[I'm fallin' to pieces]
So, remember all that crap I had with Amy a few months back, well she contacted me again & this time I actually felt as if I could talk to her. She's still badgering on about her panto ticket & wants to meet me in town to retrieve it but I refuse because I still don't think I trust her. Mind you, at least we're talking over Facebook now which is a major improvement. She keeps saying all of these things & I don't know how to take them, one minute she seems fine with me, the next minute she making petty remarks about previous messages. & she seems pretty depressed. Unless it's the sympathy vote? Anyway, I decided to stop being a bitch & "do what the Doctor would do" so I've taken the moral high ground & said that the ticket was always hers [small white lie but I was really annoyed with her before!] She has the details & we'll arrange some other stuff when the time is closer, all she has to do is show up *shrugs* Ball's in her court now...
I am once again alone in the house. I seriously have no life, but maybe I like it that way. Most people seem offended when they meet me & discover what I'm like anyway & my closest mates & LJ mates have just got used to me, or at least I think they have xD I don't drink a lot, I always try not to touch drugs [although mates around me have done them] & I don't socially smoke, most people think I'm boring & actually I suppose I think the same about them. They're all the same around here, I need to live somewhere that doesn't breed clones all over the place *rolls eyes*
I started Weightwatchers 5 weeks ago! & so far I've lost 5 & a half pounds [but put a pound on tonight!] Sometimes I struggle cos I relied on crap food for so long & then I see pictures of woman who are thin but also have amazing curves & I think, thats my goal! which usually spurs me on again. I go with mum's friend so I have a shoulder to lean on if I need to & we decided that we can indulge on Christmas Eve, Christmas Day & Boxing Day but get straight back on track afterwards.
Speaking of Christmas, I'm all shopped out, wrapped up & nearly all sent. I have my managers to hand over tomorrow & then I think thats it! Finally! LOL! Doesn't feel much like Christmas this year, I really don't know why, possibly because a month after I'll be 21 & actually properly beginning my 20's as a "real" adult. Scary thought xD
Anyway, I hope you're all ok & life is treating you well. I do read your entries but being a busy season I haven't replied. I am an awful person & I'm sorry. I'll do better in 2009 I swear it =D Love to all x