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sooo disappointed in the 'kindness' of a father - happy to see his child dating a man...
although he's doing me a great favour, it's rooted out of a want for a hetero daughter and not a gender-confused, but cis-woman who is queer and femme-butch. a want for a woman who is not sassy and provocative, but careful and sympathetic and gentle - in need of a man to keep her straight (literally).
as much as i hatehatehate that he automatically changes his approach to communicating with me in creating loving responses that really say, "i only know you when you date men", - because he doesn't know how to love me as a queer - i lap it up thirstily.
i'm in need of recognition as a queer who is concealed as a (not self-identified) femme in a town that puts butch on a pedestal with a gold medal in hotness and as someone who dates cis-men and is into practicing forms of monogamy.
although he's doing me a great favour, it's rooted out of a want for a hetero daughter and not a gender-confused, but cis-woman who is queer and femme-butch. a want for a woman who is not sassy and provocative, but careful and sympathetic and gentle - in need of a man to keep her straight (literally).
as much as i hatehatehate that he automatically changes his approach to communicating with me in creating loving responses that really say, "i only know you when you date men", - because he doesn't know how to love me as a queer - i lap it up thirstily.
i'm in need of recognition as a queer who is concealed as a (not self-identified) femme in a town that puts butch on a pedestal with a gold medal in hotness and as someone who dates cis-men and is into practicing forms of monogamy.