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ok so now i AM crying. And i dont wanna be here. My stomach hurts. my whole family is here and I dont want them to see me crying. I want to run away and hide. but there is nowhere to go and no one who will really understand. Tia thinks its all trivial and I am being dramatic. Like she didnt feel this way about something or someone. I hate this. I hate that he has this effect on me. I hate that I let myself get hurt. I hate that I allow I myself to care about anyone. I hate hate hate it!! I dont even know what I am thinking, feeling. I am frustrated. I am hurt. I feel soo out of control. I want to scream. I want to STOP feeling. I am soo overwhelmed. literally i feel like my chest is caving in. Why is no one answering their fucking phone!!!!