Drabble: Definition
Title: Definition
Author: freakingdork
Rating: FRM
Characters: Derek Morgan, Carl Buford
Summary: When it comes to naming what happened, words matter.
Warning: Childhood sexual abuse
*****
sometimes he hears echos of the past
you’d better man up boy
look up to the sky
except he sent prayers to the sky
that were left unanswered
and it was hard to see a sky
even as
he pulled himself out of the gutter
and of what happened between
the vulnerable and the wicked
he won’t say rape
he won’t say assault
harassment
will forever be
too narrow
abuse
can be
too vague
coercion
comes close
but not quite
molestation’s the one that fits
snug and tight
so much so
that it nearly suffocates him
but it keeps him from thinking of it in terms
he can’t accept
it’s broad with limits
and it doesn’t use that word
because it’s never mattered that
the dictionary definition of
molestation is “sexual assault”
he sees that phrase as the incorrect interpretation
of a perverse situation
demoralization is not sex
dehumanization is not sex
depravitity is not sex
it was a lot of things
but
never
ever
sex
Author: freakingdork
Rating: FRM
Characters: Derek Morgan, Carl Buford
Summary: When it comes to naming what happened, words matter.
Warning: Childhood sexual abuse
*****
sometimes he hears echos of the past
you’d better man up boy
look up to the sky
except he sent prayers to the sky
that were left unanswered
and it was hard to see a sky
even as
he pulled himself out of the gutter
and of what happened between
the vulnerable and the wicked
he won’t say rape
he won’t say assault
harassment
will forever be
too narrow
abuse
can be
too vague
coercion
comes close
but not quite
molestation’s the one that fits
snug and tight
so much so
that it nearly suffocates him
but it keeps him from thinking of it in terms
he can’t accept
it’s broad with limits
and it doesn’t use that word
because it’s never mattered that
the dictionary definition of
molestation is “sexual assault”
he sees that phrase as the incorrect interpretation
of a perverse situation
demoralization is not sex
dehumanization is not sex
depravitity is not sex
it was a lot of things
but
never
ever
sex