Gah....
Gah it never ceases to amaze me how much my life stinks sometimes. A lot of times I feel as if I can do nothing right. Darius doesn't help that much when it seems like I cannot even ask a question without him thinking I am going to turn it into an argument. I mean all I wanted to do was clear up an issue I had a question about. Where is that wrong? I was enjoying all the time we were spending together and not arguing with him for a change. It was really nice.
I also feel as if when we get better net here that nothing is going to change with he and I. I feel as if we spend WAY too much time on-line and not enough with our son. Where am I wrong for wanting us to stay off more?
He hasn't disagreed with me on that, but I feel as if nothing will change no matter what I do.
I also feel as if college is a waste of time. I feel so burnt out and like no matter how hard I try I will fail this semester. I feel as if I should have taken the summer off. I guess my best bet is to do my best to finish this semester and then whatever happens happens. I can't control how it turns out.
Back to home life...I just wish Darius tried to give me more of a chance to explain and ask questions rather than automatically assume that it will turn into an argument. I don't want to argue with him. I am trying to make good changes with myself. I'm trying to bite my tongue a lot more rather than just cause trouble. I don't like to argue with him regardless of what he thinks. I get tired of all the stress and tension between me and him that I want good things in our life rather than bad. I get tired of all the family drama here at my dad's that I just want to rip my hair out and run away. Sometimes I wish Darius, Mally and I lived on a deserted island. At least then we both could be happy.
I also feel as if when we get better net here that nothing is going to change with he and I. I feel as if we spend WAY too much time on-line and not enough with our son. Where am I wrong for wanting us to stay off more?
He hasn't disagreed with me on that, but I feel as if nothing will change no matter what I do.
I also feel as if college is a waste of time. I feel so burnt out and like no matter how hard I try I will fail this semester. I feel as if I should have taken the summer off. I guess my best bet is to do my best to finish this semester and then whatever happens happens. I can't control how it turns out.
Back to home life...I just wish Darius tried to give me more of a chance to explain and ask questions rather than automatically assume that it will turn into an argument. I don't want to argue with him. I am trying to make good changes with myself. I'm trying to bite my tongue a lot more rather than just cause trouble. I don't like to argue with him regardless of what he thinks. I get tired of all the stress and tension between me and him that I want good things in our life rather than bad. I get tired of all the family drama here at my dad's that I just want to rip my hair out and run away. Sometimes I wish Darius, Mally and I lived on a deserted island. At least then we both could be happy.