where is something to numb the pain

[fragileheart___]

Well my therapy session went ok. I told my complicated life story, condensed nonetheless. There was a lot of crying, surprisingly more than I thought. I only scratched the surface though, I hope she knows that. The session ended with her talking about God being our heavenly Father and how lucky we are to have him…yada yada. It felt nice to hear

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[knatpink]

Hello my name is Natalie, I found your journal when I did a search on 'Messianics'. I hope you don't mind my reading it, I just wanted to comment on this specific entry of yours because I know how you feel ( to a certain degree ) Many people have ways of dealing with certain situations with certain techniques.
I know that you're in a lot of pain, and that you didn't want to hear from your therapist that God is the only way out of this mess...' but you have to believe that that is the truth. It is the only truth, in fact. If we try to solve our problems on our own and not leaving them up to Him, we will just suffer. He needs and wants our trust.

I am not at all assuming that you do not trust YHWH, but I must admit I was in quite a rut until I decided that He was the only way. Until I was able to hand over my problems and have Him take care of them. He really is the only way to get away from depression.

I have a suggestion: Pray to Him on your face (out of respect) and ask him to reveal to you what it is that is holding you back from moving on. Fast for three days and stay in the scriptures, and trust HE will take all of your pain away.

I sometimes have trouble trusting in people, but when it comes to God you need to just open up your heart and give Him all of the control. Being a follower is not always easy because we kind of have a mark that calls upon demonic attacks. They are waiting for us to mess up, waiting for any little reason to be allowed back into your life because you knowingly decided that you believe in Yeshua Ha moshiac and you want to live for Him.
Do it honey, live for Him. He will shield you from pain. He will take care of you. and remember when you're part of God he will never ever give you something you can't handle. He will always provide peace for us believers. You just need to believe that He will get you through this.

May God bless you. And please don't take any offense to anything I have written. I'm just worried about you, even though I don't know you. I just wanted you to know that. And congratulations on the 17 pounds THAT's AWESOME... keep up the good work.

Shalom,
Natalie