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Answers for sai:
1. What's your favorite season?
I'll say summer, because it's light the longest then, and because it contains my birthday. Although if you'd asked me when I was still living in Texas, I might have said something else. :)
2. You have one wish. What would you wish for? (And, wishing for more wishes isn't allowed.)
I wish... see, this is hard, because most things I can think of, I immediately think of a way where it could be twisted around to be a really bad thing instead. Like, if I wished to be financially stable for the rest of my life, maybe the genie would say, "Granted! You will now be working at a steady job you hate for the rest of your life." So, hm. I wish I had a really good singing voice. I guess that could have a downside too, but it's something I couldn't get by working for it, so I'll wish for it.
3. If you could ask any of the members of NSync one question, which question would you ask, and who would you ask it of?
Hm. This may not necessarily be the topmost number one question, but one thing I would like to ask JC is why he said in the Celebrity liner notes that the past year had been such a difficult time for him. What events he had in mind when he wrote that.
4. What's the first thing you can remember wanting to be?
I'm sure there must have been other things earlier, but the first one I can really remember right now is: when I was about ten or so, I suddenly realized that someone had to choose what books got published, and I wanted to do that. I was really charmed with this idea for a while, until I learned more about how publishing works and came to think it wouldn't be such a good fit for the type of person I am, after all.
5. Out of all the fics you've written, which one is your favorite, and which one was the most difficult for you to write?
Most difficult was probably Tea, because I got an AJ pairing in my DWNOGA assignment that year and I just felt like I didn't know anything about him at all. I suppose actually I could have just written the intrasync pairing (JoLa) and been done with it, but somehow I took it into my head that I was going to write AJ, dammit. I pushed myself to finish it, but I still feel like AJ is something of a cypher there.
And favorite... man, I am so bad at favorites. I'm fond of Quotidian right now because it's new and I managed to write a happy ending for once, but I'm not sure it's my absolute favorite, if only because it's about a borrowed premise. I used to be really happy with Consolation, but more recently I've lost some of my sense for it. I think I might say Lift, because it was fun to write, I felt pretty confident about what should go into it while writing, and even though it's one of my older things now, I haven't started to hate it yet. :)
And for
smallbeer, who seems to have found the trigger to my babbling streak:
1) Do you reread your own stories/journal entries/list posts (basically, anything you've written and put up on the 'net)? Is your reaction to them consistent, or does it vary?
I do, yes, and my reactions vary quite a bit. Very often, as soon as I've posted a story, I'll want to reread it ten times in a row right away, just because I want to soak it in in its final state and enjoy the fact that it's done. And if I get feedback on something, I often reread it then too with the comments in mind. At that point I'm usually focusing on what I like about it, so I'm pretty positive. Then, a little later, I have a period of thinking the story is horrible and not wanting to look at it at all. After that it depends. Overall, I usually wind up feeling moderately critical of older stories. Some of them I mentally shelve, while others I still glance at now and then. And when I'm feeling really nostalgic (or I feel I need a real lesson in humility), I'll go look at my due South or X-Files stories and just wallow.
2) You've been hanging out in online fandom for a while--has your level of participation varied over that time? any changes in your feeling about fandom and fannish institutions?
Yes indeed. When I first started getting into online fandom in the summer of 1997, I just barely got my feet wet - got on a couple of lists, exchanged email with a few people, provided and received a few betas, bought a tape of M/K vids. Then I moved, and as a result lost my internet access (apart from work) and didn't get organized to get it back for seven or eight months. When I did get back on, I was having reservations about fanfic and slash, and I was also embarrassed about having dropped out so suddenly and completely before, so I made next to no attempts to contact anyone again for a while. I read, and I wrote, but it was all kind of at a distance.
And Then There Was Popslash, which fascinated and charmed me so much that I wound up just dying to be involved. I started sending more feedback than I'd ever done before, I also wrote faster than I ever had, I discovered AIM, I joined the bunny list, and I even went to Vegas and met other slashers in person for the first time ever. Right now I guess I may be a little down from that level again - I haven't been writing quite as prolifically, and we all know what happened to bunny-o-rama (sniff!). Then again, I do have an LJ now, and in-person hanging out has become pretty common too, so there's that.
Changes in my feeling about fandom - I think I'm pretty much over my old idea that it was bad to let myself get all wrapped up in something online because it "wasn't real". That seems quite astonishingly naive to me now. Fannish institutions - well, there's LJ, which I had to learn to think of as a fannish institution rather than an actual journal before I could accept it. Oh, and archives! In XF and dS, I posted on archives a lot because it was one of the most impersonal ways to make my stories public, but I chafed under the necessity of labeling everything in such detail. So when I first got into popslash, I felt the absence of a central archive as a relief. But then, after the demise of Puppies in a Box (sniff!), I changed my mind again and started thinking there was something to be said for the centralization and backup functions of an archive after all. So now I'm a big fan of Slash Sparkle Pop. (Incidentally, can I say how happy I was when your new site went up and your stories were available again? seriously, it was a good day.)
(Also, man, people who think my stories are too short clearly just need to ask me more about my own fannish history. geeze. Sorry for the rambling.)
3) Lance calls you up and says he wants to come out of the closet. What advice do you give him, bearing in mind that you are also in a position (I dunno which one, but some position) of a certain responsibility for his career?
Lance! First I tell him congratulations. Then, hm. I'd like to tell him he should give that first coming-out interview to the gay press, but that's more a personal preference than practical advice. Although maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea to get in good with organizations like GLAAD and PFLAG. I guess it depends a little bit what kind of career we're talking about - if Nsync is actively working together, then he really ought to at least talk about it with the other guys first, just to let them know what he's planning. If we're looking at a movie/producing/real estate/wheelin' and dealin' career on his own, then I'd say he should just make a statement, hold his head high, and ride it out. But truthfully, I don't really know from PR.
4) JC seems to have surrendered his sparkly tops and Venus pants for baggy jeans and baseball caps. Is this a stylistic step in the right direction? what outfit would you choose for him these days?
As far as my own personal viewing enjoyment, yeah, I have to admit I do prefer the jeans. Although he needs to get someone to fit those caps a little better for him. Not that I don't support his right to sparkle and flame as much as he wants; I just think a simple look brings out his own natural beauty better. Or something. :) For an outfit: the first thing I thought of was Synchronik's description in Thirty: "He's wearing a snug cotton t-shirt in plain white and old jeans and his sunglasses are holding his hair back." So if it's not cheating too hard, that's what I'll go with.
5) Describe, in whatever level of detail you want, your car, your method for storing/organizing books, and your bed.
My car is a '99 Saturn SL2. And the title is all mine, baby - the loan is all paid off.
My books are organized loosely into categories, like "children's books" or "mysteries," and then mostly alphabetically by author within the categories. The fiction is theoretically divided up by century, which is a technique I borrowed from my mom, but that really mostly only means 19th vs. 20th century (yes, my degree is in Victorian literature, why do you ask?). But the real underlying principle is that I always want all my books to be out on the shelves - I can't stand having books in boxes. So if I buy new books, there's usually some arbitrary recategorization and rearrangement to be done to make them fit into the available space.
My bed is a queen-sized mattress on a maple wood frame. When I was buying it, the clerk asked me if I wanted the special narrow box spring, and I said, "Huh? Nah, just the regular one, I guess." So now if I sit on the edge of the mattress, my feet don't reach the ground, and whenever someone sees it they say, "Wow, your bed is really high." And I say, "Uh huh."
1. What's your favorite season?
I'll say summer, because it's light the longest then, and because it contains my birthday. Although if you'd asked me when I was still living in Texas, I might have said something else. :)
2. You have one wish. What would you wish for? (And, wishing for more wishes isn't allowed.)
I wish... see, this is hard, because most things I can think of, I immediately think of a way where it could be twisted around to be a really bad thing instead. Like, if I wished to be financially stable for the rest of my life, maybe the genie would say, "Granted! You will now be working at a steady job you hate for the rest of your life." So, hm. I wish I had a really good singing voice. I guess that could have a downside too, but it's something I couldn't get by working for it, so I'll wish for it.
3. If you could ask any of the members of NSync one question, which question would you ask, and who would you ask it of?
Hm. This may not necessarily be the topmost number one question, but one thing I would like to ask JC is why he said in the Celebrity liner notes that the past year had been such a difficult time for him. What events he had in mind when he wrote that.
4. What's the first thing you can remember wanting to be?
I'm sure there must have been other things earlier, but the first one I can really remember right now is: when I was about ten or so, I suddenly realized that someone had to choose what books got published, and I wanted to do that. I was really charmed with this idea for a while, until I learned more about how publishing works and came to think it wouldn't be such a good fit for the type of person I am, after all.
5. Out of all the fics you've written, which one is your favorite, and which one was the most difficult for you to write?
Most difficult was probably Tea, because I got an AJ pairing in my DWNOGA assignment that year and I just felt like I didn't know anything about him at all. I suppose actually I could have just written the intrasync pairing (JoLa) and been done with it, but somehow I took it into my head that I was going to write AJ, dammit. I pushed myself to finish it, but I still feel like AJ is something of a cypher there.
And favorite... man, I am so bad at favorites. I'm fond of Quotidian right now because it's new and I managed to write a happy ending for once, but I'm not sure it's my absolute favorite, if only because it's about a borrowed premise. I used to be really happy with Consolation, but more recently I've lost some of my sense for it. I think I might say Lift, because it was fun to write, I felt pretty confident about what should go into it while writing, and even though it's one of my older things now, I haven't started to hate it yet. :)
And for
smallbeer, who seems to have found the trigger to my babbling streak:
1) Do you reread your own stories/journal entries/list posts (basically, anything you've written and put up on the 'net)? Is your reaction to them consistent, or does it vary?
I do, yes, and my reactions vary quite a bit. Very often, as soon as I've posted a story, I'll want to reread it ten times in a row right away, just because I want to soak it in in its final state and enjoy the fact that it's done. And if I get feedback on something, I often reread it then too with the comments in mind. At that point I'm usually focusing on what I like about it, so I'm pretty positive. Then, a little later, I have a period of thinking the story is horrible and not wanting to look at it at all. After that it depends. Overall, I usually wind up feeling moderately critical of older stories. Some of them I mentally shelve, while others I still glance at now and then. And when I'm feeling really nostalgic (or I feel I need a real lesson in humility), I'll go look at my due South or X-Files stories and just wallow.
2) You've been hanging out in online fandom for a while--has your level of participation varied over that time? any changes in your feeling about fandom and fannish institutions?
Yes indeed. When I first started getting into online fandom in the summer of 1997, I just barely got my feet wet - got on a couple of lists, exchanged email with a few people, provided and received a few betas, bought a tape of M/K vids. Then I moved, and as a result lost my internet access (apart from work) and didn't get organized to get it back for seven or eight months. When I did get back on, I was having reservations about fanfic and slash, and I was also embarrassed about having dropped out so suddenly and completely before, so I made next to no attempts to contact anyone again for a while. I read, and I wrote, but it was all kind of at a distance.
And Then There Was Popslash, which fascinated and charmed me so much that I wound up just dying to be involved. I started sending more feedback than I'd ever done before, I also wrote faster than I ever had, I discovered AIM, I joined the bunny list, and I even went to Vegas and met other slashers in person for the first time ever. Right now I guess I may be a little down from that level again - I haven't been writing quite as prolifically, and we all know what happened to bunny-o-rama (sniff!). Then again, I do have an LJ now, and in-person hanging out has become pretty common too, so there's that.
Changes in my feeling about fandom - I think I'm pretty much over my old idea that it was bad to let myself get all wrapped up in something online because it "wasn't real". That seems quite astonishingly naive to me now. Fannish institutions - well, there's LJ, which I had to learn to think of as a fannish institution rather than an actual journal before I could accept it. Oh, and archives! In XF and dS, I posted on archives a lot because it was one of the most impersonal ways to make my stories public, but I chafed under the necessity of labeling everything in such detail. So when I first got into popslash, I felt the absence of a central archive as a relief. But then, after the demise of Puppies in a Box (sniff!), I changed my mind again and started thinking there was something to be said for the centralization and backup functions of an archive after all. So now I'm a big fan of Slash Sparkle Pop. (Incidentally, can I say how happy I was when your new site went up and your stories were available again? seriously, it was a good day.)
(Also, man, people who think my stories are too short clearly just need to ask me more about my own fannish history. geeze. Sorry for the rambling.)
3) Lance calls you up and says he wants to come out of the closet. What advice do you give him, bearing in mind that you are also in a position (I dunno which one, but some position) of a certain responsibility for his career?
Lance! First I tell him congratulations. Then, hm. I'd like to tell him he should give that first coming-out interview to the gay press, but that's more a personal preference than practical advice. Although maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea to get in good with organizations like GLAAD and PFLAG. I guess it depends a little bit what kind of career we're talking about - if Nsync is actively working together, then he really ought to at least talk about it with the other guys first, just to let them know what he's planning. If we're looking at a movie/producing/real estate/wheelin' and dealin' career on his own, then I'd say he should just make a statement, hold his head high, and ride it out. But truthfully, I don't really know from PR.
4) JC seems to have surrendered his sparkly tops and Venus pants for baggy jeans and baseball caps. Is this a stylistic step in the right direction? what outfit would you choose for him these days?
As far as my own personal viewing enjoyment, yeah, I have to admit I do prefer the jeans. Although he needs to get someone to fit those caps a little better for him. Not that I don't support his right to sparkle and flame as much as he wants; I just think a simple look brings out his own natural beauty better. Or something. :) For an outfit: the first thing I thought of was Synchronik's description in Thirty: "He's wearing a snug cotton t-shirt in plain white and old jeans and his sunglasses are holding his hair back." So if it's not cheating too hard, that's what I'll go with.
5) Describe, in whatever level of detail you want, your car, your method for storing/organizing books, and your bed.
My car is a '99 Saturn SL2. And the title is all mine, baby - the loan is all paid off.
My books are organized loosely into categories, like "children's books" or "mysteries," and then mostly alphabetically by author within the categories. The fiction is theoretically divided up by century, which is a technique I borrowed from my mom, but that really mostly only means 19th vs. 20th century (yes, my degree is in Victorian literature, why do you ask?). But the real underlying principle is that I always want all my books to be out on the shelves - I can't stand having books in boxes. So if I buy new books, there's usually some arbitrary recategorization and rearrangement to be done to make them fit into the available space.
My bed is a queen-sized mattress on a maple wood frame. When I was buying it, the clerk asked me if I wanted the special narrow box spring, and I said, "Huh? Nah, just the regular one, I guess." So now if I sit on the edge of the mattress, my feet don't reach the ground, and whenever someone sees it they say, "Wow, your bed is really high." And I say, "Uh huh."