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Im finding myself feeling extremely lost and lonely lately. I thought I was getting better, then as soon as Im left alone where I can think again, I feel like this. Im trying to move on but I can't stop thinking about her still. She deserves something better than me but I can't stand to imagine her with someone else. I think I really could've changed and made everything work, but putting myself in her shoes, I understand why she wouldn't give me another chance. I don't know. I don't ever talk about my problems with anyone so Im going to continue to do it here. I've tried to go on a date and it didn't work. The girl said she really wanted to go, then put it off til the next day, then the next day put it off to "sometime soon". So I guess she's not really into me. Feeling rejected at this point in my life feels worse than anything lol. But Im sure one day, I'll be fine again and hopefully I can find someone that I'll allow myself to love and care about as much as I do/did Angie. And I've got to find a fucking job. I've put in one appplication but Im pretty sure Im not going to get a call about it.