as i lay dying
i got home at 3 last night from playing music with jed to find out my grandmother had passed away peacefully during the night. She lived a mile away from me growing up and i saw her many times a week and along with margaret is only person i have complete trust is unconditional love i had had. But it is not the saddest of days since she has had severe alzheamiers disease for the last 7 or 8 years and had not been able to even recognize me for the last 4 or 5. anyway lj is not the4 place i want to go into all the things she meant to me, and the ying yang of feelings of sadness mixed with a heavy dose of relief and inevitablity. I dread the wake friday and funeral sat more than anything i can think of.