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So... I am hanging in there, but things are really rough. I really still don't want to face the thought of matt being gone and things going back to status quo in my life. It makes me so sad. We went to drink at tavern one final time last night and ended up both crying a lot and he held my hand while we cried together - it was really sweet, but so bitter and sad at the same time. He kept telling me that everything would be fine, and that as long as I show people what I have shown him in this short period of time, I will never really be alone. He swears that we'll stay in touch, but I've heard that line so many times before. Life just has a way of sweeping people up into its current and moving them along.
I have not connected in this way with anyone in a really long time (if ever). He is so emotionally open and so willing to communicate. I feel pretty devastated - which makes me feel somewhat ridiculous at the same time. Either way, I'm not looking forward to dropping him off at FLL tomorrow.
We are both headed out to work for one last time now. I don't know what else to say.
I have not connected in this way with anyone in a really long time (if ever). He is so emotionally open and so willing to communicate. I feel pretty devastated - which makes me feel somewhat ridiculous at the same time. Either way, I'm not looking forward to dropping him off at FLL tomorrow.
We are both headed out to work for one last time now. I don't know what else to say.