rant that no one honestly wants to read. Also, spoilers.
MotherFUCKING Supernatural, I mean, HONESTLY, brothers is NOT SOMETHING YOU FUCK WITH. Brothers is sacred, family is your fucking family, and yes, you butt heads, and yes, sometimes the younger brother is wrong, wrong, wrong, but even if you're drinking demon blood (Sam, you idiot, why would you start? Depression is no excuse for substance abuse, and that's precisely what you did). And, yes, I may over-identify with this show because of my tightly-knit family, and there may have been some throwing of things after tonight's heinous excuse for logic while under the influence (may have been, I am not copping to a goddamn thing), but that stupid motherfucker Sam just broke his goddamn brother's heart. After trying to break his head. And that, my friend, is so, so very typical of television shows. They know the one thing that keeps the viewer's coming back is the main relationship of the show? Put one of those members of that relationship through hell (literally, in this case), and then put the relationship through hell as well. Break their hearts, break their backs, break the viewers' minds with the "if you walk out that door" speech, and then have them love each other through hating each other, and hating what the other's doing. We've lived through it in just about every drama show, but I was so, so hoping that this one would stay mildly combative, as siblings do. Even majorly combative sometimes, just not break-up combative.
That monster comment was just stupid, and Dean knew it. But Sammy, man, he just lost it, lost it but good. I wish to high heaven Dean had managed to kill Ruby, even though two episodes ago I was happy for the semi-truce they had going. This is not a good path, this is not a good move, and he's going to end up paying big. He's going to spend the rest of his life (if he has one after this) thinking he's a monster. Which, a) not true - addiction does terrible things to good people. It even does terrible things to terrible people. And b) what, Sam doesn't have a big enough guilt complex for the writers? He's such a martyr sometimes, he puts freaking Mother Teresa to shame, and that woman refused to use heat when she had access to it. She and her converts took turns sleeping on TABLES because they didn't want to be more comfortable than the people they served. And Sam, well, he wants to make himself into the very thing he's hunting, because he feels guilty for Jess, guilty for his mom, for his dad, for not being able to bring Dean back from hell himself, and most of all, he feels guilty for living. Tell me he doesn't feel guilty enough, go ahead. And then tell me NOT to kick your ass. Verbally. Probably.
So now, Dean, my favorite, Dean's just lost the only thing he's got left in this world. Yes, he has Bobby, but. Bobby's not his little brother. Nothing and no one can take the place of a little brother. Sam's got his demon blood, his righteous indignation, his lead-demon (who he thinks is a nice, tame, pet-demon) who keeps feeding him addictive substances and ego-strokings, telling him it's Dean's fault Sam's like this, that Dean doesn't understand, that Dean's too weak to save the world. Dean's only got the stupid, backstabbing angels. I thought Cas had a change of heart, that he understood Anna's position. Then again, understanding isn't agreement. And even if he agrees, people can hold two differing - even combative - ideologies at once. Complex emotional beings, or w/e. And since Cas is now feeling emotion... Yeah. Okay. I have to go call my little brother and reassure myself he'll never do heroin. Even if it's to save the world.
That monster comment was just stupid, and Dean knew it. But Sammy, man, he just lost it, lost it but good. I wish to high heaven Dean had managed to kill Ruby, even though two episodes ago I was happy for the semi-truce they had going. This is not a good path, this is not a good move, and he's going to end up paying big. He's going to spend the rest of his life (if he has one after this) thinking he's a monster. Which, a) not true - addiction does terrible things to good people. It even does terrible things to terrible people. And b) what, Sam doesn't have a big enough guilt complex for the writers? He's such a martyr sometimes, he puts freaking Mother Teresa to shame, and that woman refused to use heat when she had access to it. She and her converts took turns sleeping on TABLES because they didn't want to be more comfortable than the people they served. And Sam, well, he wants to make himself into the very thing he's hunting, because he feels guilty for Jess, guilty for his mom, for his dad, for not being able to bring Dean back from hell himself, and most of all, he feels guilty for living. Tell me he doesn't feel guilty enough, go ahead. And then tell me NOT to kick your ass. Verbally. Probably.
So now, Dean, my favorite, Dean's just lost the only thing he's got left in this world. Yes, he has Bobby, but. Bobby's not his little brother. Nothing and no one can take the place of a little brother. Sam's got his demon blood, his righteous indignation, his lead-demon (who he thinks is a nice, tame, pet-demon) who keeps feeding him addictive substances and ego-strokings, telling him it's Dean's fault Sam's like this, that Dean doesn't understand, that Dean's too weak to save the world. Dean's only got the stupid, backstabbing angels. I thought Cas had a change of heart, that he understood Anna's position. Then again, understanding isn't agreement. And even if he agrees, people can hold two differing - even combative - ideologies at once. Complex emotional beings, or w/e. And since Cas is now feeling emotion... Yeah. Okay. I have to go call my little brother and reassure myself he'll never do heroin. Even if it's to save the world.