Walls of belief, handling incompetence
I am seeing another side of my wall of beliefs.
Energy is blocked off, held by beliefs, but which of my beliefs need to be changed?
I have a couple of ideas.
For quite a while now, I've been of the opinion that I am attracting whatever happens to me. I continue to believe that.
I've also felt, that I need to learn a lesson which is why I am repeatedly presented with situations I do not like.
Drawing on my upbringing and education, my beliefs, I've taken the approach of being peaceful, patient, "nice" at all costs, and what do you know, it doesn't work!
I don't want to fiercely explode at every little thing that comes my way that I don't like, but neither do I wish to bottle up more than my share of anger or disappointment.
Maybe the lesson I have to learn, is how to handle the situations I dislike.
I was coming from a framework of acceptance and forgiveness, as if by accepting the situation and forgiving those involved, trouble would simply resolve itself. Now I'm not so sure. The lesson for me might not have been acceptance and forgiveness, it might actually be "handling", or taking care of the situation.
In particular, I've been dealing with loads of incompetent people lately. They don't know what the hell they're doing and they don't know what the hell they're saying. Nevertheless I've mostly unknowingly taken them at their word and gone nowhere...becoming more and more upset at the lack of progress. These incompetents are holding me back!
Another way to look at it, is that I am holding myself back using these incompetents as an excuse for my own inability to deal with their incompetence. Or my incompetence with handling incompetence.
There are ways to devastate, destroy, and rip to shreds incompetence. I haven't familiarized myself with these methods but I will. This is not undertaken out of anger, but out of a means to effectively handle the people and things that unnecessarily stand in my way.
They will be put on notice early, that I will nail their asses to the wall and make their life hell until they deliver what they said they will deliver.
The trick on my end, will be to find a way to do this without overly upsetting myself. I don't wish to be angry or carry the effects of anger.
At first thought, it seems if you are "nice", then you never have to deal with the anger or with the inefficient side of things. You just "let it go." But being nice doesn't work. And being angry is not healthy.
There must be a way to handle this...to instantly speak my mind, to let my feelings be known and not bottled up just to be nice.
So I'll be watching myself on this.
As the Spirit strikes me, my mouth will engage and whatever flies out will fly out. If someone is hurt by the comment, too bad, they had it coming. I am hurt by being misled, given poor instructions, out-and-out lied to, and I've had enough.
Part of this change, has come from reading the Bible. I've read the entire New Testament and am now in the first quarter of the Old Testament. After many years of religious instruction in school and at my church, I sadly see how they've left out so many aspects of God.
God is not all sweet and forgiving. He regularly kills people in the Old Testament and gives orders to stone people, to slaughter entire communities--women and children--everyone. To cripple horses. God is much bigger, and has a much fuller personality and character, then I had been led to believe. God doesn't operate on goodness alone. These readings and stories have woken me up.
The world is a much bigger place than I had previously thought. Several times God got angry and killed thousands of people instantly. Yes, God gets angry and kills. And with greater force than the worst serial killer. He also toys with people, sending plagues, biting poisonous snakes, fire that shoots through and burns hundreds to death instantly.
I can hardly imagine doing such things and do not want to. The important point is, God doesn't just keep his mouth shut. At various times, his anger boiled. And boy, did he ever express himself. And in Revelation, it looks like there's much more pain and suffering to come for even the best of us.
As an individual created in God's image, anger is a part of me...a part of all of us. People who don't listen to orders or commands--even when they come from God himself, are nothing new. So what are our odds of being listened to? Especially by imbeciles?
I see little reason to suffer these fools any more.
I am changing.
Incompetence will be dealt with swiftly and severely, again, not out of anger, but because this is how things are handled on earth.
I will continue to be as spiritual and as loving as ever, but if someone gets on the wrong side of me, he/she will feel the consequences of that foolish choice. I'll leave them in a quivering pile if need be and go about my day in peace and happiness.
Enough is enough.
Energy is blocked off, held by beliefs, but which of my beliefs need to be changed?
I have a couple of ideas.
For quite a while now, I've been of the opinion that I am attracting whatever happens to me. I continue to believe that.
I've also felt, that I need to learn a lesson which is why I am repeatedly presented with situations I do not like.
Drawing on my upbringing and education, my beliefs, I've taken the approach of being peaceful, patient, "nice" at all costs, and what do you know, it doesn't work!
I don't want to fiercely explode at every little thing that comes my way that I don't like, but neither do I wish to bottle up more than my share of anger or disappointment.
Maybe the lesson I have to learn, is how to handle the situations I dislike.
I was coming from a framework of acceptance and forgiveness, as if by accepting the situation and forgiving those involved, trouble would simply resolve itself. Now I'm not so sure. The lesson for me might not have been acceptance and forgiveness, it might actually be "handling", or taking care of the situation.
In particular, I've been dealing with loads of incompetent people lately. They don't know what the hell they're doing and they don't know what the hell they're saying. Nevertheless I've mostly unknowingly taken them at their word and gone nowhere...becoming more and more upset at the lack of progress. These incompetents are holding me back!
Another way to look at it, is that I am holding myself back using these incompetents as an excuse for my own inability to deal with their incompetence. Or my incompetence with handling incompetence.
There are ways to devastate, destroy, and rip to shreds incompetence. I haven't familiarized myself with these methods but I will. This is not undertaken out of anger, but out of a means to effectively handle the people and things that unnecessarily stand in my way.
They will be put on notice early, that I will nail their asses to the wall and make their life hell until they deliver what they said they will deliver.
The trick on my end, will be to find a way to do this without overly upsetting myself. I don't wish to be angry or carry the effects of anger.
At first thought, it seems if you are "nice", then you never have to deal with the anger or with the inefficient side of things. You just "let it go." But being nice doesn't work. And being angry is not healthy.
There must be a way to handle this...to instantly speak my mind, to let my feelings be known and not bottled up just to be nice.
So I'll be watching myself on this.
As the Spirit strikes me, my mouth will engage and whatever flies out will fly out. If someone is hurt by the comment, too bad, they had it coming. I am hurt by being misled, given poor instructions, out-and-out lied to, and I've had enough.
Part of this change, has come from reading the Bible. I've read the entire New Testament and am now in the first quarter of the Old Testament. After many years of religious instruction in school and at my church, I sadly see how they've left out so many aspects of God.
God is not all sweet and forgiving. He regularly kills people in the Old Testament and gives orders to stone people, to slaughter entire communities--women and children--everyone. To cripple horses. God is much bigger, and has a much fuller personality and character, then I had been led to believe. God doesn't operate on goodness alone. These readings and stories have woken me up.
The world is a much bigger place than I had previously thought. Several times God got angry and killed thousands of people instantly. Yes, God gets angry and kills. And with greater force than the worst serial killer. He also toys with people, sending plagues, biting poisonous snakes, fire that shoots through and burns hundreds to death instantly.
I can hardly imagine doing such things and do not want to. The important point is, God doesn't just keep his mouth shut. At various times, his anger boiled. And boy, did he ever express himself. And in Revelation, it looks like there's much more pain and suffering to come for even the best of us.
As an individual created in God's image, anger is a part of me...a part of all of us. People who don't listen to orders or commands--even when they come from God himself, are nothing new. So what are our odds of being listened to? Especially by imbeciles?
I see little reason to suffer these fools any more.
I am changing.
Incompetence will be dealt with swiftly and severely, again, not out of anger, but because this is how things are handled on earth.
I will continue to be as spiritual and as loving as ever, but if someone gets on the wrong side of me, he/she will feel the consequences of that foolish choice. I'll leave them in a quivering pile if need be and go about my day in peace and happiness.
Enough is enough.