i might as well acknowledge it

[foreverash22]

i love him. i always have. always will. nothing i have done since we broke up has seemed significant in my life. nothing is complete without him. its my fault too. and iknow it. and its my fault we didnt get back together. but i had things to learn and i see everything in a whole new light. i would be better to him then ever before. i appreciate things more now. i wouldnt take it all for granted like i did. i havent met anyone like him. hes amazing. i believe we belong together. but hes with someone new. and i know hes happy. and i'm glad. i just wish it was me making him happy. i love him. i miss him. and i hope someday we will be together again so i can treat him like he deserves. i'd show him so much love. he knows i love him and want to be with him more then anything. and thats all that i can do....is let him know. no more keeping it bottled up. and if it never works out..fine, i've accepted that that's a huge possibility. or maybe probability. but i need to acknowledge what is there and stop ignoring.

i hope i find someone. i hope i will be happy like he is now. i will never forget him and what we had. hes always in my heart. but i'm ready to be happy again. like i was.

someday my time will come and i'll find love and happiness. and i'll be able to give someone the same back.

it will be amazing.

so until then....

i wait.