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Dear friend,
So much is changing. I really wish I'd cry already, but I can't. The tears just won't come. Today was my last day of camp forever. At least as a camper, I hope to be a counselor next year. It won't be the same, though. I hope Andrey never changes. I mean, I expect him to grow up. I just wwant him to stay the same fun-loving kid I've known for so long. I hope Shelby keep his nature that allows me to tell him everything but out-grows purposly annoying people. Today really has to be one of the saddest days. Not only because of all the good-byes, but everyone is crying and upset and I can''t seem to cry. I mean, kids that only knew me for 3 weeks cried over the fact that I'm leaving. It just won't seem like summer without spending my days at the St. Catherine's campus. I'm leaving for London on Tuesday. Tonight was my last time seeing Ryan for two weeks. Distance makes the heart grow stronger, right? Plus there's family issues.... and meh. I love my family and all. I really do appreciate them. So don't pay much attention to my last post. I was really annoyed and frustrated and stressed when I wrote that. I shouldn't have even posted it. Nicole might move to Florida permenatly. My parents are constantly a each other's throats and it's really hard on my mom. When she isn't crying, she's loopy. I think she's trying to hide the tears with laughter. I wish more people were in town. I miss so many of you so much. I don't know. Right now life is pretty bittersweet.
Love,
Amanda
So much is changing. I really wish I'd cry already, but I can't. The tears just won't come. Today was my last day of camp forever. At least as a camper, I hope to be a counselor next year. It won't be the same, though. I hope Andrey never changes. I mean, I expect him to grow up. I just wwant him to stay the same fun-loving kid I've known for so long. I hope Shelby keep his nature that allows me to tell him everything but out-grows purposly annoying people. Today really has to be one of the saddest days. Not only because of all the good-byes, but everyone is crying and upset and I can''t seem to cry. I mean, kids that only knew me for 3 weeks cried over the fact that I'm leaving. It just won't seem like summer without spending my days at the St. Catherine's campus. I'm leaving for London on Tuesday. Tonight was my last time seeing Ryan for two weeks. Distance makes the heart grow stronger, right? Plus there's family issues.... and meh. I love my family and all. I really do appreciate them. So don't pay much attention to my last post. I was really annoyed and frustrated and stressed when I wrote that. I shouldn't have even posted it. Nicole might move to Florida permenatly. My parents are constantly a each other's throats and it's really hard on my mom. When she isn't crying, she's loopy. I think she's trying to hide the tears with laughter. I wish more people were in town. I miss so many of you so much. I don't know. Right now life is pretty bittersweet.
Love,
Amanda