blahhh....
i had i good time last nite, i got steamin n it was amazin
spoke to old friend, she was amazin
had a tok about stuff in general, i filled in on girl issuses, droped the 411 bassically
the situation, how its taring me up n i can't handle it anymore so im gonna bow out
so she layed it out for me in bulk
and i agree with everything she said, and i got the 411 of another friend tonite, a close mate whoz been through it all before, im a rookie with girl shit but meh, im learning the hard way...
its obvious, that when u dont enjoy certain aspects of your life, it feels good to have power over someone, that when u call they come running, pretty much wats goin down with me, im pathetic, and im finished with it... shes knows i like her, alot, but not so much anymore, but she knows that if she wanted to see me shed just say the word and id come running, and sometimes, shed word it a certain way, get my hopes up, make me think mabee this time il have a chance, but i always knew its was a pointless chase, after the first 2 months, it was all downhill, things wernt the same, n i felt more n more that she wasent intrested much
theres that other dude but, i never could compete with him, better lookin, better hair, hardcore metal grindcore scene band, tighter jeans, sick tats, better lip ring, i was never upto his standards, and that clearly where her wer set, she had a thing before i even spoke to her, so fair play, hes a lucky guy and i hope he apreciates her as much as she does him, she deserves him
she knows that when we meet up, il have my hopes up, n from the outsted the balls in her court, n aye, it pretty much always is, ive been chasing this whole time n its no good =(
and the only way she knows to keep the ball in her court, is to keep me hangin, and the onli way she can think to keep me hangin, is to lead me on the way its goin =(, to keep me misrable and full of hope, to get the girl i shud have gave up on months ago...
i always think she keeeps me hangin on for a reason tho, i never know what it is but, i try n big up myself lol, hope that mabee shes never had someone like me after her, im not a dick, i go out my way for her, and i never stick up for myself =(, this whole time ive never sed a word about how i actuali feel, but shes gotta have some idea man, its been months, i like her, n she knows it, n mabee shes never had someone like me like her before coz im not a complete prick, and i dont tell her to go fuck her self or have her chasing after me, mabee its comfy to have me under the finger
i dunno anymore, but what i do now is, there someone new hopefully, shes amazing, and she goes out her way to be around me, its not about, good hair, nice clothes, sick taties, nice shoes and a healthy bank acount, its about bein in our company, gettin out a dvd, cuddlin up n eatin some sweets, its bein able to tok about everythin to each other, n not through msn or myspace
shes genuine, amazing and beautiful, everythin i thot i had before, but this time its for real, i hope lol
but bassically this is my resignation, its been a good run kieran, but move on sone, stop passin opertunties and dabeling on what i dont have, and what im never gonna get, she is and always will be amazing in my eyes, il still tok to her as long as she wants to tok to me, her banters amazin, well used to be better wen wed stay up all nite just tokin about anythin n everythin lol, long gone now tho =(, but i give up, im tierd, i cant hang on anymore, and im gutted, coz i thot i mabee had a chance
but last nite the chat with my good old friend, she helped me realise this, and so did 1 of my newest n closest friends, helped me realise how pathetic i was, and how to stop myself bein down and frustrated, the best thing to do, is to just let go
so i am
unless things mabee change in the future, but for now
im done.
on a lighter note last nite was amazin, il get fotos on my myspace, meetin ppl is good =), girls outfits r nice =)
thanks for prolly wasting a few mins of ur life reading this
but if a cant say it to her, i need to get it off my chest some how, cant hold it in n its amounted to this so aye
peace out hommies
keep doing the good deeds
K-dogg
xx.
spoke to old friend, she was amazin
had a tok about stuff in general, i filled in on girl issuses, droped the 411 bassically
the situation, how its taring me up n i can't handle it anymore so im gonna bow out
so she layed it out for me in bulk
and i agree with everything she said, and i got the 411 of another friend tonite, a close mate whoz been through it all before, im a rookie with girl shit but meh, im learning the hard way...
its obvious, that when u dont enjoy certain aspects of your life, it feels good to have power over someone, that when u call they come running, pretty much wats goin down with me, im pathetic, and im finished with it... shes knows i like her, alot, but not so much anymore, but she knows that if she wanted to see me shed just say the word and id come running, and sometimes, shed word it a certain way, get my hopes up, make me think mabee this time il have a chance, but i always knew its was a pointless chase, after the first 2 months, it was all downhill, things wernt the same, n i felt more n more that she wasent intrested much
theres that other dude but, i never could compete with him, better lookin, better hair, hardcore metal grindcore scene band, tighter jeans, sick tats, better lip ring, i was never upto his standards, and that clearly where her wer set, she had a thing before i even spoke to her, so fair play, hes a lucky guy and i hope he apreciates her as much as she does him, she deserves him
she knows that when we meet up, il have my hopes up, n from the outsted the balls in her court, n aye, it pretty much always is, ive been chasing this whole time n its no good =(
and the only way she knows to keep the ball in her court, is to keep me hangin, and the onli way she can think to keep me hangin, is to lead me on the way its goin =(, to keep me misrable and full of hope, to get the girl i shud have gave up on months ago...
i always think she keeeps me hangin on for a reason tho, i never know what it is but, i try n big up myself lol, hope that mabee shes never had someone like me after her, im not a dick, i go out my way for her, and i never stick up for myself =(, this whole time ive never sed a word about how i actuali feel, but shes gotta have some idea man, its been months, i like her, n she knows it, n mabee shes never had someone like me like her before coz im not a complete prick, and i dont tell her to go fuck her self or have her chasing after me, mabee its comfy to have me under the finger
i dunno anymore, but what i do now is, there someone new hopefully, shes amazing, and she goes out her way to be around me, its not about, good hair, nice clothes, sick taties, nice shoes and a healthy bank acount, its about bein in our company, gettin out a dvd, cuddlin up n eatin some sweets, its bein able to tok about everythin to each other, n not through msn or myspace
shes genuine, amazing and beautiful, everythin i thot i had before, but this time its for real, i hope lol
but bassically this is my resignation, its been a good run kieran, but move on sone, stop passin opertunties and dabeling on what i dont have, and what im never gonna get, she is and always will be amazing in my eyes, il still tok to her as long as she wants to tok to me, her banters amazin, well used to be better wen wed stay up all nite just tokin about anythin n everythin lol, long gone now tho =(, but i give up, im tierd, i cant hang on anymore, and im gutted, coz i thot i mabee had a chance
but last nite the chat with my good old friend, she helped me realise this, and so did 1 of my newest n closest friends, helped me realise how pathetic i was, and how to stop myself bein down and frustrated, the best thing to do, is to just let go
so i am
unless things mabee change in the future, but for now
im done.
on a lighter note last nite was amazin, il get fotos on my myspace, meetin ppl is good =), girls outfits r nice =)
thanks for prolly wasting a few mins of ur life reading this
but if a cant say it to her, i need to get it off my chest some how, cant hold it in n its amounted to this so aye
peace out hommies
keep doing the good deeds
K-dogg
xx.