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Oh.
I'm a senior now.
How fast time flies, I guess. The first entry in this journal was made before 9th grade. Er well, that'd be the "Welcome to Livejournal" post. Then my first actual entry was a crappy fanfiction that I wrote on a whim.
I look back at my old LJ not posting for my own sake orz and I realize how much I've matured. I don't feel like anything has changed, but comparing my entries from 2006/2007 to my most recent ones? Yeah. It's like two different people. But... sometimes I want to go back to that time. I feel as though I was happier then? I miss my old Gakuen Heaven role play group, though I'm sure they've moved on. I mean, I was what... twelve? Thirteen? And they were all seventeen and up. I'd like to show them how much I've grown, but I doubt they remember me. They're never on MSN anymore, so it'd be kinda weird to talk to them out of the blue.
I miss having close-knit friends like that. Sure, I have my IRL friends, but some problems are better worked out with long-distance friends. If that makes any sense.
Curse me and my ability to fall in and out of fandoms easily. I'm sure I would have a lot more fandom friends if I didn't do this. And then there's the feeling I have, this social awkwardness that I didn't have three-four years ago. Back then, I said what I wanted and didn't care. Now? I'm afraid of sounding stupid, so I don't talk as much. What happened? I've thought I was getting over my shyness recently, but it appears to not be that way.
I don't know.
How did this get so long? I didn't want to ramble ; o; Is it obvious I haven't slept?
Here, have this instead:
I'm a senior now.
How fast time flies, I guess. The first entry in this journal was made before 9th grade. Er well, that'd be the "Welcome to Livejournal" post. Then my first actual entry was a crappy fanfiction that I wrote on a whim.
I look back at my old LJ not posting for my own sake orz and I realize how much I've matured. I don't feel like anything has changed, but comparing my entries from 2006/2007 to my most recent ones? Yeah. It's like two different people. But... sometimes I want to go back to that time. I feel as though I was happier then? I miss my old Gakuen Heaven role play group, though I'm sure they've moved on. I mean, I was what... twelve? Thirteen? And they were all seventeen and up. I'd like to show them how much I've grown, but I doubt they remember me. They're never on MSN anymore, so it'd be kinda weird to talk to them out of the blue.
I miss having close-knit friends like that. Sure, I have my IRL friends, but some problems are better worked out with long-distance friends. If that makes any sense.
Curse me and my ability to fall in and out of fandoms easily. I'm sure I would have a lot more fandom friends if I didn't do this. And then there's the feeling I have, this social awkwardness that I didn't have three-four years ago. Back then, I said what I wanted and didn't care. Now? I'm afraid of sounding stupid, so I don't talk as much. What happened? I've thought I was getting over my shyness recently, but it appears to not be that way.
I don't know.
How did this get so long? I didn't want to ramble ; o; Is it obvious I haven't slept?
Here, have this instead: