yeah...
I gave up and then everything fell into place. I am starting to catch a glimpse of who I really am and who I desire to be. I've made new friends and kept old ones. I met a man who has desires and convictions that mirror mine and my parents adore him. I work a good deal but I love both jobs. American Eagle gives me a chance to test myself out in a leadership role and guiding the river gives me a chance to stay in shape and play at the same time. Am I still tired and stressed? Of course. But it's never felt so good. Life these days seems to fit like a glove that is worn in and has a few holes in it...much like the gloves my father often use. It fits snug and it protects me but still allows me to feel the rough and soft spots here and there. It does not desensitize. It's strengthens. It's comfortable. It's more than I could ask for.