was sweet. He knows me well enough to know i was still upset. Hence the question "So, are you doing alright" I am close with him enough to tell him the truth and say no. I explained to him why and he understood and appreciated the fact that I cared and he reassured me he would never do anything behind my back. The friendship we have is too important to lose...we almost lost it twice... don't want to have it be lost permanently. Richard and I spent the night together. I finally saw Collateral and approved of it.
Tuesday got an interview in like 2 hours within just sending an e-mail (it was scary fast how the manager responded) at the Irish Inn in Glen Echo. The interview went well although with the hours they want me I dunno if would do it. Later I had a reunion dinner with my co-workers and the owner/family friend from ornaments with love (my last job for the holidays) It was at the cheese cake factory. Omg such good food! Yummy Godiva chocolate cheesecake! Oh man such deliciousness! It was so nice. It is the one job I look forward to doing again cause the people are just so great to work with and Bryna (the owner/family friend) is so wonderful. I love her to death. We took pictures at the end and discussed looking forward to the coming Holiday season so we could work together again. Richard picked me up. Bryna was excited to meet the amazing boyfriend she had me talk about at dinner. I went home with Richard and we watched Monty Python's The Meaning Of Life. Neither of us had seen that one. It was pretty good. Hilarious at some good points, but it ain't no Holy Grail. At midnight that night it was Richard's and my 3 month anniversary. The 29th of June.
The day of our anniversary I spent the first half with Alyssa while Richard was at work. We hung out while doing errands (this was when I talked to her about that night) She helped me get the new coldplay CD for Richard. I gave them exact change. We went to the mall afterwards so I wouldn't be late for my interview at California Pizza Kitchen. She shopped while I was in there and then I shopped with her (didn't get anything, just tried on stuff). It was fun. The interview went really well. She dropped me off at home, and I got ready to see Richard for our anniversary. He came over and did the cutest thing. The doorbell rang. I opened the door and there was the stuffed animal Manatee (known as Melanie Manatee hehe) on the front step with a rose in her hands. I hear a high pitched hello next to her and there is Richard with 4 more roses. I thought it was so cute. So I took Melanie Manatee into my room to sit with Richard Manatee (for those who are lost and maybe forgot...Richard and I got each other stuffed animal manatees...there is signifigance behind them but yes we are disgustingly cute when it comes to them and I don't care). Richard and I were too anxious to get each other's gifts so we exchanged them before we went to dinner. Richard was really really happy that he couldn't let go of the CD (that should put and end to his whining about how "I don't have the coldplay CD! I want it! I want it!") He made me very happy. He got me the first season of FRIENDS! Now only 9 more to go! Woot! We went to dinner at Rock Bottom in bethesda and had some of the most amazing nachos ever and other yummy food. We were stuffed by the end of the night. We got back the house and watched the first disc of FRIENDS. Later we finished of the night by snuggeling together in bed and falling a sleep until Richard had to go home for work the next morning. I didn't even remember him leaving but supposidly I said goodbye and I love you... I must have been dead a sleep or something.
The next day I don't remember what happened. Friday I know I was at Dave's and I believe we played video games like the amazing Wario Ware (oh so hilarious and random... I love it!) and the addicting James Bond:Nightfire....it made me want to play Halo, because it is sort of like that only no aliens and different weapons and such. I think maybe Friday we only played James Bond and Alyssa came and joined us...or crap...maybe it was thursday...oh well what matters are the events... we played that game and then watched Risky Business. Saturday, the 1st of July. Went to Richard's from Dave's to get something to eat and then my phone died....I guess I didn't think I was going to be out of the house for more than a day and didn't bring a charger...or really a extra pair of clothes...it all sucked. Richard took a shower while I sat downstairs trying to see if my phone would not die...like be brought back to life...it wasn't looking good... I had to just shut it off before it shut off. We finally just decided that we were too irritated by just sitting down all day cause that is what we had done and also slept all day so we wanted to go out and do something. We took Justin (Jen's brother) to the fireworks with us at the Lake. We had to drive in a different parking area that wasn't bennigan's cause people are crazy. Met up with Judy and Dave and then walked to the Lake. Put in a reservation with Bennigan's though first for later. Jen was working :-(. It's ok cause Shinygasms were had by all LoL. Richard and I bumped into Amanda. I almost didn't recognize her...Richard bumped into other people... I was like oh dear god everyone knows Richard. We finally found a place to sit down and just relax. We sat neat Jen's Dad and family friends. The fire works were awesome. It made me so happy cause they were so shiny! After they were done we headed over to Bennigan's for some yum yum's and to visit Jen. After all that we headed back to Dave's and played some Wario Ware and then Jame's Bond. The most common line of the night because of that (especially during capture the flag in which Jen and I revolted against the guys) "Why did you do it? You don't love me! I don't love you!" It was hilarious. Jen and I (because the guys one at capture the flag...those cheaters) ran into Dave's room has a joke "Come on Melanie you can sleep with me tonight!" It was hilarious. The guys finally barged in and we ended up wrestling and fighting with our signifigant other...oh the love. Sleep was soon had after that.
Next day we hung out at Dave's. The guys (Skippy, Dave, and Richard) worked on the Shed. I played some Wario Ware with Judy and then we went to go get food for the guys and us. We decided on Rice a Roni and Chicken with Gravy. It was yummy and Judy and I had Dogma on in the kitchen while the food was cooking. The guys finally went inside after an hour or so and we had food. We went downstairs. I was going to go swimming but Richard wasn't and I didn't want to just neglect him. He would have swam but he had just taken a shower and didn't feel like taking two. So, I just worked on My MySpace and then hung out with Richard. Once swimming was done we played some Wario Ware and then James Bond again (they are awesome games and addicting what can I say?) Jen called saying we should go there to eat for 50 percent off with her. We did and it was delicious. We helped Jen get off work faster by rolling silverware. I discovered we are so freakin awesome because of that hehe. After that night Richard and I headed back to my house. I had to go back because my birth control was there and I had to start it that night. So, yes I am now on birth control...for some reason it is a good feeling too.
4th of July. Woke up at 3:30. Richard came over straight from work. We were meeting Kimi and Matt at Bethesda metro to go down to the mall to see the fireworks....didn't think about the fact that crazy pedestrians were gonna be everywhere. My feet hurt like hell after the night was through, but hey i got some exercise. The fireworks were really amazing. I liked the fact that I got to be with someone I really love for the fireworks. I don't think I have ever really done that before, so it was nice. We sat on a blanket with Kimi and Matt and met up with Matt's friend Steve. We walked forever back to the metro which was a nightmare cause everyone and I mean EVERYONE was going on the metro... I was ready to kill someone, but I kept my calm. I was just so happy to get back to Bethesda (which is usually not possible....to be glad to be back in Bethesda I mean) We got back the house, watched some of Mr Holland's Opus (great movie). Had Spaghetti for dinner and went over to Dave's to watch Independance day. I had not seen that movie in forever. It was good though. I love Will Smith! Slept over at Dave's. The next day...meaning yesterday (oh my god i finally made it to yesterday) Had my two interviews at Aeropostale and my second one at California Pizza Kitchen. I was shocked to get an interview at Aero because I had put in an application like weeks ago. It was a group interview with what it seemed to be about liek almost 15 people and they were interviewing people today or rather going to be. So, I thought I am not getting hired which is good cause I really want the CPK job and they said they would get back to us in 3 days....by 3 days they mean like 2 hours!...I got a call from there saying "We would like to make you an offer. How does 7.50 an hour sound?" I said sounds great....now if I want the job I go in for orientation on Thursday at 2....Given they seem really nice and it probably would be a good company to work for and that is a good deal...but CPK i believe offers more and I would like to work for aero, but I can't work for two places at once. If I did it would mean having 3 jobs during the holidays and I think I would not be in the best of Holiday Cheer if that were the case. Went into the interview at CPK...Went really well. Met with this woman who at the end was like "let me go get the manager so we can speed up the process to getting u here" The manager came out and was like "Well, seems like they have their mind made up about you!" He asked me questions just so he can get the same impression everyone else got. I was interview for a hostess right now. I get payed at 8 bucks an hour starting rate plus tip share...and i get insurance even if I am part time which is rare to find. He asked me to come in today at 4:15 to meet with I guess the main main manager so we can speed up the process even more.. It basically sounded like they were offering me the job, because at the end he said "Looking forward to having you on board soon!" They seem really nice. I am so excited but can't believe I was offered two jobs...it's crazy! But I will go with CPK because they do offer me something better... I guess I should go into Aero to tell them what's going on just so they know and they will still have a good impression of me in case of if I am in need of another job down the road. So yay to all of this! Also another congratulations to Denise on her new job....we need to hang out again soon cause I miss you!
Oh boy....sorry guys for the trying to make this painless...You know me I have to write what I feel is important and informative. I feel if I leave out details it will leave things vague with no explination plus I like to write and I like to write about the tiny details that make me oh so happy. I just hope even if it is a lot to read, that you enjoy reading it anyway and it is entertaining in some form. For those who read all of this I thank you and love you a bunch! You are amazing!
P.S. This has not been edited for spelling errors or grammar errors.... I am too tired and just wrote a long as entry so screw it I am going to bed and will edit later...hehe night night to all!
So I believe we left off the day before Richard's concert.... if not I am starting there so too bad. I believe it was on tuesday the 21st of June. Well, Alon came over to go to the concert with me. I got dressed up for Richard in the blue skirt i got with Linda that he always wanted to see me in and I realized I hadn't worn it yet so I figure how perfect than to wear it tonight. So Alon came and we greeted each other with kisses on the cheek as we always do and headed out so we wouldn't be late. I luckily remembered the directions and remembered how to get there even without them. On the way Alon and I listened to awesome music that I was introducing him to. We also finally got to have a conversation about where we were in a relationship with each other....i had the hardest time bringin it up but I knew it had to be done and I knew it had to be done before he saw me with Richard and was like "Whoa wait what?!" So in the car I just bluntly stated "There is something I need to ask you" And he was like "K. Mel go ahead you can ask me anything u know that" And I was like "ok don't take this as me feeling a certain way or anything I just need to know this for my own knoweledge so I know how to go about the information I may recieve." And he said ok...I wasn't sure if he knew what I was about to ask but I think he did. So, I just said it..."Do you have...any feelings for me?...Like more than a friend?" And he said "Look Mel. I care for you so much. Like I really do a lot, but as I said I am in a place where I am not necessarily looking for anything I am just kind of in a state of what happens happens, but we are friends first and for most and that will never change, but I do care for you a lot." And I said Ok good....and then proceeding to tell him about the relationship with Richard and I and he was like "why didn't u tell me all this before? You know I would want you to be happy no matter what or who it was with." I said I know, but I also knew that if he had known about Richard in full detail before I asked him that question he wouldn't have been honest with me, because he would want me to be happy and wouldn't want anything to screw aroudn with my head to ruin what I already have. He understood and agreed.... i guess we know each other all too well. So things were ok with us. I also proceeded to tell him about what Jen and I discussed about destiny and timing and such and he agreed...if we are meant to be it will happen in time but right now it isn't our time. He isn't even living here yet... I wouldn't be able to handle that...and I love Richard so I don't want to lose that. I will always have a little piece of me that has feelings for Alon, but I love Richard and I would be stupid to throw away such a wonderful person.
So, we got there and Richard was waiting by his car for Brian. Alon and him met and things were going well so far and I was happy. I really wanted them to get a long because they just have so much in common that I really would like them to be friends and just jam sometime with their guitars or something. Anyway Alon told me that I did way better than spencer....he agreed I let my standards down when i dated Spencer and was glad I got them back lol. Brian finally showed up and he seemed to be pretty cool. I agree, Jen, I sensed a bit of cockiness but I could see right through that and see he was a good guy. His girlfriend seemed nice to and yes, Jen, Why the fuck do they look like brother and sister...it creeps me out! But oh well...We went inside into the room with the pool table...oh btw this was the coffee shop in college park...conveniently called College Perk (totally made me think of a FRIENDS reference) I love that place. It just seems so cozy. I love coffee houses like that. I would study there all the time. Anyway they put me in charge of their CD's and the money for change if people bought their CD...I felt very odd holding that much money in my hand because I was tempted to just put it in my pocket and also scared to put it down for a second thinking someone else might steal it. Richard and Brian started tuning guitars and going over set lists. I heard Brian say "Ok we are gonna do this song and this song and then you will do your song..." I immediately was like "your song?" and Richard was like "I don't know what you're talking about"...I knew something was up. So they went outside while I called Jen to see if they were coming. Luckily they were on their way. Alon and I talked more, went outside to listen to Brian play the Jew song (which i forget what it was a parody of but mad me laugh a lot none the less), and finally the gang arrived. It made me really proud to have a big group of our friends come support Richard and his band. It was Jen, Dave, Denise, Greg, Judy, and Skippy. I introduced Alon to everyone. Jen and Dave had already knew who he was though but still gave long time no see introductions. Alon treated me to a espresso drink which was really sweet. Right as we got the drinks the band was starting. I grabbed a front row seat on the floor. They started off with one of my favorite songs on the album (well I like them all but I do have a few top favs) called "Up Up Away." I was so psyched that everyone in the group enjoyed it. Supposidly better than they expected. Greg even came up to me and was like "Mel these guys are so good!" That just made me so happy, Judy as well commented the same. Alon thought the same as well. I was just extremely happy. Jen and I sang all the songs...yup that's right we are Lost Iniquity Fanatics...I am darn proud of it I must say! Finally it was Richard's turn to play his song....and surprise it is the first song he ever wrote for me. He played it beautifully and Alon nodded his head in approval (also to say that "Mel thank god this guy can write you a better song than Spencer cause that song was just awful...this song however is amazing") Judy told me I was the luckiest girl there... I wasn't really thinking that, but I do agree I am damn lucky...I love him so much. I couldn't stop smiling as he sang and looked at me every now and then. He sang this song he wrote for me in front of this entire coffee house filled with people. I almost began to cry. I did feel the tears welling up in my eyes. Brian screwed up at one point and Richard paused (he could have just continued) I thought it was funny and everyone was amused and knew it was a simple mistake. I wasn't mad considering Brian had not played that song yet. It was good though. They finished off the set with everyone's favorite song from the album (or so it seems) "When It Still Mattered." Of course after the performance (even after every song) there were lots of yelling "RICHARD! RICHARD!" and "OW OW!" and "WOOOO!!!" and so on and so forth. It was a great night for all at that point. I was just so proud of Richard. I really want him to push this band to doing more cause they have great potential. We hung out in the pool room for a little bit....some Drama happened with Judy...no need for details on that right now. Everything calmed down later. I hung out with Alon until I knew he had gotten used to the group and then let him talk to people and do his own thing. I think I am protective though in the way Richard and Jen are to each other cause I always made sure he was ok from time to time.
The night continued at Dave's for the solstice/Night of the sandwich (long story involving a religion the basement crew made called Basementality...if u really wanna know u will have to ask). We came inside and just hung out for a bit. I showed Alon pictures of all the events from the past. Richard and I talked cause he was worried about something...kinda worried as to why I was neglecting him when i didn't think i was considering he was busy doing a lot of things right after the concert that I didn't know where he was at times...I explained why I was around Alon a lot for the time being so I could get him to be more comfortable and he understood and I told him about the conversation Alon and I had. Alon even told me on the way to Dave's "Just a side note... I am really happy for you. I haven't seen u happy like this in a while and I am just so glad that you are happy. Richard is a really great guy and u have really great friends"...That made me happy as well. Richard and I actually cried cause I told him that I knew for certain that I wanted him right now and no one else and that I didn't want to lose him and I love him so much. So we were fine after that. Things were better. We went inside and Denise asked me to go outside. We needed to catch up cause I hadn't seen her in what it seemed like a year which is crazy. I go back inside and Alon and Richard both have guitars and are talking non stop. I thought this was so cute and made me happy...except when Richard of all people was like "Sweety can't u see we are talking" and I am like "But I am trying to finish showing him pictures!" oy vey...oh well I got through the pictures and introduced Alon to Foamy. He Approved...We laughed with him a lot with the amazing impressions he does. We celebrated Basementality with Fluffer nutters (Marshmello fluff with peanut butter sandwich...mmmmm) Alon had his first and it was good! Then we went swimming under the solstice moon. Oh man that moon was beautiful. Alyssa, Sidney, and Leah soon came over and joined. After all that we went inside and finished the night with watching a movie. I forgot the title but it was like kung fu hustle only it was about soccer and kung fu and it was extremely hilarious! We went to bed shortly after.
Woke up the next morning and Alon took me home to get ready for work and we worked on music together (OUR BAND IS FINALLY BEING MADE! WOOT!) We have music in the works and I am so psyched! He drove me to work and I said my goodbye for now....work sucked as usual (fast forward note...Quit Forever 21 because long story short the managers treat their employees with such dis respect it is awful. No way I was staying there).
Ok now is when I start forgetting days. I know I think it was Thursday that We went (Richard, Alon, and I) to Alyssa's to play games (meaning a never ending game of friends trivia (damn that umbrella card!) ) On of the days at work Richard came to surprise me (not even knowing when my break was but just guessing when it was) and It was one of the sweetest things ever. He came to see me and had to wait 3 hours til i got off work just so he could see me for 10 minutes...now that's love. Oh he got his job at Car Max working in the parts department YAY!!!! I am so proud of him. I believe on Friday I went over to Richard's house after work because his 'rents were out of town which meant house alone to ourselves. woot! He rented Hitch, which was really funny and entertaining, and got quick food on the way home from Wendy's. It was just a really nice relaxing night with lots of well...love hehe.
The day I quit my job, which was Saturday I believe, Richard surprise me yet again after I called him in tears on my break because of the shit I was having to put up with.... I was ready to walk out the store and never come back, but I didn't want it to look bad on my record. Richard said he would come get me and we would leave and I said no he can't do that, I can't do that. I had to go and went back to slaving away in the dressing room area. I looked up at one point maybe like an hour or so later and there was Richard. He said he would be waiting for me outside. He is just amazing to do something like that. I love him so much. It just amazes me. HE amazes me!
At the end of the night I came to see him waiting on the bench with Alon and I just ran to him and hugged him. He had a rose for me. :-) I gave Alon a big hug too. He couldn't believe what I was putting up with. We went to Taco Bell to get some quick food cause I really needed it and then headed to Laura's. The night was going pretty well with Alon and I and Richard just chatting so freakin much and telling each other jokes. I got a little tipsy. Richard took a shot with me. Alon didn't drink much as well as Richard because of driving back home. Alon and I joked around on the piano. Oh man that was great. We went outside and played I think 3 rounds of kings with Laura, Alyssa, Sidney, Leah, Me, Richard, Alon, Alex, Mary, Liz, and I think Mary's friend who i forgot the name of. It was pretty fun for a while. Then we played never have I ever drinking style...It got old after like several rounds. I went inside and long story short something happened with it being the last straw for me dealing with inconsiderate bullshit and I just got pissed and ended up crying later. Alon came in looking for me and talked with me. He knows he and I can always talk to each other so I went to him. He hugged me and I wanted to go for a walk but Richard wouldn't let me alone. I talked with Richard more about it and Cried and once I calmed down a bit I said I wanted to go home. We went outside to get Alon...and well some more incosiderate BS occurred that I was not too pleased with. I was ready to scream. (Fast forward note...Discussed reasons why with Alyssa. She understood and gave me reassureance which I appreciated greatly and so things are fine with that now) Luckily Alon wasn't taking his eyes of me. He knows me too well to know when I would be upset. He got up after people tried to keep him there and came over to me and hugged me and told me it's ok over and over again. Gave me a kiss on the forehead and we left. Richard and I guided Alon back to where he wanted to go and then Richard and I went back to Richard's house. We talked a lot in the car as the sun almost came up to just finish venting about things and understanding one another. We finally went inside and just went to bed. Slept in the next day.
Took a shower ...wasn't alone...and no (and seriously I am telling the truth) we didn't do any making out of the sort. Richard was just trying to get me to relax. I had woken up still upset with people and crying and just worried so freaking much and hurt and just wanted to punch someone. I had bad dreams involving people too so I didn't feel so great. Richard was thoughtful. We sat in the tub and I was thinking how nice it would be to have a bath. I hadn't had one in forever and miss them. I was thinking how i was so carefree with bubble baths especially as a kid and I would play with my toys all the time. We got into discussions about those days and it made me miss it. I hadn't taken a bath since I moved out of my old house. Richard got out for a second and I didn't realize he was gone until I turned around (he told me to move up and I thought the meant he needed to get comfortable...he just left) well he came back and all of a sudden I see bubble bath solution and I get so freakin happy. I turn into a little girl again. I just thought that was so adorable. So, I got my bubble bath and It was just so relaxing. I was so happy. We got dressed afterwards and then went to visit Jen at Bennigan's. She is an awesome waitress I must say. Hehe. I needed to update Jen on what had been going on and she seemed to want to vent a little as well so I told her we would talk when she got off work. We headed over to Dave's after Bennigan's and just hung out. Jen finally came back and Richard soon had to go. I already ended up venting my story to Judy, Dave, and Jen...forget how it actually happened but oh well. Luckily I had support from friends and it made me feel better about the situation in some form. I went out to walk Richard to his car to say good bye. He ended up talking for what it seemed like an hour and Jen came out to find me "Remember the time u disappeared and I thought you had died?!" Jen took me home shortly after that and we talked a whoooooole bunch. It felt good to have a night with Jen again. I miss those nights of just cruising with Jen and talking about everything and anything that is on our minds. We should do it again soon and make it one of those nights where we end up going to dunking donuts for vanilla chai and good conversation.
Went into work the next day....nothing great...Except Alon came and surprised me which was sweet. He knows me well enough to know i was still upset. Hence the question "So, are you doing alright" I am close with him enough to tell him the truth and say no. I explained to him why and he understood and appreciated the fact that I cared and he reassured me he would never do anything behind my back. The friendship we have is too important to lose...we almost lost it twice... don't want to have it be lost permanently. Richard and I spent the night together. I finally saw Collateral and approved of it.
Tuesday got an interview in like 2 hours within just sending an e-mail (it was scary fast how the manager responded) at the Irish Inn in Glen Echo. The interview went well although with the hours they want me I dunno if would do it. Later I had a reunion dinner with my co-workers and the owner/family friend from ornaments with love (my last job for the holidays) It was at the cheese cake factory. Omg such good food! Yummy Godiva chocolate cheesecake! Oh man such deliciousness! It was so nice. It is the one job I look forward to doing again cause the people are just so great to work with and Bryna (the owner/family friend) is so wonderful. I love her to death. We took pictures at the end and discussed looking forward to the coming Holiday season so we could work together again. Richard picked me up. Bryna was excited to meet the amazing boyfriend she had me talk about at dinner. I went home with Richard and we watched Monty Python's The Meaning Of Life. Neither of us had seen that one. It was pretty good. Hilarious at some good points, but it ain't no Holy Grail. At midnight that night it was Richard's and my 3 month anniversary. The 29th of June.
The day of our anniversary I spent the first half with Alyssa while Richard was at work. We hung out while doing errands (this was when I talked to her about that night) She helped me get the new coldplay CD for Richard. I gave them exact change. We went to the mall afterwards so I wouldn't be late for my interview at California Pizza Kitchen. She shopped while I was in there and then I shopped with her (didn't get anything, just tried on stuff). It was fun. The interview went really well. She dropped me off at home, and I got ready to see Richard for our anniversary. He came over and did the cutest thing. The doorbell rang. I opened the door and there was the stuffed animal Manatee (known as Melanie Manatee hehe) on the front step with a rose in her hands. I hear a high pitched hello next to her and there is Richard with 4 more roses. I thought it was so cute. So I took Melanie Manatee into my room to sit with Richard Manatee (for those who are lost and maybe forgot...Richard and I got each other stuffed animal manatees...there is signifigance behind them but yes we are disgustingly cute when it comes to them and I don't care). Richard and I were too anxious to get each other's gifts so we exchanged them before we went to dinner. Richard was really really happy that he couldn't let go of the CD (that should put and end to his whining about how "I don't have the coldplay CD! I want it! I want it!") He made me very happy. He got me the first season of FRIENDS! Now only 9 more to go! Woot! We went to dinner at Rock Bottom in bethesda and had some of the most amazing nachos ever and other yummy food. We were stuffed by the end of the night. We got back the house and watched the first disc of FRIENDS. Later we finished of the night by snuggeling together in bed and falling a sleep until Richard had to go home for work the next morning. I didn't even remember him leaving but supposidly I said goodbye and I love you... I must have been dead a sleep or something.
The next day I don't remember what happened. Friday I know I was at Dave's and I believe we played video games like the amazing Wario Ware (oh so hilarious and random... I love it!) and the addicting James Bond:Nightfire....it made me want to play Halo, because it is sort of like that only no aliens and different weapons and such. I think maybe Friday we only played James Bond and Alyssa came and joined us...or crap...maybe it was thursday...oh well what matters are the events... we played that game and then watched Risky Business. Saturday, the 1st of July. Went to Richard's from Dave's to get something to eat and then my phone died....I guess I didn't think I was going to be out of the house for more than a day and didn't bring a charger...or really a extra pair of clothes...it all sucked. Richard took a shower while I sat downstairs trying to see if my phone would not die...like be brought back to life...it wasn't looking good... I had to just shut it off before it shut off. We finally just decided that we were too irritated by just sitting down all day cause that is what we had done and also slept all day so we wanted to go out and do something. We took Justin (Jen's brother) to the fireworks with us at the Lake. We had to drive in a different parking area that wasn't bennigan's cause people are crazy. Met up with Judy and Dave and then walked to the Lake. Put in a reservation with Bennigan's though first for later. Jen was working :-(. It's ok cause Shinygasms were had by all LoL. Richard and I bumped into Amanda. I almost didn't recognize her...Richard bumped into other people... I was like oh dear god everyone knows Richard. We finally found a place to sit down and just relax. We sat neat Jen's Dad and family friends. The fire works were awesome. It made me so happy cause they were so shiny! After they were done we headed over to Bennigan's for some yum yum's and to visit Jen. After all that we headed back to Dave's and played some Wario Ware and then Jame's Bond. The most common line of the night because of that (especially during capture the flag in which Jen and I revolted against the guys) "Why did you do it? You don't love me! I don't love you!" It was hilarious. Jen and I (because the guys one at capture the flag...those cheaters) ran into Dave's room has a joke "Come on Melanie you can sleep with me tonight!" It was hilarious. The guys finally barged in and we ended up wrestling and fighting with our signifigant other...oh the love. Sleep was soon had after that.
Next day we hung out at Dave's. The guys (Skippy, Dave, and Richard) worked on the Shed. I played some Wario Ware with Judy and then we went to go get food for the guys and us. We decided on Rice a Roni and Chicken with Gravy. It was yummy and Judy and I had Dogma on in the kitchen while the food was cooking. The guys finally went inside after an hour or so and we had food. We went downstairs. I was going to go swimming but Richard wasn't and I didn't want to just neglect him. He would have swam but he had just taken a shower and didn't feel like taking two. So, I just worked on My MySpace and then hung out with Richard. Once swimming was done we played some Wario Ware and then James Bond again (they are awesome games and addicting what can I say?) Jen called saying we should go there to eat for 50 percent off with her. We did and it was delicious. We helped Jen get off work faster by rolling silverware. I discovered we are so freakin awesome because of that hehe. After that night Richard and I headed back to my house. I had to go back because my birth control was there and I had to start it that night. So, yes I am now on birth control...for some reason it is a good feeling too.
4th of July. Woke up at 3:30. Richard came over straight from work. We were meeting Kimi and Matt at Bethesda metro to go down to the mall to see the fireworks....didn't think about the fact that crazy pedestrians were gonna be everywhere. My feet hurt like hell after the night was through, but hey i got some exercise. The fireworks were really amazing. I liked the fact that I got to be with someone I really love for the fireworks. I don't think I have ever really done that before, so it was nice. We sat on a blanket with Kimi and Matt and met up with Matt's friend Steve. We walked forever back to the metro which was a nightmare cause everyone and I mean EVERYONE was going on the metro... I was ready to kill someone, but I kept my calm. I was just so happy to get back to Bethesda (which is usually not possible....to be glad to be back in Bethesda I mean) We got back the house, watched some of Mr Holland's Opus (great movie). Had Spaghetti for dinner and went over to Dave's to watch Independance day. I had not seen that movie in forever. It was good though. I love Will Smith! Slept over at Dave's. The next day...meaning yesterday (oh my god i finally made it to yesterday) Had my two interviews at Aeropostale and my second one at California Pizza Kitchen. I was shocked to get an interview at Aero because I had put in an application like weeks ago. It was a group interview with what it seemed to be about liek almost 15 people and they were interviewing people today or rather going to be. So, I thought I am not getting hired which is good cause I really want the CPK job and they said they would get back to us in 3 days....by 3 days they mean like 2 hours!...I got a call from there saying "We would like to make you an offer. How does 7.50 an hour sound?" I said sounds great....now if I want the job I go in for orientation on Thursday at 2....Given they seem really nice and it probably would be a good company to work for and that is a good deal...but CPK i believe offers more and I would like to work for aero, but I can't work for two places at once. If I did it would mean having 3 jobs during the holidays and I think I would not be in the best of Holiday Cheer if that were the case. Went into the interview at CPK...Went really well. Met with this woman who at the end was like "let me go get the manager so we can speed up the process to getting u here" The manager came out and was like "Well, seems like they have their mind made up about you!" He asked me questions just so he can get the same impression everyone else got. I was interview for a hostess right now. I get payed at 8 bucks an hour starting rate plus tip share...and i get insurance even if I am part time which is rare to find. He asked me to come in today at 4:15 to meet with I guess the main main manager so we can speed up the process even more.. It basically sounded like they were offering me the job, because at the end he said "Looking forward to having you on board soon!" They seem really nice. I am so excited but can't believe I was offered two jobs...it's crazy! But I will go with CPK because they do offer me something better... I guess I should go into Aero to tell them what's going on just so they know and they will still have a good impression of me in case of if I am in need of another job down the road. So yay to all of this! Also another congratulations to Denise on her new job....we need to hang out again soon cause I miss you!
Oh boy....sorry guys for the trying to make this painless...You know me I have to write what I feel is important and informative. I feel if I leave out details it will leave things vague with no explination plus I like to write and I like to write about the tiny details that make me oh so happy. I just hope even if it is a lot to read, that you enjoy reading it anyway and it is entertaining in some form. For those who read all of this I thank you and love you a bunch! You are amazing!
P.S. This has not been edited for spelling errors or grammar errors.... I am too tired and just wrote a long as entry so screw it I am going to bed and will edit later...hehe night night to all!