eureka!
I love it when I'm sitting in class, trying hard to pay attention and attempting to prevent selective ADD from appearing, and the professor says something that totally makes a lot of things CLICK in my head. I mean, I learn a lot of stuff in my classes, but it's not very often that I hear something that totally opens my eyes or throws me for a loop. And what I learned today could be completely miniscule to most people, and probably was to everyone else in class, but for me it was like one of those bright-light-shining-from-Heaven moments (you know, when the angels sing "Ahhhh"). Okay, so it took place in my Child Welfare class and this is what it was: When someone is abused throughout child, the part of the brain that controls empathy (which is having true care and concern for another individual, being able to "put yourselve in their shoes") is not able to fully develop because it is hindered by the abuse; therefore, they in turn abuse future children/spouses/whoever NOT ONLY because it tends to be hereditary but also because the part of the brain that enables them to actually care for someone has not developed and probably never will to its fullest extent. That totally floored me. I have no idea why. Oh, and also, the reason that alcohol is almost always related to abuse is because alcohol has a profound impact on the empathic part of your brain (whether you've been abused or not), meaning that those who were abused and are now consuming alcohol lack empathy even more when under the influence, making abuse even more likely. I don't know if that last part makes sense, but it makes sense in my own head and while I'm typing. Anyway, I don't care if no one gets it because I don't know who reads this anymore, but it's stuff like this that makes me want to go to school. Sometimes I just love learning.
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haha. goodnight.