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Dear friend,
I'm sick and tired of being the scapegoat. I'm sick of never being more than second best. I'm sick of making the same stupid mistakes. I'm sick of screwing up my life. I'm sick of ruining things just as life becomes bright. I'm sick of all the constant reminders of the dark parts from my past. Most of all, I'm sick of pushing everyone away when times get rough. I try my best to be friendly towards everyone. I hardly ever ask for anything in return. If someone treats me like shit, most of the time i don't even aknowlage it. I want to be treated like a person. Not an object. not a child. I want to be treated like the adult I'm slowly becoming. If you have a problem with me, you should come to me. Don't be afraid, I won't get mad at you or anything. I won't go around telling people. Just let me know before it gets to be a problem. Let me know when there's still time to fix it. I'm sick of being used and abused. I'm sick of being hurt. Love wasn't meant for high school. I'm tired of boys. For the next year, I won't be in any heterosexual relationships. Those are the ones I get the most caught up in. So if I'm single and you know any bi/lesbian single females, let me know. I am currently taken by the way. I love him very much. So much it hurts. But I'll never be more than second place in his eyes.
Love,
Amanda
I'm sick and tired of being the scapegoat. I'm sick of never being more than second best. I'm sick of making the same stupid mistakes. I'm sick of screwing up my life. I'm sick of ruining things just as life becomes bright. I'm sick of all the constant reminders of the dark parts from my past. Most of all, I'm sick of pushing everyone away when times get rough. I try my best to be friendly towards everyone. I hardly ever ask for anything in return. If someone treats me like shit, most of the time i don't even aknowlage it. I want to be treated like a person. Not an object. not a child. I want to be treated like the adult I'm slowly becoming. If you have a problem with me, you should come to me. Don't be afraid, I won't get mad at you or anything. I won't go around telling people. Just let me know before it gets to be a problem. Let me know when there's still time to fix it. I'm sick of being used and abused. I'm sick of being hurt. Love wasn't meant for high school. I'm tired of boys. For the next year, I won't be in any heterosexual relationships. Those are the ones I get the most caught up in. So if I'm single and you know any bi/lesbian single females, let me know. I am currently taken by the way. I love him very much. So much it hurts. But I'll never be more than second place in his eyes.
Love,
Amanda