BLURB......
I still feel like im invading his space when his blood include me as if I belong to them. i love them all dearly but i do not want to cause any kind of friction for any of them. i wanted to take them all to see their grandma....that would be overstepping, so i was going to have them drop me off and pic him up and the family go visit her. that would have been a good thing right?
Again, i am such a fucking girl..i am starting to fall for him all over again. i have to either figure out a way to stop or cut him loose before i make a complete fool out of myself for the third time. when u love someone who can not love you back it feels as if im starving for air and he is holding the hose that is sucking the air out of the display box ive been locked him as an example of what a pathetic woman in love looks like. i want to fight for him, but i am not what he wants and i know this first hand. i am the pathetic friend that is always going to be the one helping and hanging around till i want to slice my throat.
I think he was right and that i am just imagining emotions and feelings from him when there really isnt any at all. i cant even get a friend to friend "luv u" and that hurts. after everything i have tried to help with and be there for him. it's like being the butt of a joke again.....it hurts me, and he couldnt care less.....
Again, i am such a fucking girl..i am starting to fall for him all over again. i have to either figure out a way to stop or cut him loose before i make a complete fool out of myself for the third time. when u love someone who can not love you back it feels as if im starving for air and he is holding the hose that is sucking the air out of the display box ive been locked him as an example of what a pathetic woman in love looks like. i want to fight for him, but i am not what he wants and i know this first hand. i am the pathetic friend that is always going to be the one helping and hanging around till i want to slice my throat.
I think he was right and that i am just imagining emotions and feelings from him when there really isnt any at all. i cant even get a friend to friend "luv u" and that hurts. after everything i have tried to help with and be there for him. it's like being the butt of a joke again.....it hurts me, and he couldnt care less.....