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seems like all i do lately is work, hang out, play cards, eat, drink and sleep. i know we all write this kind of entry now and then... when our lives seem unproductive and we're unmotivated. i just don't feel like i'm doing anything really worthwhile right now. and i know i need to go back to school (law, grad, etc), but the idea is so frightening that it makes my hair hurt and my teeth itch.
i just don't know.
but i really, really enjoyed spending time with friends these past few nights. saturday and early sunday were filled with marisa-ness. she's consistently wonderful and even though i jokingly tell her 'i hate her,' the truth is simply that i love her and our friendship a whole hell of a lot. el bones de smokey, a pecan-buttered cornbread skillet, a um game (spank), some honest conversations, a few avocado eggrolls and some cheesecake, dunkin' donuts and coffee drinks, and housekeyshookedtocarkeysstillatthemechanicshop... i don't know that i could enjoy such a wicked variety of things with very many people in such a short period of time. marisa rocks. the end.
kiki and i went out to corbett's last night and had multiple drinks, played darts, put money into the high-tech jukebox, met new people. she's so fun to be with and i am so incredibly comfortable just being myself around her.
then i joined laura tonight for the crazy 'corpse bride' movie. slept through part of it, didn't understand some of it, found it mostly weird and not-all-that-great. but i was definitely happy to see laura and to get the chance to chat with her afterwards. when she left to shower/go see jarrod, i decided to call briana and tanya. tanya told me to come over to 34T, as they were 'playing with plastic army men.' only tanya...
but i had the most incredible time talking with her for more than two hours (the first bit of which was spent laughing at crazy websites). hearing about her unbelievable kilamanjaro climb really was inspiring and uplifting. she's such a strong person, and the stories only prove all the things i've always seen in her to be true. from the climb, we somehow transitioned into alternative breaks talk, into band stuff, into issues surrounding my college/involvement regrets, plus how to make life more meaningful, friendships, sai, money, dr. deroian, ebenezer and her 5'3" love. i remember now why i wanted to live with her once, then twice. i remember now why our 'fights' have never lasted very long and why i love her so much. i also realized how much i've missed her. so few people are so passionate, so wildly honest, so intelligent and communicative (and goofy and entertaining). even fewer are those that can comfortably blur conversation between one topic and the next without awkwardness or silence. when we get started, it just doesn't seem to have boundaries or an end...
i miss the few good people at um. i miss late nights like tonight, just spent talking with different people, laughing at crazy things on the internet (may strongbad r.i.p. until i have a better internet connection). i can't figure out why all i want to do is be with friends lately, but the past few days just add piping fuel to the need-to-hang-out fire. now that i'm temporarily done with school and life is just a monotonous work rhythm, all i care about is love, friendship, connection, self-improvement, listening, seeing, learning. but while i'm working on all those things, i'm not cleaning my room or trying to get my computer fixed or working on my monetary goals/issues. nights like these only encourage more nights like these... sitting around, talking, listening, absorbing, but not really accomplishing anything tangible.
though what's important in life can't always be about money or your credit or catching up on projects. after 17 years of school and the near non-stop, i just need something deeper. i think it's worth it, worth falling behind on other things. if only my mom and family agreed. and if only there were happier mediums, less extremes.
i just don't know.
but i really, really enjoyed spending time with friends these past few nights. saturday and early sunday were filled with marisa-ness. she's consistently wonderful and even though i jokingly tell her 'i hate her,' the truth is simply that i love her and our friendship a whole hell of a lot. el bones de smokey, a pecan-buttered cornbread skillet, a um game (spank), some honest conversations, a few avocado eggrolls and some cheesecake, dunkin' donuts and coffee drinks, and housekeyshookedtocarkeysstillatthemechanicshop... i don't know that i could enjoy such a wicked variety of things with very many people in such a short period of time. marisa rocks. the end.
kiki and i went out to corbett's last night and had multiple drinks, played darts, put money into the high-tech jukebox, met new people. she's so fun to be with and i am so incredibly comfortable just being myself around her.
then i joined laura tonight for the crazy 'corpse bride' movie. slept through part of it, didn't understand some of it, found it mostly weird and not-all-that-great. but i was definitely happy to see laura and to get the chance to chat with her afterwards. when she left to shower/go see jarrod, i decided to call briana and tanya. tanya told me to come over to 34T, as they were 'playing with plastic army men.' only tanya...
but i had the most incredible time talking with her for more than two hours (the first bit of which was spent laughing at crazy websites). hearing about her unbelievable kilamanjaro climb really was inspiring and uplifting. she's such a strong person, and the stories only prove all the things i've always seen in her to be true. from the climb, we somehow transitioned into alternative breaks talk, into band stuff, into issues surrounding my college/involvement regrets, plus how to make life more meaningful, friendships, sai, money, dr. deroian, ebenezer and her 5'3" love. i remember now why i wanted to live with her once, then twice. i remember now why our 'fights' have never lasted very long and why i love her so much. i also realized how much i've missed her. so few people are so passionate, so wildly honest, so intelligent and communicative (and goofy and entertaining). even fewer are those that can comfortably blur conversation between one topic and the next without awkwardness or silence. when we get started, it just doesn't seem to have boundaries or an end...
i miss the few good people at um. i miss late nights like tonight, just spent talking with different people, laughing at crazy things on the internet (may strongbad r.i.p. until i have a better internet connection). i can't figure out why all i want to do is be with friends lately, but the past few days just add piping fuel to the need-to-hang-out fire. now that i'm temporarily done with school and life is just a monotonous work rhythm, all i care about is love, friendship, connection, self-improvement, listening, seeing, learning. but while i'm working on all those things, i'm not cleaning my room or trying to get my computer fixed or working on my monetary goals/issues. nights like these only encourage more nights like these... sitting around, talking, listening, absorbing, but not really accomplishing anything tangible.
though what's important in life can't always be about money or your credit or catching up on projects. after 17 years of school and the near non-stop, i just need something deeper. i think it's worth it, worth falling behind on other things. if only my mom and family agreed. and if only there were happier mediums, less extremes.