hey...
my last few entries have been pretty deepressin n shit...
apologiez
but things are'nt amazing just know but itl all settle n wat ever
ive given up now, and i realise i brought it on myself,
i was gay as fuck man
sed the cheesiest shit, mad up the most para sinario's in my head, everything thing i did was pathetic, n everything i am is'nt right
i accept that n its a tough blow to take but ive plotted my own downfall, and i accept its totally my fault
its fine tho, i just always wish things could go back to those first 2 months, coz they were actuali amazing, sitting up til 3 am tokin about the most stupid stuff =)
but im imature, unatractive, have shite instruments, dont like hardcore, dont have big hair, dont like girls clothes on me, i tok like a ned,i like cheap nasty booze, gettin wasted as much as possible , not giving a fuck about what lies ahead and just focusing on how much fun i can have have rite now, i dont plan ahead n i rly dislike scene-ness
i dont fit the profile tbh lol
but if u see this, im sorry for bein a totally cheesey dick, n ive prolly freaked up out alot with some of the weird gay shit ive sed lol, and im embaressed thinkin back on it, i just wish a could have thot about stuff, and not been such a poofy wee dick about everything
i just got carried away coz id met sum1 amazing, that actuali liked me too (i think....mabee not)
awft fuck writting anymore
a shud stop wallowing on self pitty n do sumthing aboutit
stuff like this is exactly why ive fucked up
all am sayin is sorry for bein a para prick n gay as fuck
am done wat ever
xx.
apologiez
but things are'nt amazing just know but itl all settle n wat ever
ive given up now, and i realise i brought it on myself,
i was gay as fuck man
sed the cheesiest shit, mad up the most para sinario's in my head, everything thing i did was pathetic, n everything i am is'nt right
i accept that n its a tough blow to take but ive plotted my own downfall, and i accept its totally my fault
its fine tho, i just always wish things could go back to those first 2 months, coz they were actuali amazing, sitting up til 3 am tokin about the most stupid stuff =)
but im imature, unatractive, have shite instruments, dont like hardcore, dont have big hair, dont like girls clothes on me, i tok like a ned,i like cheap nasty booze, gettin wasted as much as possible , not giving a fuck about what lies ahead and just focusing on how much fun i can have have rite now, i dont plan ahead n i rly dislike scene-ness
i dont fit the profile tbh lol
but if u see this, im sorry for bein a totally cheesey dick, n ive prolly freaked up out alot with some of the weird gay shit ive sed lol, and im embaressed thinkin back on it, i just wish a could have thot about stuff, and not been such a poofy wee dick about everything
i just got carried away coz id met sum1 amazing, that actuali liked me too (i think....mabee not)
awft fuck writting anymore
a shud stop wallowing on self pitty n do sumthing aboutit
stuff like this is exactly why ive fucked up
all am sayin is sorry for bein a para prick n gay as fuck
am done wat ever
xx.