Ugh.
I wanted to be her friend. I wanted everything to go back to the way it used to be, but now I can see that it's so dumb when you have been dwelling on something for so long, then you realize, that what you were dwelling on was pointless to begin with. I could never be her friend. I'm not good enough, and I sure as hell am not like her. I can't believe I've wasted so much time wondering what-if's. This is so disappointing. I always thought she was better than this.