woe is meeeee
oh man i just dont understand it. jojo is trying to work things out, but i dunno i feel like the special feeling is lost in a way, how do i know? because i have been thinking about someone else. and i do mean alot. it used to be jojo i thought about alot and i am afraid to tell jojo because i know it would be a risk, and make him angry. cause we have already gotten into big arguments over diego a couple of times and just the other night while i was talking to jojo on the phone he brought diego up again. and i thought that was wierd cause i hadnt really been talking to diego much lately i was brushing my feelings off. i guess it scares me to lose jojo. he was afraid with me at school i would fall back to diego wich is a good possibility but i wouldnt dare admit it to jojo cause i know that would drive him up a wall with jealousy but i wonder if it would be good for him to get a taste of his own crappy tasting medicine!
but anyways today diego got online on aol IM, (he is in colombia for the summer with family). and it just freaks me out, he was joking with me and with his cousins, and i was so jealous about the cousins thing cause i lost alex and here he is chilling with his cousins and having a good time and joking around and here i have lost one of mine, i wish i could be with him and mikey and janie laughing like diego and his cousins. but it wont be like that anymore it will be us minus alex there, at least physically, spiritually he is there but its still sad missing him.( i really like the bond he has with his family too there are alot of parallels i see with him and i that i really like)
anyways diego asked for me to send a pic to him and his two cousins, he specifically likes the one with me and my sister at the farm he says its his favorite. and his cousins said i was beautiful and all and we all joked about stuff and talked in spanish, well them in spanish me in broken molly span-glish, diego said my spanish was wierd and i was like well i am rusty and i feel wierd talking to fluent people, it makes me nervous and self conscious and more white than ever! lol! but he said no it was cute. and i asked him if he thought of me and he said he actually did alot. so maybe when we get back to school something will happen for the good with me and him. thats what i am hoping i mean i really do like this guy and am so stuck on him at times. even so that i would give up jojo in a heart beat. i would love to be with diego he is so funny and cute and smart. there is just something there. and to kiss him, whoa baby! and hello his name is diego how sexy is that! i just was so happy to talk to him today, maybe he will take a hint from his cousins who have taste and rethink everything as in gee she is a good girl what was i thinking. i do understand where he was coming from just getting out of a long relationship too and painfully but man me and him we would be good together lets get over that already!!! haha! GRRRR!!!
and matias got online too so that was a bonus! to just chill and talk. i made him mad that i was eating pizza, and he was like oh man! pepparoni?!! i miss that about america PIZZA! i miss matias:( i cant believe 2 years has passed already.
AHHHHHH! I WANT DIEGO IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FORRRRR!!!!! so why must i be tortured with a crappy mixed emotion relationship with jojoOOOOOOOOOO!!!! ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS...
DIEGO!!!!! haha! oh well later alligators
Molly Anne
but anyways today diego got online on aol IM, (he is in colombia for the summer with family). and it just freaks me out, he was joking with me and with his cousins, and i was so jealous about the cousins thing cause i lost alex and here he is chilling with his cousins and having a good time and joking around and here i have lost one of mine, i wish i could be with him and mikey and janie laughing like diego and his cousins. but it wont be like that anymore it will be us minus alex there, at least physically, spiritually he is there but its still sad missing him.( i really like the bond he has with his family too there are alot of parallels i see with him and i that i really like)
anyways diego asked for me to send a pic to him and his two cousins, he specifically likes the one with me and my sister at the farm he says its his favorite. and his cousins said i was beautiful and all and we all joked about stuff and talked in spanish, well them in spanish me in broken molly span-glish, diego said my spanish was wierd and i was like well i am rusty and i feel wierd talking to fluent people, it makes me nervous and self conscious and more white than ever! lol! but he said no it was cute. and i asked him if he thought of me and he said he actually did alot. so maybe when we get back to school something will happen for the good with me and him. thats what i am hoping i mean i really do like this guy and am so stuck on him at times. even so that i would give up jojo in a heart beat. i would love to be with diego he is so funny and cute and smart. there is just something there. and to kiss him, whoa baby! and hello his name is diego how sexy is that! i just was so happy to talk to him today, maybe he will take a hint from his cousins who have taste and rethink everything as in gee she is a good girl what was i thinking. i do understand where he was coming from just getting out of a long relationship too and painfully but man me and him we would be good together lets get over that already!!! haha! GRRRR!!!
and matias got online too so that was a bonus! to just chill and talk. i made him mad that i was eating pizza, and he was like oh man! pepparoni?!! i miss that about america PIZZA! i miss matias:( i cant believe 2 years has passed already.
AHHHHHH! I WANT DIEGO IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FORRRRR!!!!! so why must i be tortured with a crappy mixed emotion relationship with jojoOOOOOOOOOO!!!! ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS...
DIEGO!!!!! haha! oh well later alligators
Molly Anne