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[foreveryoureyes]

I think this might be the end of me. Last time i felt like this.. i lost vision. Shit falls apart quicker than it is built. Every time i try, i try harder than the last, I make it further than the last. But it still falls apart. It crumbles to the ground. I think i have a problem with relationships. I attach to people because i see myself,

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[thebones]

Eliot man, reading this, i see that we have alot in common. I have said, thought many of these same thoughts. And a few, I still think. But yeah, man, sometimes just writing shit down can make you feel better.

(But, honestly, being selfless could be the key to what seems to be troubling you. The one thing you think you're doing right always seems to be the cause of your woes. Just something to think about, I guess.)

Anyways man, we haven't spoken in... a long time, but I always have time for an old friend. If you ever need someone to lend an ear.. you know where to look.

[foreveryoureyes]

thanks man, that really truly means alot

[shotgunpulse]

Eliot, i've gone through similar feelings within the past 2 months. A band that i was real confident in doing well, just broke up. And i felt like everything i've ever done crumbled to pieces because of me. But honestly, you just gotta give shit time. Spend it with the people who mean the most. Hell, come spend time up in dover or something. Or i'm always in yorktown now, so gimme a call and we can chill. I really hope things get better for you dude. I know it can be hard to look on the bright side of things, but we both know its the only way you'll find a way to make it better. My cell number is 8455462313 if you wanna chill or anything. You're a good dude and i hope things get better for you.

[foreveryoureyes]

thanks bro, that means a lot.. ill give ya a ring soon

Actually...

[anonymous]

...you never did anything for anybody. All you tried to do was amass friends like they were stickers for your bass drum. "Hey, check out these friends that I have!" You lived life like it was Myspace: meet people, and then somehow turn them into "friends" by some trick of repetition and association. And then, when your impossible fakeness gets thrown right back into your face, it's suddenly other people fucking YOU over? No. You just suck. You aren't a good friend, because you've done nothing worthy of friendship. At best, you're a fair-weather annoyance; at worst, you're a parasite, leeching off other peoples' energy, effort, and patience. The solution: buy some rope and a wobbly chair.

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[bl0ndebombshell]

I don't know whose journal you think this is, because there's no way that comment could have been directed torwards Eliot.

I've said it before, and I'll say it again, posting anonymously on someones livejournal is probably one of the most spineless, pathetic things you can use the internet for.

Do you really have NOTHING BETTER to do than to read a journal, of someone you obviously don't like, and spend however long responding in such a negative way? You do realize how that reflects on your life, right? Why take the time to read his journal is the first place? Why not get off your ass and do something to contribute to society? STEP AWAY FROM THE COMPUTER. Fucking moron.

Own up. Show your face. Give your name. Don't be such a fucking pussy.

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[dickdecent]

Well, I thought I was still logged into my Livejournal account when I posted it, but I guess cookies are still acting funny ever since the Firefox crossover.

First, since you want me to not be "such a fucking pussy":

Andrew Mochulsky
2038 Midland Drive
Yorktown Heights, NY 10598
Home: (914) 962-3274
Cell: (914) 882-9319

As for having nothing better to do, isn't that a bit of an ironic sentiment? One person that comments on things another says, in your scenario, doesn't have anything better to do, is a moron, etc. The person that comments on the commentary, however, is immune to such judgement. Am I reading this right? It doesn't cut the logical mustard, so there must be another reason why you put it in there. Is it because you're a hypersensitive cunt? Do you like to feel some sense of outrage so you can hop on a soapbox in a moment's notice? I'm just tossing out hypotheses here.

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[bl0ndebombshell]

Yes. I am a hypersensitive cunt.

It has nothing to do with the fact that you are antagonizing one of my best friends in his personal journal.

I read Eliots journal, as well as all my other friends journals, regularly. You have a livejournal, thus you are familiar with that practice, I assume.

When one of my best friends is quite obviously having a hard time, I'm going to do everything in my power to help him. Including defend him against people like you.

I am not immune to any kind of judgement, judge away. But if you'll notice, I didn't go in to an enemies journal, and purposely prey on their emotional distress. I merely came to a friends aid. I'm not preaching about anything, so I can hardly see how I'm hopping on a soapbox.

And for the record, I will punch you square in the fucking jaw if I ever come across you. And I really hope you have the balls to hit me back.

On the plus side, at least you can string together a coherent sentence, and can step up when you're called out.

bullet to the head...sure

[thrsdy05]

eliot... we've had our...problems...so turst me when i say this...

i think your an amazing kid... i completley respect your honesty and flat out respect this post... just from seeing you with evan... i can see what a loving caring kid you are and you'll do anything for your friends... and thats an amzing quality that not enough people have...

as far as everyone else(like the dick below)... fuck them...just keep those you love... forget people that have hurt you betrayed you or lied to you... there not worth it...

your an amazing musician... and it takes a lot of trying to find something that fits right...but i think it'll work out for you because you have so much talent...

either ways... your a great kid...

if you want to vent... i'm moved back up here... so just drop me a line (914)-384-2551

[mynock25]

Don't give up. You are a good kid, with a good head on your shoulders, and musical talent that most people dream about. Just because you haven't found the right band yet doesn't mean they aren't out there. You have a dream, and just because you haven't found the path to achieve it yet doesn't mean you should give up. I'm proud of you. I'm hours away from being 23 years old, and I have no idea what I want to do with my life. You know what you want, and that's half the battle.

I've been stabbed in the back by people too. And yes, it hurts. But then you find new people, and the wounds heal. It just takes some time. Life isn't easy, which is good. If everything were easy we'd all get really bored really quickly. the challenges make life exciting. And they make you stronger.

You've gotten through this before, and you can get through it again. I have faith in you.