So much of this - I just feel so much empathy for you, I do, because it is so close to what my experiences with Guy (my grandmother) were. I truly wish I could help in some way.
At that time, someone telling me that I had done the right thing (when I prayed for her to go as easily as possible and hopefully without pain instead of constantly wishing it would get better) helped me immensely, and I hope that the same thing will help you. I don't believe you're wrong to pray for her to let go, dear. This time - as horrible as it is - is a time that every person experiences in one way or another and in our culture, somehow, denial has been promoted as the number one coping mechanism. Which seems kind of ridiculous.
You're in a horrible situation that feels horrible to you. But it doesn't mean you're doing anything wrong in that praying, I truly believe that. Your heart is telling you what you need and what your reality is, you know?
I'm so sorry you were the one to have to tell her all that heartbreaking news. And that you're all going through all this. Even when I'm not on the computer, DJ, know I'm thinking of you and your family. *hugs*
At that time, someone telling me that I had done the right thing (when I prayed for her to go as easily as possible and hopefully without pain instead of constantly wishing it would get better) helped me immensely, and I hope that the same thing will help you. I don't believe you're wrong to pray for her to let go, dear. This time - as horrible as it is - is a time that every person experiences in one way or another and in our culture, somehow, denial has been promoted as the number one coping mechanism. Which seems kind of ridiculous.
You're in a horrible situation that feels horrible to you. But it doesn't mean you're doing anything wrong in that praying, I truly believe that. Your heart is telling you what you need and what your reality is, you know?
I'm so sorry you were the one to have to tell her all that heartbreaking news. And that you're all going through all this. Even when I'm not on the computer, DJ, know I'm thinking of you and your family. *hugs*
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