Almost Upset
The only kind of friend more upsetting than one who blatantly doesn't care, is one who deceptively doesn't care.
It is an awful feeling to find that somebody who I'd always thought a wonderful, caring friend, who I could talk to about anything without being judged, who would listen to me even if he didn't understand or agree, is essentially indifferent, or at least acts indifferent enough to make sadness deeper and more painful.
I'm really not much trouble to deal with, as a friend. I have my difficult times, but I normally keep to myself throughout them, and don't let them have any extensive interference in my life. So once in awhile, if I have a particularly upsetting problem, one that's really been bothering me and I've FINALLY come to admit, that I've FINALLY found a way to express... Well, I hate to say that I expect a friend to listen to me, because I don't want to impose my moods on anybody else... but some things are so upsetting that I'd think it nice to at least acknowledge them. There are things that I'm ashamed of, that are embarrassing and personal to talk about; you should be flattered that I'd go to you with them. You should take that as the ultimate trust. I had harm done to me and I wanted to talk about it; You were cold. You've been cold. You're just the way you were before we became close; You're just the way you scolded yourself for being, way back when.
You've hurt me. It's almost, almost sad, but not quite worth the energy of being truly sad.
It is an awful feeling to find that somebody who I'd always thought a wonderful, caring friend, who I could talk to about anything without being judged, who would listen to me even if he didn't understand or agree, is essentially indifferent, or at least acts indifferent enough to make sadness deeper and more painful.
I'm really not much trouble to deal with, as a friend. I have my difficult times, but I normally keep to myself throughout them, and don't let them have any extensive interference in my life. So once in awhile, if I have a particularly upsetting problem, one that's really been bothering me and I've FINALLY come to admit, that I've FINALLY found a way to express... Well, I hate to say that I expect a friend to listen to me, because I don't want to impose my moods on anybody else... but some things are so upsetting that I'd think it nice to at least acknowledge them. There are things that I'm ashamed of, that are embarrassing and personal to talk about; you should be flattered that I'd go to you with them. You should take that as the ultimate trust. I had harm done to me and I wanted to talk about it; You were cold. You've been cold. You're just the way you were before we became close; You're just the way you scolded yourself for being, way back when.
You've hurt me. It's almost, almost sad, but not quite worth the energy of being truly sad.