you're all i'll never be

[foriamtheway]

i find chaos and anarchy somewhat comforting; because, i suppose it's all i have ever really been used to. i think darkness and in retrospect, light; are chaotic in themselves and perhaps me sinking further into either of those causes a possible eruption. dignity is something that doesnt linger much around me, when i find myself crawling in darkness for saviour, for light. and quite the same, when i am indeed in the light.

and oh, more chaos; somehow i am left to untangle this mess.