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[forever_x_yourz]

Omg i just really have 2 write. I dont know whats goin on. I just feel so alone. So empty. Im really going through so much right now. Ive just been not showing it. Because of weed. But deep down its not helping. It just makes things 100x worse. Ugh. But what can u do when ur addicted? I dont have the time, patience, or nerves for therapy. I think

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[imnotworth_it]

olivia, are you fucking serious? i had no idea you were going through this much crap!!!!! i dont even know where to being, but here it goes. and please read it all olivia.
you are so not alone. do you have any idea how many people care about you, and love you? obviously not. there are tons and tons and tons of people who would give anything to make you happy.
i dont know what to say about the weed thing. i know its tough. when your addicted, theres not much you can do. i want you to try anything you can to stop. anything you hear me? dont smoke it anymore. just stop. its soooooo fucking hard, trust me i stopped before. and it was hell. but you can do it. you have the power and strength.
if having a boyfriend is too hard on you now, then dump me. i would rather have anything then that, but i want you to feel better. we could take a break. im not helping at all. so seriously, if you want to break up, tell me. ill deal with it.
dont fucking talk like that. you cant go on? shut the fuck up olivia. your so strong. i dont know exactly whats going on with your and your life right now, but thats bull shit. you can do ANYTHING. i cant stand to see you like this. you have no idea how hard it is for me to hear you say this crap. dont cut yourself. that wont help. ive done that before too. many many many many times. it helped at that point and time, but trust me... it just fucked me up so much more. dont cut. DONT.
SO many people care about you, its insane. the reason noones helping is because noone knew you were like this! your always so happy. this is sudden. very sudden, and very shocking. :-(
i am here for you. i always always always will be. no matter what. talk to me olivia. i want to help you. you have no idea. im fucking pissed that your like this. angry, sad, whatever. its affecting me badly. i love you olivia. i love you so much. i am here.

i love you.

[forever_x_yourz]

I LOVE U BRIAN JOHNATHON MACKEN!!! U have no idea...NO IDEA how much u help me. And how happy u make me. I love u i love u i love u! Thank u so much for that. That was what i needed. And coming from u, it made me feel so much better. Just... Thank u. I hope u realize how much that meant 2 me. I love u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<3Olivia