this is all crew stuff, so go ahead and ignore it
8:06 -- a disimprovement, though not too marked
no wheezing, though -- an improvement on the past few days
also, probably the reason it was 8:06. i was, and i think rightfully so, way nervous i'd kill my lungs, so those three and a half strokes after the 8min were catching up to the ones I held back on for fear of hyperventilation. still, being so close is killing me.
rachel didn't test today since she hasn't really eaten anything but 3 or 4 bagels in a week. nasty GI virus she has. when she tests next week, I'm gonna go with her and break 8 for no one but ME.
weight limit at new england fours AND dad vails is 130.
we have three girls ready, but no one else close.
so, we are not racing a women's lightweight four.
this team depends on each other -- any rowing team does. the girls i have counted on for the past year and a half while i dreamed about this goal.... and two others are there with me, but any potential fourth is not.
this is why i stuck with this team every year. because i knew we all DEPEND on each other more than any other iteration of teamwork I can conceive of, and I thrive on that. i do not, will not, can not blame any girl whose weight is just above 135, but at the same time, i've been working SO HARD for this for SO LONG and all of a sudden, any number of potential girls on the team have fallen through on me. I understand that weight is a variable added on top of the commitment to the team, and one that no one there should be expected to make good on unprepared. I'm not accusing anyone of un-dependability, but some part of me still feels like an indeterminate someone has let me down.
we MAY be entering a women's pair at dad vails. ellen said to consider myself a "strong contender." that would be fun. me and sarah! senior girls ahoy. i guess that's my new goal...
speaking of, it kills me that Rachael isn't in the "tentative" A boat lineup (that is, the one we've been rowing all break since the other rachel has been well enough to show up). of course, she's the kind of person who I think will be okay with wherever she rows, but I just want to justify her four years of work with the A boat, because she damn well deserves it. She is so efficient on the water. She also has about 1,000 times more slide control than Sara. i can't STAND rowing behind sara. she only has one recovery speed, and it's like a 32. she rows like a boy: that is to say, she pauses at the finish and at arms away, then to make up for it she rushes. Adam says we look like we're swinging together, to which I'm like...... BUU-UH! I'm always late at the catch because I'm trying to follow Sarah, three seats ahead, and in so doing compensate for Sara's rush. If I were to match with Sara, we'd never hold a rate with ANY ratio. please, ellen, put me back in 3. please.
no wheezing, though -- an improvement on the past few days
also, probably the reason it was 8:06. i was, and i think rightfully so, way nervous i'd kill my lungs, so those three and a half strokes after the 8min were catching up to the ones I held back on for fear of hyperventilation. still, being so close is killing me.
rachel didn't test today since she hasn't really eaten anything but 3 or 4 bagels in a week. nasty GI virus she has. when she tests next week, I'm gonna go with her and break 8 for no one but ME.
weight limit at new england fours AND dad vails is 130.
we have three girls ready, but no one else close.
so, we are not racing a women's lightweight four.
this team depends on each other -- any rowing team does. the girls i have counted on for the past year and a half while i dreamed about this goal.... and two others are there with me, but any potential fourth is not.
this is why i stuck with this team every year. because i knew we all DEPEND on each other more than any other iteration of teamwork I can conceive of, and I thrive on that. i do not, will not, can not blame any girl whose weight is just above 135, but at the same time, i've been working SO HARD for this for SO LONG and all of a sudden, any number of potential girls on the team have fallen through on me. I understand that weight is a variable added on top of the commitment to the team, and one that no one there should be expected to make good on unprepared. I'm not accusing anyone of un-dependability, but some part of me still feels like an indeterminate someone has let me down.
we MAY be entering a women's pair at dad vails. ellen said to consider myself a "strong contender." that would be fun. me and sarah! senior girls ahoy. i guess that's my new goal...
speaking of, it kills me that Rachael isn't in the "tentative" A boat lineup (that is, the one we've been rowing all break since the other rachel has been well enough to show up). of course, she's the kind of person who I think will be okay with wherever she rows, but I just want to justify her four years of work with the A boat, because she damn well deserves it. She is so efficient on the water. She also has about 1,000 times more slide control than Sara. i can't STAND rowing behind sara. she only has one recovery speed, and it's like a 32. she rows like a boy: that is to say, she pauses at the finish and at arms away, then to make up for it she rushes. Adam says we look like we're swinging together, to which I'm like...... BUU-UH! I'm always late at the catch because I'm trying to follow Sarah, three seats ahead, and in so doing compensate for Sara's rush. If I were to match with Sara, we'd never hold a rate with ANY ratio. please, ellen, put me back in 3. please.