Quicksand of Shadows
Dear friend,
I'm able to blog because my father granted me with some computer time. = ] These past few days have given me a lot of thinking time. And sleeping time. Time to set myself straight and beat myself senseless. I have some emotional bruises from these days, but nothing terrible. I think I know where my summer will be going. After camp and the London trip with drama, I think I'll be taking a "rest" as they put it in "Girl, Interrupted". This wasn't influenced by my parents. Hell, I haven't even mentioned it to them yet. For those of you nt familiar with the movie, it means I'm considering having myself commited. Spend some time in Tucker's Pavillion. I think I have a personality disorder. I have all the classic symptoms. I lie. I'm in denial of my problem, or was, rather. And the biggest part of it, I enjoy self destructive acts. Not just enjoy, long for. I crave anything that could potentially harm me. Don't try and talk me out of it by saying I'm not crazy. I need help and I'm not afraid to admit that.
Love,
Amanda
I'm able to blog because my father granted me with some computer time. = ] These past few days have given me a lot of thinking time. And sleeping time. Time to set myself straight and beat myself senseless. I have some emotional bruises from these days, but nothing terrible. I think I know where my summer will be going. After camp and the London trip with drama, I think I'll be taking a "rest" as they put it in "Girl, Interrupted". This wasn't influenced by my parents. Hell, I haven't even mentioned it to them yet. For those of you nt familiar with the movie, it means I'm considering having myself commited. Spend some time in Tucker's Pavillion. I think I have a personality disorder. I have all the classic symptoms. I lie. I'm in denial of my problem, or was, rather. And the biggest part of it, I enjoy self destructive acts. Not just enjoy, long for. I crave anything that could potentially harm me. Don't try and talk me out of it by saying I'm not crazy. I need help and I'm not afraid to admit that.
Love,
Amanda