Blargh
Doing things that you know are for the better, rarely feel good at the time.
I know to most it wouldnt mean very much, but to me, online friends, close ones, are still friends all the same. I decided to put someone I considered a friend, or at least a friendly acquaintance, on block. I just didnt like it was all. Not the first time i've had to put someone I considered a friendly face on block, simply because I didnt have the energy or stamina to put up with them. I dont have a great deal going for me, and its easy to wreck my mood and send me into a depressed spiral for more than one night. Yeah, over-fragile as I am, I just didnt like doing it. When you can see someone is a good person, but you really just cant get through to them. Dont get me wrong, im not emotional about this at all, but it plays on my mind somewhat. Just dont like doing stuff like that, is all. Has to be the first thing in a long while that i've done, where I dont have some unforseen emotional blowback as a result. So, this is how people deal with the stupid stuff... just not letting it touch them at all. Bah. Doesnt feel right, but I guess its all you can really do, given that stuff doesnt always turn out the way it should.
Nobody is perfect, but sometimes the way people behave really irks me. Shouldnt have needed to block 'em, but I did. And that really twists my tits. Well, got bigger things playing on my mind as per usual, and I dont need extra things dragging me down. Better shuffle up so my bro can snatch the comp (8am) and I can get a few hours sleep before I get up again. Knowing me, that means more than just a few hours sleep. xD
...there has to be a reason why everything keeps resetting to this, no matter what I try. I might for the sake of it, plan ahead, but have a week where I dont actually try to sleep as im supposed to. See what happens. I know i'll go through a few days where I actually sleep at daylight and wake at midnight. Perhaps though, i'll see what I feel like.
I know to most it wouldnt mean very much, but to me, online friends, close ones, are still friends all the same. I decided to put someone I considered a friend, or at least a friendly acquaintance, on block. I just didnt like it was all. Not the first time i've had to put someone I considered a friendly face on block, simply because I didnt have the energy or stamina to put up with them. I dont have a great deal going for me, and its easy to wreck my mood and send me into a depressed spiral for more than one night. Yeah, over-fragile as I am, I just didnt like doing it. When you can see someone is a good person, but you really just cant get through to them. Dont get me wrong, im not emotional about this at all, but it plays on my mind somewhat. Just dont like doing stuff like that, is all. Has to be the first thing in a long while that i've done, where I dont have some unforseen emotional blowback as a result. So, this is how people deal with the stupid stuff... just not letting it touch them at all. Bah. Doesnt feel right, but I guess its all you can really do, given that stuff doesnt always turn out the way it should.
Nobody is perfect, but sometimes the way people behave really irks me. Shouldnt have needed to block 'em, but I did. And that really twists my tits. Well, got bigger things playing on my mind as per usual, and I dont need extra things dragging me down. Better shuffle up so my bro can snatch the comp (8am) and I can get a few hours sleep before I get up again. Knowing me, that means more than just a few hours sleep. xD
...there has to be a reason why everything keeps resetting to this, no matter what I try. I might for the sake of it, plan ahead, but have a week where I dont actually try to sleep as im supposed to. See what happens. I know i'll go through a few days where I actually sleep at daylight and wake at midnight. Perhaps though, i'll see what I feel like.