Angry Rant of DOOOOOM
This is that post I warned you all. *mwahahaha* Get ready to Defriend!!!! :D
No, really... If no-one defriends me over this I may actually feel a little disappointed...
First, the obvious. Miss Michelle is my Psycho Lady ex-friend for whome I over little ticky boxes and icons should she come a'stalking. Hi CraZy lady (aka my enenemy)! I pity you more than I hate you. And the pity over-riding the hate is the reason why I have not posted on the internet things about you that would surely harm you. Things you could respond with anger, but would definitely cut you inside.
I know that this woman is really messed up in the head. But to anyone on my list who claims friendship with jelloh0530, if you saw the post in which she rec'd aelfsiden's fic and claimed I was addicted to codeine and then wished me death... Could you please de-friend me right now? I had given you the benefit of the doubt that you missed that post. But if you did see it? Bye, bye.
To anyone who has friended me since then, and lists "Miss Michelle" as a friend... No. No, I won't friend you back. lol
The self-involved tabularassa was the person who defriended me outta no-where the other week. Honestly, I don't much mind. She was too negative for me to actually feel as though I was losing a "friend". And, yes, the whole self-involved thing meant I'm sure she felt as though I did not fawn over her at all enough... *giggles* I hope no-one who lists her as friends falls on the bad side of her little clique. I feel as though they extend the claws when that happens...
I stand by my right to use the word "cunt" in my journal in reference to the anatomy thought traditionally for peen insertion. :P If black men of America can claim back the "N-word" for use as a term of endearment within their own close circles, so, too, can I stand up for my right to use this word as a term of endearment/annoyance for my own body.
I agree that the attack on America in 2001 was "a long time coming". I think it was so very tragic that so many innocent lives were lost. And I think it tragic that Americans still manage to live with such a closed view of the world. After my travels, I think it is to do with how everything they are told is about their own country. I only think it occurs to a lesser degree in Australia because we are a smaller country... The news does run out of things to tell about what is going on within our boundaries and hence even the least-interested in news will hear SOMETHING going on over on the other side of the world.
The above is a very simplified statement. But it feels to me self-replicating in every instance an American tells me their views of their country (good or bad). They are focussed on being American, not being a part of the wider world. ((I will be posting an open-to-reply post in a couple days so please respond to this then if you agree AND if you disagree))
A little over ten years ago my mother killed herself. Most of you know that. For this reason, and others, I think it bad taste to make suicide jokes and mock mental illness, and attack Emos. In those ten years there has been so much change in how people talk about mental illnesses, but still I hear people talk and mock those who have talked to them about slitting wrists, hanging themselves, taking too many pills... Whatever.
I lose respect for people who lack respect for mental illnesses. I may forgive, but there are a lot of people I do not believe will change their opinions - those people are not ones I wish to know, so why bother to forgive? I do not wish to be friends with anyone who cannot accept that I do not hate my mother for taking her own life. She thought my father would care for her children better than she could. She was wrong, but this is what she thought. And my own depression that hit me with the start of puberty meant that I felt she saved my life. After seeing how those around me suffered following her death, I knew I could never do that again to my family, and that was when I vowed I would never kill myself.
Of course, I do tell people this story. Suicide Survivors (people left behind after someone takes their own life) often never fully recover. I lost my mother when I was fourteen! I do not think I shall ever fully recover from her death. But I have changed. And I know that with the support of those who love me, I shall forever be able to cope (sometimes poorly, sometimes without struggle). To those who know my story and take their own life, I do not forgive you. I can tell you of the suffering of your family and friends, were you to go ahead with it. I can tell you how much they would rather carry you than see you fall all the way down through the cracks. And maybe you might decide it is too much. But if you decide that? I cannot forgive you. I can mourn you, but never forgive you.
Poll Angry Rant of DOOM response system
A song to calm your ruffled feathers:
Artie Shaw - Comes Love
No, really... If no-one defriends me over this I may actually feel a little disappointed...
First, the obvious. Miss Michelle is my Psycho Lady ex-friend for whome I over little ticky boxes and icons should she come a'stalking. Hi CraZy lady (aka my enenemy)! I pity you more than I hate you. And the pity over-riding the hate is the reason why I have not posted on the internet things about you that would surely harm you. Things you could respond with anger, but would definitely cut you inside.
I know that this woman is really messed up in the head. But to anyone on my list who claims friendship with jelloh0530, if you saw the post in which she rec'd aelfsiden's fic and claimed I was addicted to codeine and then wished me death... Could you please de-friend me right now? I had given you the benefit of the doubt that you missed that post. But if you did see it? Bye, bye.
To anyone who has friended me since then, and lists "Miss Michelle" as a friend... No. No, I won't friend you back. lol
The self-involved tabularassa was the person who defriended me outta no-where the other week. Honestly, I don't much mind. She was too negative for me to actually feel as though I was losing a "friend". And, yes, the whole self-involved thing meant I'm sure she felt as though I did not fawn over her at all enough... *giggles* I hope no-one who lists her as friends falls on the bad side of her little clique. I feel as though they extend the claws when that happens...
I stand by my right to use the word "cunt" in my journal in reference to the anatomy thought traditionally for peen insertion. :P If black men of America can claim back the "N-word" for use as a term of endearment within their own close circles, so, too, can I stand up for my right to use this word as a term of endearment/annoyance for my own body.
I agree that the attack on America in 2001 was "a long time coming". I think it was so very tragic that so many innocent lives were lost. And I think it tragic that Americans still manage to live with such a closed view of the world. After my travels, I think it is to do with how everything they are told is about their own country. I only think it occurs to a lesser degree in Australia because we are a smaller country... The news does run out of things to tell about what is going on within our boundaries and hence even the least-interested in news will hear SOMETHING going on over on the other side of the world.
The above is a very simplified statement. But it feels to me self-replicating in every instance an American tells me their views of their country (good or bad). They are focussed on being American, not being a part of the wider world. ((I will be posting an open-to-reply post in a couple days so please respond to this then if you agree AND if you disagree))
A little over ten years ago my mother killed herself. Most of you know that. For this reason, and others, I think it bad taste to make suicide jokes and mock mental illness, and attack Emos. In those ten years there has been so much change in how people talk about mental illnesses, but still I hear people talk and mock those who have talked to them about slitting wrists, hanging themselves, taking too many pills... Whatever.
I lose respect for people who lack respect for mental illnesses. I may forgive, but there are a lot of people I do not believe will change their opinions - those people are not ones I wish to know, so why bother to forgive? I do not wish to be friends with anyone who cannot accept that I do not hate my mother for taking her own life. She thought my father would care for her children better than she could. She was wrong, but this is what she thought. And my own depression that hit me with the start of puberty meant that I felt she saved my life. After seeing how those around me suffered following her death, I knew I could never do that again to my family, and that was when I vowed I would never kill myself.
Of course, I do tell people this story. Suicide Survivors (people left behind after someone takes their own life) often never fully recover. I lost my mother when I was fourteen! I do not think I shall ever fully recover from her death. But I have changed. And I know that with the support of those who love me, I shall forever be able to cope (sometimes poorly, sometimes without struggle). To those who know my story and take their own life, I do not forgive you. I can tell you of the suffering of your family and friends, were you to go ahead with it. I can tell you how much they would rather carry you than see you fall all the way down through the cracks. And maybe you might decide it is too much. But if you decide that? I cannot forgive you. I can mourn you, but never forgive you.
Poll Angry Rant of DOOM response system
A song to calm your ruffled feathers:
Artie Shaw - Comes Love