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Title: What ifs and Maybes
Pairing/Characters: Jin/Kame, past!Pikame and slight!Kokame
Disclaimer: Unfortunately I don't own any of them
Summary/Notes: Jin thinks about the things he could have changed the past and wakes up to a world where everything is different from his own.
Chapter 1,Chapter 2a,Chapter 2b/Chapter 3a
Chapter 3a - Real!Jin
Jin stared at the others disbelievingly. It was true; he’d been trying but couldn’t find a trace of Care anywhere. It hadn’t been released. At first Jin was confused as he processed the information, when a sudden realization came to him. What if I never wrote Care for Kame? His eyes widened and a soft chuckling escaped from his lips.
“Jin?” Ryo started next to him.
The chuckles erupted into empty laughter, “Uso. This can’t be real.” He’d managed between breaths. His breathing quickened as Jin felt rears beginning to form at his eyes. Bringing his hands to his lips, Jin attempted to stifle the sobs that began to bubble from his laughter.
“Jin, what’s wrong?” Placing a hand on Jin’s shoulder, a worried Nakamaru knelt in front of him.
He looked up at the older man and his words rang through his mind once more; What if I never wrote Care for Kame? Thinking back towards everything the others told him about the past couple years, Jin began piecing together what had happened. It had to have started from there; from when Kame wrote Kizuna and he apparently didn’t write Care. But this was completely different from what he’d expected to happen. He was living in America and Kame in London, and KAT-TUN… KAT-TUN was broken. The tears he’d been holding back began streaming down his face and Jin suddenly flung himself onto Nakamaru.
“Jin?!” Both Nakamaru and Ryo exclaimed anxiously.
“I’m sorry.” He’d muttered between sobs miserably, “So sorry.”
Nakamaru brought a comforting hand to Jin’s back, “What are you apologizing for? You haven’t done anything wrong Jin.”
Jin shook his head, “It’s my fault.” He hiccupped, “About KAT-TUN, and Kame. All of it is my fault.”
Eyes widening Nakamaru tried to pull back, but Jin held on tight. He sighed and decided to embrace the distraught man instead. “It’s not your fault Jin.”
“Don’t lie.” Jin interrupted.
Sighing Nakamaru began again, “No matter what anyone says Jin, the fault can’t be completely placed on you.” Nakamaru kept his hold on Jin, “It’s okay, cry for as long as you need to. Just let it all out.”
Jin held on tightly as his tears fell, occasionally murmuring a soft “Sorry” Eventually his sobs quieted down and stopped as he fell slack in Nakamaru’s hold. There was a soft rapping at the door and Nakamaru looked towards Ryo. The other man nodded his head and went to open the door. After a few moments a worried Yamapi came into the room quickly. They carefully placed Jin onto the bed and headed into the living room when Ryo came in with a tray of fruit and drinks. Yamapi asked them what had happened and Nakamaru began to explain the events of that afternoon.
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It was still pitch black when Jin woke up. He looked at the alarm clock; 4:27a.m. Despite the time Jin got out of bed his eyes wide awake. Heading towards the kitchen, Jin noticed the sleeping figures in the living room. He smiled softly; Yamapi and Ryo had fallen asleep on the couch while Nakamaru was curled on his love seat. Walking back towards the bedroom Jin grabbed a couple of blankets out of the closet and covered the sleeping men, before heading to the kitchen once more. He looked in the fridge and scowled, it was full of take out food. No wonder he’d been in the hospital earlier. Grabbing a couple of eggs and a few vegetables that were still edible Jin took out a frying pan in the cabinets. Soon the whole apartment was filled with a delicious aroma. He sniffed the air and smiled.
“Oi,” Ryo yawned sleepily, “since when did you learn to cook?”
Jin mocked glared at Ryo, “Keep talking and you won’t have any breakfast.”
“Ehh! You’re just going to let one of your best friends starve in you own house while you eat?!” Ryo gasped.
“Maa, that just means there’s more for us, ne Jin.” Yamapi grinned sleepily, leaning against the doorway.
Nakamaru stumbled into the kitchen, “Mmm, what smells so good?”
Jin filled four plates with the food and placed them on the table, “Fried rice.” He said proudly.
Cries of Umai! And Oishi! Filled the room as the other three began to eat.
“Where did you learn to cook?” Ryo asked
Jin looked at him pointy, “You don’t have to say that like I can’t boil water. I’ll have you know that I am a decent cook myself. But if you must know, Kame taught me how to cook fried rice a few years ago.”
“Kame would definitely make something like this.” Nakamaru commented.
“Un very Kameish!” Yamapi added.
Just then Yamapi’s phone went off, and he rushed into the living room. He came back into the room groaning.
“I have to go to the drama shoot.” He said before downing the rest of his food. “I’ll see you guys later.”
“OI! Don’t forget NewS has a photo shoot this afternoon!” Ryo yelled after him.
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That afternoon after Ryo had left; Jin and Nakamaru had gone out grocery shopping. As they were putting up the food Jin asked how the other members of KAT-TUN were doing.
Nakamaru handed him a bottle of milk, “Well right now Junno and Ueda are in London visiting Kame. They’re supposed to come back with him in October. And Koki, well he’s doing alright. He and I are releasing a CD next month.”
Jin didn’t miss the slight hesitation in Nakamaru’s voice, “What about Koki?”
Nakamaru’s smile was forced and strained, “I shouldn’t be saying this after what happened last night, but you should be prepared when you see him…and well Koki’s kinda never forgiven you and Kame for leaving the Jimusho.”
“Ah, I see.” He replied sullenly, “Well that can’t be helped.”
“Don’t worry about Koki; he’s just being hard headed.”
Jin gave a small smile, “So what do you want for dinner?”
“I’m okay with anything, but you might wanna see if Yamapi and Nishikido-kun are going to come over tonight.”
Jin nodded his head and just as he was getting ready to call Yamapi his phone went off. He yelped and nearly dropped the phone, “Don’t even.” He said to a grinning Nakamaru before answering the call.
“Moshi moshi? Ah, Pi? I was about to call you. Eh? Karaoke? Sure, hold on I’ll ask him.”
He turned towards Nakamaru, “Pi wants to know if we want to go to karaoke with him and part of NewS. I think some of Kanjani are there too.”
Nakamaru nodded his head, “Sure, if you want to go.”
Jin smiles and goes back to the call “Pi, yeah. Maru and I will be over in a few.”
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It was getting late and most of the other had left already, Jin noted as he looked around the room. Koyama, Yamapi and Ryo were the only ones left from NewS, and only Murakami and Yokoyama were left from Kanjani 8.
“One more song!” Yoko shouted from his seat, while flipping through the song book. He grinned and shoved the mike in Yamapi’s face. “YOU! Sing.”
Yamapi took the mike, and Jin smiled as a familiar tune began. It was one of Yamapi’s solos.
“Kimi ni deatta toki boku wa omoidashitanda
Zutto wasureteta dareka wo aisuru koto
Kono suteki na kimochi tori modoshita toki kara
Mainichi ga totemo azayakana irozuita
Jama saretemo nanimo ushinattemo
Kimi wo mamoru aisou to chikatta noni
Kisu de kisu de ichioku kai tashikame atta kedo
Dokoka nanika mitasarenai
Futari de kanjite itanda kono koi no ketsumatsu
Ah gomen ne Juliet”
As the song continued images began to flash in Jin’s mind. Memories that weren’t his own suddenly began to emerge. Jin’s breathing began to quicken, and he quickly stepped out of the room. He fell to his knees and leaned against the balcony railing, his eyes searching for something to focus on in the night. But all he could see was Kame and Yamapi. Kame smiling at Pi in a way Jin had only ever seen directed at himself - Kame leaning back into Yamapi’s loving embrace - Kame’s flushed cheeks after Pi lightly pecked him on the lips.
“Jin? Are you okay?” A voice came behind him.
He turned around, “Pi?”
Yamapi looked at him worriedly and placed a hand on his forehead. “Yeah?”
Jin looked into Yamapi’s eyes anxiously, “Pi…did-are you and Kame dating?”
TBC
This time the chapter is longer >_< I hope you like it. I'll try not to take too long for the next update
Comments are love!
Pairing/Characters: Jin/Kame, past!Pikame and slight!Kokame
Disclaimer: Unfortunately I don't own any of them
Summary/Notes: Jin thinks about the things he could have changed the past and wakes up to a world where everything is different from his own.
Chapter 1,Chapter 2a,Chapter 2b/Chapter 3a
Chapter 3a - Real!Jin
Jin stared at the others disbelievingly. It was true; he’d been trying but couldn’t find a trace of Care anywhere. It hadn’t been released. At first Jin was confused as he processed the information, when a sudden realization came to him. What if I never wrote Care for Kame? His eyes widened and a soft chuckling escaped from his lips.
“Jin?” Ryo started next to him.
The chuckles erupted into empty laughter, “Uso. This can’t be real.” He’d managed between breaths. His breathing quickened as Jin felt rears beginning to form at his eyes. Bringing his hands to his lips, Jin attempted to stifle the sobs that began to bubble from his laughter.
“Jin, what’s wrong?” Placing a hand on Jin’s shoulder, a worried Nakamaru knelt in front of him.
He looked up at the older man and his words rang through his mind once more; What if I never wrote Care for Kame? Thinking back towards everything the others told him about the past couple years, Jin began piecing together what had happened. It had to have started from there; from when Kame wrote Kizuna and he apparently didn’t write Care. But this was completely different from what he’d expected to happen. He was living in America and Kame in London, and KAT-TUN… KAT-TUN was broken. The tears he’d been holding back began streaming down his face and Jin suddenly flung himself onto Nakamaru.
“Jin?!” Both Nakamaru and Ryo exclaimed anxiously.
“I’m sorry.” He’d muttered between sobs miserably, “So sorry.”
Nakamaru brought a comforting hand to Jin’s back, “What are you apologizing for? You haven’t done anything wrong Jin.”
Jin shook his head, “It’s my fault.” He hiccupped, “About KAT-TUN, and Kame. All of it is my fault.”
Eyes widening Nakamaru tried to pull back, but Jin held on tight. He sighed and decided to embrace the distraught man instead. “It’s not your fault Jin.”
“Don’t lie.” Jin interrupted.
Sighing Nakamaru began again, “No matter what anyone says Jin, the fault can’t be completely placed on you.” Nakamaru kept his hold on Jin, “It’s okay, cry for as long as you need to. Just let it all out.”
Jin held on tightly as his tears fell, occasionally murmuring a soft “Sorry” Eventually his sobs quieted down and stopped as he fell slack in Nakamaru’s hold. There was a soft rapping at the door and Nakamaru looked towards Ryo. The other man nodded his head and went to open the door. After a few moments a worried Yamapi came into the room quickly. They carefully placed Jin onto the bed and headed into the living room when Ryo came in with a tray of fruit and drinks. Yamapi asked them what had happened and Nakamaru began to explain the events of that afternoon.
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It was still pitch black when Jin woke up. He looked at the alarm clock; 4:27a.m. Despite the time Jin got out of bed his eyes wide awake. Heading towards the kitchen, Jin noticed the sleeping figures in the living room. He smiled softly; Yamapi and Ryo had fallen asleep on the couch while Nakamaru was curled on his love seat. Walking back towards the bedroom Jin grabbed a couple of blankets out of the closet and covered the sleeping men, before heading to the kitchen once more. He looked in the fridge and scowled, it was full of take out food. No wonder he’d been in the hospital earlier. Grabbing a couple of eggs and a few vegetables that were still edible Jin took out a frying pan in the cabinets. Soon the whole apartment was filled with a delicious aroma. He sniffed the air and smiled.
“Oi,” Ryo yawned sleepily, “since when did you learn to cook?”
Jin mocked glared at Ryo, “Keep talking and you won’t have any breakfast.”
“Ehh! You’re just going to let one of your best friends starve in you own house while you eat?!” Ryo gasped.
“Maa, that just means there’s more for us, ne Jin.” Yamapi grinned sleepily, leaning against the doorway.
Nakamaru stumbled into the kitchen, “Mmm, what smells so good?”
Jin filled four plates with the food and placed them on the table, “Fried rice.” He said proudly.
Cries of Umai! And Oishi! Filled the room as the other three began to eat.
“Where did you learn to cook?” Ryo asked
Jin looked at him pointy, “You don’t have to say that like I can’t boil water. I’ll have you know that I am a decent cook myself. But if you must know, Kame taught me how to cook fried rice a few years ago.”
“Kame would definitely make something like this.” Nakamaru commented.
“Un very Kameish!” Yamapi added.
Just then Yamapi’s phone went off, and he rushed into the living room. He came back into the room groaning.
“I have to go to the drama shoot.” He said before downing the rest of his food. “I’ll see you guys later.”
“OI! Don’t forget NewS has a photo shoot this afternoon!” Ryo yelled after him.
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That afternoon after Ryo had left; Jin and Nakamaru had gone out grocery shopping. As they were putting up the food Jin asked how the other members of KAT-TUN were doing.
Nakamaru handed him a bottle of milk, “Well right now Junno and Ueda are in London visiting Kame. They’re supposed to come back with him in October. And Koki, well he’s doing alright. He and I are releasing a CD next month.”
Jin didn’t miss the slight hesitation in Nakamaru’s voice, “What about Koki?”
Nakamaru’s smile was forced and strained, “I shouldn’t be saying this after what happened last night, but you should be prepared when you see him…and well Koki’s kinda never forgiven you and Kame for leaving the Jimusho.”
“Ah, I see.” He replied sullenly, “Well that can’t be helped.”
“Don’t worry about Koki; he’s just being hard headed.”
Jin gave a small smile, “So what do you want for dinner?”
“I’m okay with anything, but you might wanna see if Yamapi and Nishikido-kun are going to come over tonight.”
Jin nodded his head and just as he was getting ready to call Yamapi his phone went off. He yelped and nearly dropped the phone, “Don’t even.” He said to a grinning Nakamaru before answering the call.
“Moshi moshi? Ah, Pi? I was about to call you. Eh? Karaoke? Sure, hold on I’ll ask him.”
He turned towards Nakamaru, “Pi wants to know if we want to go to karaoke with him and part of NewS. I think some of Kanjani are there too.”
Nakamaru nodded his head, “Sure, if you want to go.”
Jin smiles and goes back to the call “Pi, yeah. Maru and I will be over in a few.”
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It was getting late and most of the other had left already, Jin noted as he looked around the room. Koyama, Yamapi and Ryo were the only ones left from NewS, and only Murakami and Yokoyama were left from Kanjani 8.
“One more song!” Yoko shouted from his seat, while flipping through the song book. He grinned and shoved the mike in Yamapi’s face. “YOU! Sing.”
Yamapi took the mike, and Jin smiled as a familiar tune began. It was one of Yamapi’s solos.
“Kimi ni deatta toki boku wa omoidashitanda
Zutto wasureteta dareka wo aisuru koto
Kono suteki na kimochi tori modoshita toki kara
Mainichi ga totemo azayakana irozuita
Jama saretemo nanimo ushinattemo
Kimi wo mamoru aisou to chikatta noni
Kisu de kisu de ichioku kai tashikame atta kedo
Dokoka nanika mitasarenai
Futari de kanjite itanda kono koi no ketsumatsu
Ah gomen ne Juliet”
As the song continued images began to flash in Jin’s mind. Memories that weren’t his own suddenly began to emerge. Jin’s breathing began to quicken, and he quickly stepped out of the room. He fell to his knees and leaned against the balcony railing, his eyes searching for something to focus on in the night. But all he could see was Kame and Yamapi. Kame smiling at Pi in a way Jin had only ever seen directed at himself - Kame leaning back into Yamapi’s loving embrace - Kame’s flushed cheeks after Pi lightly pecked him on the lips.
“Jin? Are you okay?” A voice came behind him.
He turned around, “Pi?”
Yamapi looked at him worriedly and placed a hand on his forehead. “Yeah?”
Jin looked into Yamapi’s eyes anxiously, “Pi…did-are you and Kame dating?”
TBC
This time the chapter is longer >_< I hope you like it. I'll try not to take too long for the next update
Comments are love!