siiiigh.
so, some of my stuff sold on ebay, which is definitely good news. i'm not even worried about the money aspect, to be honest, i just really need to get rid of all of my stuff. i'm trying to cut my life down to as little materialistic things as i can.
speaking of stuff, i got the two best things in the mail the other day! i finally got my blackspot shoes and no sweat shoes. it feels good to get a new pair of shoes since i've been wearing the same tennis shoes from like 9th grade, and i found those in a dumpster, and my feet got really cold in them.
so, what else is new? nothing really. i had four days off from work, and i go back today, but it was a really nice break. i'm done working 6786 hours a week and stressing myself out. dustin and i got a lot of stuff taken care of for christmas, which i still don't feel comfortable celebrating, but he's insisting we do the whole gift exchange thing. i must admit though, our christmas tree looks amazing. for the first time in a long time, i feel like i did when i was a kid, excited, loved, safe. it's a really nice feeling. i insisted that he only buy me vinyl and nothing from the mall. everything must be online or used.
i've been making a conscious effort to think about where my crap comes from and what's in it. i mean, i've taken the step to do this with my food, but i was still buying crest toothpaste or the cheapest laundry detergent. dustin and i slipped up a lot this past month, vegan wise, but we're finally on the right track again. there was a week where we ate a pizza...and junk food. i'm glad that's over. my goal for next year is to learn how to cook better.
anyways, i've been listening to a lot of defiance, ohio, and the other night, i was looking for live videos online, and i found a video of a concert of heathers (this band who toured with ghost mice while i rode with them for a few shows), and it was from a show in bloomington. well, i'm in the video! it's insane! i wasn't expecting it, and dustin realized that i was in it. here it is. I'm scratching my back and looking like an idiot. i was pretty tired by then.
dustin is on a kick to try to get me friends. it's pretty cute. he keeps asking if i want to go to connellsville to visit my friends, or if i want to go to the cafe down the street. to be honest, i really feel lonely, but i don't think i even know how to make friends anymore. it feels weird talking to anyone. i'm in a lonely slump. i wish i had people to do things with.
honestly though, things have been prettttty good.
speaking of stuff, i got the two best things in the mail the other day! i finally got my blackspot shoes and no sweat shoes. it feels good to get a new pair of shoes since i've been wearing the same tennis shoes from like 9th grade, and i found those in a dumpster, and my feet got really cold in them.
so, what else is new? nothing really. i had four days off from work, and i go back today, but it was a really nice break. i'm done working 6786 hours a week and stressing myself out. dustin and i got a lot of stuff taken care of for christmas, which i still don't feel comfortable celebrating, but he's insisting we do the whole gift exchange thing. i must admit though, our christmas tree looks amazing. for the first time in a long time, i feel like i did when i was a kid, excited, loved, safe. it's a really nice feeling. i insisted that he only buy me vinyl and nothing from the mall. everything must be online or used.
i've been making a conscious effort to think about where my crap comes from and what's in it. i mean, i've taken the step to do this with my food, but i was still buying crest toothpaste or the cheapest laundry detergent. dustin and i slipped up a lot this past month, vegan wise, but we're finally on the right track again. there was a week where we ate a pizza...and junk food. i'm glad that's over. my goal for next year is to learn how to cook better.
anyways, i've been listening to a lot of defiance, ohio, and the other night, i was looking for live videos online, and i found a video of a concert of heathers (this band who toured with ghost mice while i rode with them for a few shows), and it was from a show in bloomington. well, i'm in the video! it's insane! i wasn't expecting it, and dustin realized that i was in it. here it is. I'm scratching my back and looking like an idiot. i was pretty tired by then.
dustin is on a kick to try to get me friends. it's pretty cute. he keeps asking if i want to go to connellsville to visit my friends, or if i want to go to the cafe down the street. to be honest, i really feel lonely, but i don't think i even know how to make friends anymore. it feels weird talking to anyone. i'm in a lonely slump. i wish i had people to do things with.
honestly though, things have been prettttty good.