Maybe I should try Karaoke
I really don't belong here. I say that not because I think I'm better or so different that people just don't get me... but because I really don't think I do. All my life I've struggled with trying to be like everyone else, something a lot people seem to have no problem with but for me it's like perpetually learning a new group dance, awkwardly side stepping the wrong way, dipping too late, and tipping my hat at exactly the wrong moment. I use to convince myself that I didn't need to dance, that sort of thing was unnecessary, but I see so many people enjoying themselves that I feel like I have to try to join in. When I invite myself into the group I can't stop myself from bumping to other people and ruining their experience while I try to learn to enjoy mine. Usually I start to detect my unwelcome and apologetically leave dance floor to return with the rest of the spectators. I know it's not for me, I'm more of a freestyle type of guy.. but only when I'm alone or in front of people that I don't care to impress or not impress. I really don't like line dancing, nothing wrong with it.. I just can't seem to get in the rhythm. Which is fine.. I just want to be happy.. like everyone else, so every once and awhile I try and every one of those times I fail. I'm not entirely sure if I'm in the right club, or at the right night. Maybe I should try Karaoke.