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Ok...Yes I'm back, and like I've said so many times before this, I plan to actually use my LJ alot more, and this time, I will...
Now I know for a fact that only two people read my journals. I doubt very many others will ever read mine, not to sound emo, but yeah...I'm just not an interesting person I guess...I'm a furry, I drive a Jeep, I listen to Rush, play guitar, love to draw and write, I'm involved with Sea Cadets, and I love to go outside. I like to think I have an interesting background, but we will go over that another night. Its such a long story...
Recently, Me and a Friend have embarked on a project of great proportions. We are writing in colaberation, a fan fiction, that will be like nothing you have ever read. I am very optamistic about this project, and I cannot wait for its completion. Why you may ask? So we can share it with YOU! (yaya!)
Ok...so...lately I have been feeling kinda...*groan*...Depressed...
Not like a No-one-loves-me-and-I-want-to-die depressed, but just like...down...feeling drained kinda depressed. I think it is a lack of sleep, and mal-nutrition, but hey, we'll see where that goes...but I feel like I'm never going to be anything...like I'll be forever trapped in this town with this job...My job clashes with my personality...I'm not the kind of person who works on cars. I don't mind doing it, but its just not me, you know? If you knew me, you would understand...I want to get out on my own, but I don't know what I want for a career. I have a certain "direction" i want to head in, and thats working with computers/video games/software with my Friends, but as for a specific job...I don't know...I made a promise to a friend that we would try as hard as we can to work together, but I honestly don't know what I'm good at...I don't know my strengths, or if I even have any. Its like when your afraid of something, that you shouldn't be, like worrying if a meteor will fall on you today, or if you worry that your freind is going to "backstab" you. It feels like I'm worrying about stuff I shouldn't be. I don't know what I would be good at...I can do a few things, but i can't do anything well, it feels like. It feels the same with everything...guitar, drawing, writing...I just don't have a perticular strength. I don't know... I have my life, right in front of me, and I feel like I'm just sitting here, waiting for something to happen. I hate sounding like this, I really do, but I need to vent my fears, in order to move forward. I do know one thing...I have to figure out a plan...because before I know it, I'll be 30 years old, wondering what the hell happend. I'll update in a bit...Thanks for letting me vent ^^; I kinda feel a little better now...
Now I know for a fact that only two people read my journals. I doubt very many others will ever read mine, not to sound emo, but yeah...I'm just not an interesting person I guess...I'm a furry, I drive a Jeep, I listen to Rush, play guitar, love to draw and write, I'm involved with Sea Cadets, and I love to go outside. I like to think I have an interesting background, but we will go over that another night. Its such a long story...
Recently, Me and a Friend have embarked on a project of great proportions. We are writing in colaberation, a fan fiction, that will be like nothing you have ever read. I am very optamistic about this project, and I cannot wait for its completion. Why you may ask? So we can share it with YOU! (yaya!)
Ok...so...lately I have been feeling kinda...*groan*...Depressed...
Not like a No-one-loves-me-and-I-want-to-die depressed, but just like...down...feeling drained kinda depressed. I think it is a lack of sleep, and mal-nutrition, but hey, we'll see where that goes...but I feel like I'm never going to be anything...like I'll be forever trapped in this town with this job...My job clashes with my personality...I'm not the kind of person who works on cars. I don't mind doing it, but its just not me, you know? If you knew me, you would understand...I want to get out on my own, but I don't know what I want for a career. I have a certain "direction" i want to head in, and thats working with computers/video games/software with my Friends, but as for a specific job...I don't know...I made a promise to a friend that we would try as hard as we can to work together, but I honestly don't know what I'm good at...I don't know my strengths, or if I even have any. Its like when your afraid of something, that you shouldn't be, like worrying if a meteor will fall on you today, or if you worry that your freind is going to "backstab" you. It feels like I'm worrying about stuff I shouldn't be. I don't know what I would be good at...I can do a few things, but i can't do anything well, it feels like. It feels the same with everything...guitar, drawing, writing...I just don't have a perticular strength. I don't know... I have my life, right in front of me, and I feel like I'm just sitting here, waiting for something to happen. I hate sounding like this, I really do, but I need to vent my fears, in order to move forward. I do know one thing...I have to figure out a plan...because before I know it, I'll be 30 years old, wondering what the hell happend. I'll update in a bit...Thanks for letting me vent ^^; I kinda feel a little better now...