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A person is next to me in cybertheque and I realize I have no idea when they sat down. Huh.
I was studying with nic bl- both at the lib. I feel a little bad about how lightly I can treat other's feelings. I realize that his persistence and venture from his awkward franco shell was on account of his attempts to get a date, and make it clear that he liked me, and I heavily disregarded his feelings given the situation of the past month. I know the crush began last year (oh shit, last year at dartmouth. I have this feeling that it is continually fall, and I jump back to last year as only a summer previously). He always asks me to dinner, and I thought my 'noes' were sufficient, even though we periodically chat online and all that. I guess it's flirting though I've stopped doing any of it since brando and I became official. He asked me again tonight, and I lied saying that I have plans with brando (not true, but it was the case before, like at his birthday, and he didn't pick up on it), and he finally asked if he was my boyfriend. glad to clear that up, honestly.
Sometimes I'm amazed at how little I like allison at times. I just don't WANT to be around her. I know that I'm over tired- this weekend at Dartmouth killed me. I thought I could survive in the B pack, but I guess it was a bit rough this time, being easterns and all. It's really not fair that I'm in exams and ahven't ridden since Yale, whereas everyone else has coaches and training schedules. whine whine whine.
k. paper was due today. is already late. probably will be decent, certainly will be done in time.
Then I have my bitchin final tomorrow. I'm terrified for it- its all a jumble to me right now.
The guy next to me is twitching like he's on something. seriously dude.
I was studying with nic bl- both at the lib. I feel a little bad about how lightly I can treat other's feelings. I realize that his persistence and venture from his awkward franco shell was on account of his attempts to get a date, and make it clear that he liked me, and I heavily disregarded his feelings given the situation of the past month. I know the crush began last year (oh shit, last year at dartmouth. I have this feeling that it is continually fall, and I jump back to last year as only a summer previously). He always asks me to dinner, and I thought my 'noes' were sufficient, even though we periodically chat online and all that. I guess it's flirting though I've stopped doing any of it since brando and I became official. He asked me again tonight, and I lied saying that I have plans with brando (not true, but it was the case before, like at his birthday, and he didn't pick up on it), and he finally asked if he was my boyfriend. glad to clear that up, honestly.
Sometimes I'm amazed at how little I like allison at times. I just don't WANT to be around her. I know that I'm over tired- this weekend at Dartmouth killed me. I thought I could survive in the B pack, but I guess it was a bit rough this time, being easterns and all. It's really not fair that I'm in exams and ahven't ridden since Yale, whereas everyone else has coaches and training schedules. whine whine whine.
k. paper was due today. is already late. probably will be decent, certainly will be done in time.
Then I have my bitchin final tomorrow. I'm terrified for it- its all a jumble to me right now.
The guy next to me is twitching like he's on something. seriously dude.