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So I have all these crazy emotions going on right now. Trying to focus on me and school and let life just the way it is going to. I still have no offical news on all this health crap which is stressful. Then there is Ben constantly hanging around in the background saying and doing the things I want and need him to do. But i KNOW that the end isnt going to be what I want it to be and I need to just let it go. I need to stop caring about someone I cant ever have. But its just so hard. I hate this. Other then that work is going good. Havent been doing anything too productive just work and school. So exciting. Blah life is boring. Thanks for reading!