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[forget_me16]

last night lasted forever but went by so fast. i really am in love with that crazy boy. he knows me more than anyone else, he knows my soul. although he would beat anyone up for me (and is planning on doin so when he comes home) i'm happy to feel protected. i can't wait to see him. it's been so long and it's going to be so sweet. i contstantly

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i cant take it.

[anonymous]

You know...... i dont believe the way ppl can act sometimes. ESPECIELLY when they are SUPPOSED to be your "best friends". lately i have felt so rejected by you and liz. but it's not like you guys would ACTUALLY care or nething. I know why you guys dont want to be around me nemore. i know it's bc im pregnant and im different now. well, you guys were supposed to "be there for me" and "help" me through this. all you've done is make it worse. all i ever here about from liz is what you 2 have been doing lately. so i completely shut myself off from both of you bc i obviously wasnt included. im so depressed lately you have no idea. i cry bc of both of you all the time. im crying right now. i cant take it, but if this is the way you guys want it-- just the 2 of you, then fine. ill get over it eventually. im not looking forward to my wedding or baby shower bc i wanted you guys to be there w/ me, helping me get ready.... but i guess you wont be. you obviously want nothing to do w/ me. ive tried talking to liz about this, but she didnt get what i was saying, so this is the only way i know how to reach you guys. i know you are prolly mad at me now, but it is the way i feel. the day you and liz came into vanity together from her break i wanted to just cry..... and i did, after you left i went to the bathroom to just cry. right now my bestfriend is my mom and all i have is to look forward to having my baby. it is the only reason i have to live! and im excited to see my child! i have no friends to help me through this except ryan. you guys prolly feel like i ditched you for him..... well, thats not true. i have tried so many times to hang out w/ liz, but she would always ditch us, usually for jeremy or john. and that is when all this started. and then, all of a sudden i hear liz thinks ryan is an asshole? well, i put up w/ jeremy for a long time. and you know what i though about him. but i can see that you are happy now. you prolly never think about me. but im sooo happy for you and ben. i really am. so, i guess this is my last goodbye. i am getting a new job soon, and will barely ever work at vanity bc i cant take it nemore. so, congats on you and ben. im sure you'll live happily ever after.
i love you guys,
sar

Re: i cant take it.

[forget_me16]

sar, when i read your comment, I wanted to cry. I miss you so much. It's not that we don't like you, or don't care. it's just we were getting the vibe that you didn't want to hang out anymore. you have a lot on your plate and we figured you didn't have time to hang out with us, and that you have more important issues. i've texted you before and you never responded, you never call, and when i went into vanity you barely said 2 words. it's not that i don't want to be friends with you it's just i figured you didn't want me to bother you or something. and i don't know anything about liz thinking ryan's an asswhole. but i definitly don't. i am happy for you,ry, and your beautiful baby. i love you, and i'm always here for you. but life's been crazy for both of us. don't think i don't care about you and don't think i don't care that we don't talk. i don't want our friendship to end. and i want to be there at your wedding, and when your baby comes, and i want to throw you a baby shower.... and a bachelorette party ( STRIPPERSSS!!.. haha) I want to be there with you everystep of the way. i want to be involved in your life. but we both need to make a stronger effort. i love you so much. and now i'm crying because i feel like a horrible person. just because we're "busy" doesn't mean that's an excuse for us not to see each other, or atleast talk. but whatever happens i do want you to know that i am here for you, always, and i want to stay your best friend. i never intended on hurting you, i just felt like you didn't want us in your life. i am always here for you no matter what, so don't think you lost a friend. call me, we will go out for lunch or something, but we will atleast talk. i miss you.

love,
ash

Re: i cant take it.

[anonymous]

thanx, that meant alot to me. i missed you soooo much too. well, i dont work any day this week except 5-930 on sat. i just clean my house every day!!!!!! it is sooo boring!!!! lol. well, im glad we are all good again!

i love you sooo much!

Sarah

Re: i cant take it.

[anonymous]

Hey Sarah... remember that you and Ryan always got me if you need something. Can't wait for the little Harris!!!
Much XOXO
-Eduardo-