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[foreverlsu]

Ive been thinking..thinking way too much, so much that it bothers me and hurts me. I havent updated this thing in a while, so I decided, if I cant vent to "so called" friends, Ill vent to all who have nothing better to do but read. I have not been myself latley, because I have discovered that those I thought were friends are nothing but fakes, everything they tell me is a lie, everyone I am around is a lie. Everything I do is for nothing. I have gone from what I thought was a productive, fun, loving person, to just another face in the crowd. I hate nothing more in life than people who use others because their too lazy to do things themselves. Latley, it seems like the only time anyone wants to talk to me or even make conversation or even acknowledge me is when they want something. I cant remember the last time someone whom I thought was close to me even said hello. It sucks. All you who say your my friend..are you really? Ive vented about this before, but I am sick and tired of it. Dont come back at me with some bullshit about oohh, Im here for you, yada yada yada, but when I need you the most, oh wait..I cant help you, or maybe I just wont answer the phone, or when I see you, you dont acknowledge me, yet when you need something, I am the first person you come cry to! Why is that? Go take a look around, look at your friends, who do you know and how? and get back to me. If I had a friend call me at 4 in the morning looking for help, you bet your ass Ill be the first person there to help them out.If you only knew the shit I go through every day, and if you only knew though how much people seem to not care and realize what they do, I still love them. Think about that one for a while. You ask whats wrong? THINK ABOUT IT. YOU.Im not the person everyone thinks I am, I dont live a perfect life, I dont have a thousand friends, and Im not rich like many of you like to believe. Everything I ve learned, I have learned through life and friends, and damn I sure learned something this semester, and its to take a good look around and see who is it you can truly trust now a days, and who truly has the title of friend? To all I know I can trust, thank you, and to you all who fit the category listed above, somehow, I dont know how, but I still love you. No matter who you are, I am a friend to all and I want you to remember that.
"If I leave here tommorrow, will you still remember me?"
-Lynard Skynard
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